Breakdown
Ben Burnley/Breaking Benjamin Lyrics

Let the fun and games begin
Starting the process of breaking down emotionally, which is a painful but necessary process.

She is spayed and broken in
The singer is referring to a woman, who has been hurt and is carrying emotional scars.

Skin is cold and white
The woman's emotional pain has led to physical symptoms such as pale skin and emotional detachment.

Such a lovely lonely night
The artist is acknowledging the beauty in the sadness and loneliness of the night, possibly suggesting that it's therapeutic for him.

Heaven is on the way
A sense of relief or escape is imminent, but it's not entirely clear what that relief entails.

You could feel the hate
The singer is filled with negative emotions, and they may be palpable to others around him.

But I guess you never will
Others may not be able to fully understand or relate to the singer's emotional pain and struggles.

I'm on a roll again
The artist's emotions are starting to spiral out of control again, perhaps suggesting frequent emotional breakdowns.

And I want an end
The artist wants a resolution or an end to the emotional turmoil they're experiencing.

'Cause I feel you creeping in
Someone or something is adding to the emotional stress and pain of the artist, possibly a person or a past trauma that triggers negative emotions.

What I found in this town
Also referring to past trauma, possibly the singer's roots and past experiences in this particular town.

I'm heading for a breakdown
The artist knows that an emotional breakdown is on the horizon and is bracing themselves for it.

What's that sound, you're so loud
The noises or voices in the singer's head are becoming loud and overwhelming, possibly a sign of a coming breakdown.

Drank up all my alcohol
The singer may be engaging in unhealthy coping mechanisms such as drinking alcohol to numb the emotional pain.

This is not a free for all
Acknowledging that trying to numb the pain with alcohol is not a healthy or sustainable solution to the problem.

I'll be there for you
Despite his own struggles, the artist is willing to be there for someone else, possibly the woman he mentioned earlier.

'Til my heart is black and blue
The artist is willing to help until he himself is emotionally damaged and hurt, possibly suggesting an unhealthy pattern of taking care of others at the expense of his own emotional wellbeing.

You breakdown, you're so proud.
It's almost a taunt to anyone who might judge the singer for breaking down repeatedly, suggesting that it's a natural and necessary part of the healing process.

No!
The singer may be trying to snap himself out of the negative thought pattern or emotions he's experiencing.