Autodidact
Between the Buried and Me Lyrics


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(begin) The freethinking brain can finally travel. Take in the radio waves and stew up that imagination... I worry too much... boredom gets to me... pussy... yes they call me this... the masters of the ocean churn down in my mind... calling me only what I feel at times... I just want to be loved and liked by everyone... shining down on my every move... impossible thoughts... stay on this cruise... never go back, relaxation calms these metal nerves... need to just let go and become a giant... forcing the improvement of our musican system... one can't do such, especially with such a lack of confidence... maybe they see it... maybe they frown upon this face... time ... I keep drifting away... I look forward to these days physically, but mentally they can become very tiring... why worry... personal hapiness should be all that matters... (I feel this most of the time) days like today mordecai flies down on this ship and stares me in the eyes (every time, can't change) maybe I should just be this bedroom performer I keep hearing of... no pressure, no boundaries... only personal pleasing... coward... yes I call myself this... control... control me... sit back now... piss it all away.. loser losing lost... (scene)




Overall Meaning

The lyrics of "Autodidact" by Between the Buried and Me are a reflection on the internal struggles of an artist pursuing their passion. The song describes the struggle for creativity and inspiration and the tendency to be self-critical and doubt one's abilities. The opening lines suggest that the freethinking brain is unrestricted and able to process radio waves, indicating the breadth of the artist's imagination. However, the artist has a tendency to worry too much and become bored, which leads to feelings of inadequacy and self-contempt.


The song also touches upon themes of social anxiety and the desire to be liked and accepted by everyone. The artist craves the approval of others, and this need for validation is further complicated by the conflicting desire for artistic freedom and self-expression. The lyrics conclude with a recognition of the fleeting nature of personal happiness and a sense of resignation to the artist's identity and limitations.


Overall, the song offers a poignant examination of the inner life of an artist and the challenges they face in pursuing their craft.


Line by Line Meaning

The freethinking brain can finally travel.
I am finally allowing my mind to freely wander and explore different ideas.


Take in the radio waves and stew up that imagination...
I'm soaking in the inspiration from the world around me and using it to fuel my creativity.


I worry too much...
I tend to overthink and obsess over things, which can be draining and unproductive.


Boredom gets to me...
I struggle with feeling restless and uninspired when my environment or routine becomes stagnant.


Pussy... yes they call me this...
Others may view me as weak or cowardly, perhaps because of my insecurities or reluctance to take risks.


The masters of the ocean churn down in my mind...
I am constantly battling my inner demons and trying to reconcile conflicting thoughts and emotions.


Calling me only what I feel at times...
Sometimes I struggle to articulate my true feelings and rely on others to understand me.


I just want to be loved and liked by everyone...
I crave validation and often prioritize others' opinions of me over my own self-worth.


Shining down on my every move...
I feel a sense of pressure or scrutiny from others, especially when it comes to my artistic expression or public persona.


Impossible thoughts... stay on this cruise...
I am grappling with complex or seemingly unattainable ideas, but am trying to stay afloat and keep pushing forward regardless.


Never go back, relaxation calms these metal nerves...
I am committed to progress and growth, and find peace and serenity in pursuing my passions.


Need to just let go and become a giant...
I am striving to shed my doubts and limitations and fully embrace my potential and power.


Forcing the improvement of our musican system...
I am passionate about creating and pushing the boundaries of music, and am determined to elevate and evolve the industry.


One can't do such, especially with such a lack of confidence...
I recognize that my self-doubt and insecurity can be hindrances to my goals and growth.


Maybe they see it... maybe they frown upon this face...
I am aware that others may have negative perceptions of me or my work, which can be discouraging or demoralizing.


Time ... I keep drifting away...
I struggle with staying present and focused, and often lose track of time or find myself daydreaming or lost in thought.


I look forward to these days physically, but mentally they can become very tiring...
Even though I enjoy pursuing my passions, I recognize that it can be mentally and emotionally draining.


Why worry... personal hapiness should be all that matters...
I am trying to shift my focus towards prioritizing my own happiness and peace, rather than external validation or pressure.


(I feel this most of the time) days like today mordecai flies down on this ship and stares me in the eyes (every time, can't change)...
I often feel a sense of unease or anxiety, represented metaphorically by the character Mordecai in this song, who serves as a symbol of my fears and insecurities.


Maybe I should just be this bedroom performer I keep hearing of... no pressure, no boundaries...
I sometimes consider retreating from the public eye and pursuing my art in a more private, low-pressure setting.


Only personal pleasing...
I am seeking to prioritize my own creative fulfillment and enjoyment over external validation or commercial success.


Coward... yes I call myself this...
I am cognizant of my own self-doubt and often feel as though I am not living up to my full potential.


Control... control me...
I struggle with a sense of powerlessness or lack of agency in certain situations, and sometimes feel as though I am at the mercy of outside forces or influences.


Sit back now... piss it all away.. loser losing lost... (scene)
I sometimes feel defeated or helpless, and may engage in self-destructive or escapist behaviors in response.




Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Peermusic Publishing
Written by: Cartland Blake Richardson, Daniel Lanford Briggs, Paul Andrew Waggoner, Robert Dustin Waring, Thomas Giles Rogers Jr.

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