Afraid Of Love
Beth Waters Lyrics

I used to hide behind the curtains of my living room
I was so afraid of seeing or interacting with the person I liked, that I would physically hide from them in my own home.

Everytime I thought about you coming to my door
The mere thought of you coming to my door filled me with anxiety and apprehension.

I would hang up the phone before you ever said hello
I was too afraid of talking to you on the phone, so I would quickly end the call before we even had a chance to exchange greetings.

And dash into another aisle when Id see you at the store
Even the prospect of running into you at the store was enough to send me running away to another aisle to avoid any potential interaction.

I was afraid
My fear of love and interaction with you was so overwhelming that it consumed my thoughts and actions.

One day I noticed I was looking for your face in crowds
Despite my fear, I couldn't help but constantly search for you in every crowd, constantly wondering if you still thought of me or if I had been forgotten.

And wondered if in fact you had forgotten about me
As much as I wanted to avoid you, the thought of being forgotten hurt even more, and left me with a sense of longing to connect with you.

I waited by the phone to see if you would call again
As my longing for you grew, I couldn't help but wait by the phone, hoping that you would reach out to me again and give me a chance to connect with you.

And watched out of my window with my head upon my knees
I spent countless hours gazing out the window, lost in thought and with my head upon my knees, consumed by the overwhelming fear and longing that filled me.

I wanna fall
Despite my fear and anxiety, my longing to connect with you and experience love grew stronger every day.

Now I see love everywhere I go
As my desire for love grew, I began to see it around me everywhere I went, from the songs on the radio to the couples sitting in the park.

Its in the songs on the radio
Even the simplest things, like the songs on the radio, were enough to remind me of love and make me yearn for a connection with you.

An old couple sitting in the park at noon
Seeing an old couple simply sitting in the park enjoying each other's company was enough to make my heart ache for that same connection.

Eating heart shaped cookies
Even watching someone eating heart-shaped cookies was enough to remind me of love and make me want to experience it for myself.

Oh god what did I do?
My fear was so overwhelming that I felt as though I had missed out on so many opportunities to experience love, and wondered what it was that had held me back for so long.

Then came the day that I had secretly been wishing for
Despite my fear, I couldn't help but secretly wish for the day when I would finally have the opportunity to connect with you and experience love.

You walked into a coffee shop where I was having tea
When you finally walked into the same coffee shop where I was having tea, it was as though fate had brought us together.

I glanced into your eyes, my body started panicking
Even in that moment, my fear was still present and my body filled with panic at the thought of interacting with you.

Then suddenly your head came down and kissed me on the cheek
But in a sudden and unexpected moment, you showed me affection and tenderness by kissing me on the cheek, and it was as though all of my fears vanished in that instant.

From there its all a blur, I cant remember what you said
In that moment of connection, everything else faded away and all that existed was the two of us. Even the words that were spoken became a blur in my mind.

I just kept staring at your lips, repeating in my head the words
In that moment, all I could focus on was the feeling of love and closeness, and I repeated the words of my newfound love for you over and over again in my mind.

I am in love
Finally, after all of my fear and longing, I had found love with you - and it was everything I had ever hoped for.

Ooo ooo ooo ooo
These indistinct sounds could be interpreted as an expression of joy and satisfaction.

In love with you
Ultimately, the fear that had once consumed me was overcome by the power of love, and I finally found connection with you where it had been lacking before.