Debut EP, The Boat Of The Fragile Mind, out April 9.
Biography
London native Amelia Bushell caught the attention of Thomas Servidone while performing at an open mic in Brooklyn, NY. The chance encounter between the two turned into a collaboration that would quickly become Belle Mare.
After just the first two meetings between the two, the duo had written their first two songs, one of them being their first single, "The Boat of the Fragile Mind", a haunting pop ballad that would define their signature blend of serene vocal melodies, ornamented with subtle pianos and dazzling synth textures.
Within the next four months, the duo wrote and recorded their first full length album, The Boat of the Fragile Mind, all in the modest confines of Thomas's apartment in Brooklyn.
With influences ranging from Sibylle Baier and Mazzy Star to darker indie acts such as The Notwist and Grouper, Belle Mare effortlessly compounds a modern vibe with retrospective leanings to create something nostalgic yet exploratory.
Deep In Your Dark
Belle Mare Lyrics
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I'm not so good anymore
Isn't that what you tend to light up for?
Hug my heart
And it ends up deep in your dark
But my home cannot be there
‘cause a home is not for me to be scared.
And the safety that I have sown,
In the back where we fought so long,
You were pulling on and on.
I'll fight my own damn war…
I'm not so good anymore…
Isn't that what you tend to light up for?
The artist in Belle Mare's song Deep In Your Dark expresses a powerful sentiment of self-reliance against someone she once depended on. She begins by stating her desire to fight her own battles alone. The artist acknowledges that she is no longer as good as she once was, and the person she's addressing might have noticed this, leading them to think she needs their help. Yet, the artist dismisses this assumption, questioning why this person likes to "light up" when she seems weak or vulnerable.
The artist seems to have given her heart to this person in the past, as she sings "Hug my heart, And it ends up deep in your dark". However, she realizes that this person's world isn't hers, and her home is not with them. She recognizes that a "home" isn't a place where she feels scared; instead, it's a place where she can feel safe no matter the circumstances.
The second verse continues with the artist discussing the progress she has made in moving on from this person. She highlights the safety she has created for herself, contrasting it with the past when she and this person were fighting. The artist then notes that even in rebuilding her life away from this person, they were still holding on to her, trying to maintain control over her.
Overall, the song tells a story of strength and independence in the face of adversity. The artist acknowledges her past and vulnerability but ultimately chooses to rely on herself to create a sense of safety and home.
Line by Line Meaning
I'll fight my own damn war
I am willing to take on my own battles and struggles without relying on the help of others.
I'm not so good anymore
I am struggling and going through a difficult time, and may not be doing as well as I once was.
Isn't that what you tend to light up for?
Don't you typically enjoy seeing others fall or struggle and thrive on their misfortunes?
Hug my heart
Hold me close and show me affection.
And it ends up deep in your dark
But this intimacy and vulnerability I share with you ultimately gets buried and lost in your own hidden, painful experiences.
But my home cannot be there
However, I cannot make your darkness my permanent residence or try to fix your issues for you.
‘cause a home is not for me to be scared.
I need a safe and stable environment to thrive, and cannot live in constant fear or uncertainty.
By the strides that I take at dawn,
My journey towards progress and healing begins each day with new steps.
And the safety that I have sown,
I work hard to create a sense of security and peace for myself, even in the face of challenges.
In the back where we fought so long,
But even as I move forward, I am haunted by the past and the battles I fought alongside you for so long.
You were pulling on and on.
You were dragging me down with your own issues and problems, making it difficult for me to progress and heal.
Contributed by Owen G. Suggest a correction in the comments below.