Ben has released songs on both The Punisher and Fantastic Four soundtracks (the former also features fellow Evanescence co-founder, Amy Lee performing with Seether).
On Tuesday December 16, 2008 he released his Mutiny Bootleg EP, which came free with a copy of Hana Pestle's EP that night. Moody is quoted as saying "there’s a duet between Hana and I on there that won't be on the record and won’t be released anywhere ever again. It’s free because I want this sh*t spread everywhere, so be sure that all your friends share the four songs with as many people as possible!" The EP is therefore available for free download from http://drop.io/benmoodymutinybootlegep.
His debut solo album, All For This, featuring Hana Pestle on backing vocals, has been in the works since 2005 and was released June 9, 2009 on iTunes, Amazon MP3 and Amie Street via his own record label. The physical release is forthcoming.
We Are The Fallen, featuring Ben Moody, John LeCompt and Rocky Gray (all formerly of Evanescence), along with Carly Smithson and Marty O'Brien, debuted on June 22, 2009 with the song "Bury Me Alive."
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Run Away
Ben Moody Lyrics
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Through everything you threw at me
I never saw the light
Now, the pain keeps digging in
Reminder of mistakes
I never wish I made
I don't wanna run away
I wanna stay, but you won't change at all
And now the fear
That hides inside you
Rushes out of every bone
As I walk beside you
I feal your hate surround me
I don't wanna be you anymore
I don't wanna run away
I don't wanna be the one who falls
I wanna stay, but you won't change at all
You won't listen to the world outside
And you won't think I'll look inside
I can't change you anymore
I don't wanna run away
I don't wanna be the one who falls
I wanna stay, but you won't change at all
(I don't wana run)
I don't wanna run away
I don't wanna be the one who falls
I wanna stay, but you won't change at all
(I don't wanna run)
I lie on my own
Never will I love another
She knows, oh, she knows
Keeping the ghost of another
I died all alone
Never will I hold another
She knows, God, she knows
I am the ghost of another
I lie on my own
Never will I love another
She knows, oh, she knows
Keeping the ghost of another
I die all alone
Never will I hold another
She knows, God, she knows
I am the ghost of another
In Ben Moody's song "Run Away," the singer describes his experience of enduring pain and discomfort, caused by someone they once loved. The singer has been brave and resilient in the face of all the adversity thrown their way, but even after all their efforts, they fail to see the light. They face a constant reminder of their past mistakes, and the pain keeps digging in. The singer chooses not to run, but they don't want to fall either. They don't want to escape what they feel, but they also don't want to surrender to the powerlessness of their situation. They choose to stay, even though deep down, they know that the person they love won't change.
However, the relationship is toxic, and the fear that hides inside the lover is unleashed every time the singer is around. The pain and the hatred this person feels, surround the singer like a cloud. The singer has had enough and doesn't want to be a part of this anymore. They refuse to run away, but at the same time, they can't change their lover. The singer emphasizes that their lover won't listen to the world outside and that they won't look within themselves for answers. The singer has finally realized that they can't change someone else, and they don't want to fall further.
The song ends by describing the emptiness the singer feels. They lie on their own, knowing that they may never love or hold another again. Their lover will always know that they are keeping the ghost of someone else. The singer has died on the inside and knows that they will always be the ghost of another to their lover.
Line by Line Meaning
Days, I traveled on for days
I've been through a lot and endured it for a long time.
Through everything you threw at me
Despite all the obstacles you threw at me, I kept going.
I never saw the light
I never saw a way out of the darkness and misery.
Now, the pain keeps digging in
The hurt and suffering persist and continue to affect me.
Reminder of mistakes
I'm constantly reminded of the wrong choices I made.
I never wish I made
I regret those decisions and wish I could undo them.
And now the fear
There's an overwhelming sense of dread.
That hides inside you
It's something you keep bottled up and don't express.
Rushes out of every bone
But it's becoming too much to contain and is starting to show.
As I walk beside you
I can sense it as I'm around you.
I feel your hate around me
Your animosity towards me is palpable and affecting me.
I don't wanna be you anymore
I don't want to be associated with you or your negativity anymore.
You won't listen to the world outside
You refuse to heed advice or consider others' perspectives.
And you won't think I'll look inside
You don't think I'm capable of introspection or change.
I can't change you anymore
I've given up trying to change you because it's impossible.
I lie on my own
I'm alone in my misery.
Never will I love another
I've been so hurt that I can't imagine loving anyone again.
She knows, oh, she knows
Someone else understands my pain and struggles.
Keeping the ghost of another
It's difficult to move on from past relationships and experiences.
I died all alone
I feel like a part of me has died and I'm experiencing it alone.
Never will I hold another
I can't imagine being close to someone else again.
I am the ghost of another
My past experiences and relationships haunt me and shape who I am.
Contributed by Julia Y. Suggest a correction in the comments below.