After two demo tapes in 1990 and 1991, the band were picked up by French label Adipocere Records, which made possible the band's first two commercial releases, 1993's Up Through the Linear Shades 7" and 1994's Longing For Scarlet Days EP. In 1995, Beyond Dawn released their critically acclaimed full length debut Pity Love on Candlelight Records. Soon after, the band began work on an album intended to be a departure from the doom metal music they were becoming known for, but their record label was less than pleased with the band's drastic change in sound and they were soon in search of a new label. They eventually signed with Misanthropy Records and released Revelry in 1998 to more critical praise. Beyond Dawn eventually resumed work on the would-be 1996 album and, after adding additional material and overdubs, released In Reverie in 1999 on Eibon Records, which would also be reissued in 2005 with two bonus tracks included. During the latter half of 1999, they released Electric Sulking Machine on the Peaceville label, which soon became a favorite amongst fans and remains sought after due to its limited pressing.
Due in part to the limited commercial success of Frysh, the band went on hiatus in 2003 to focus on other projects. Some time later, several tracks from Frysh were remixed by various electronic and EBM artists and released in the form of the double LP We're Down With Species of Any Kind in 2005. The band remains on an indefinite hiatus.
Far From Showbiz
Beyond Dawn Lyrics
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No I don't really want to know when
One hundred ringing bells are flirting so intensely with my hands
And now dizziness
I feel like someone else so uncertain
I'm going up to front expensive microphones
I don't promise to speak an honest word
When it's absurd I'm even so fry
In the room what can I do but move around the floor
It's just a silly joke
Pleasure keeps on burnin' up my nose
If I only were a little more disturbed
I would have done it
Am I that far from shobiz
I feel I press my head against the ceiling
I set my aim for the sky
I can't be short of soul or lack the meaning
Am I that far from shobiz
I have not even tried expressing feelings
With the light in my eyes
Fucked from behind
I touch freedom
The opening lines of “Far From Showbiz” by Beyond Dawn suggest that the singer is more of an ethereal and transient figure rather than an actual person, only appearing on occasion between the real world. The singer then mentions that they do not want to know when there are “one hundred ringing bells” that are flirting strongly with their hands, leading to a feeling of dizziness. The next lines seem to imply that the singer is performing on stage in front of expensive microphones and is not going to promise honesty in their words or actions. Instead, they seem to be caught up in the pleasure and excitement of the moment. Their inexperience in this situation is made clear, with a lack of concern for measuring the applause or even knowing how to move around the floor. Despite seeming a bit out of place, the singer is determined to continue with their act, even making a joking reference to their own feelings of uncertainty about the performance.
The chorus of the song asks if the singer is really that far from showbiz, despite attempting to set their aim for the sky and not wanting to be lacking in soul or meaning. They seem to have not yet tried to express their true feelings, shown through the line, “I have not even tried expressing feelings with the light in my eyes.” Despite any sense of disorientation or deception, the singer seems to be enjoying their freedom and may continue on this path if pushed a little further.
Line by Line Meaning
I am someone a few seconds now and then between the real
I feel like I exist in between moments, not fully in reality.
No I don't really want to know when
I don't want to know the truth or face reality.
One hundred ringing bells are flirting so intensely with my hands
There are many possibilities, but I am not sure which one to take.
And now dizziness
I am feeling disoriented and unsure.
I feel like someone else so uncertain
I don't feel like myself and I am not sure about anything.
I'm going up to front expensive microphones
I am in the spotlight with everyone's attention on me.
I don't promise to speak an honest word
I am not committed to telling the truth.
When it's absurd I'm even so fry
Even in the face of absurdity, I am still unfazed.
I take no measure whatsoever out of the applause
I don't care about the praise or recognition I receive.
In the room what can I do but move around the floor
I am not sure what else to do, so I just keep moving.
It's just a silly joke
Everything feels meaningless and trivial.
Pleasure keeps on burnin' up my nose
I am seeking pleasure to distract from my uncertainty and discomfort.
If I only were a little more disturbed
If I were more troubled, I might take more drastic actions.
I would have done it
I would have taken more drastic actions if I weren't so hesitant.
Am I that far from shobiz
Do I feel disconnected from the showbiz world?
I feel I press my head against the ceiling
I feel limited or constrained in my abilities or potential.
I set my aim for the sky
I am ambitious but unsure if I can achieve my goals.
I can't be short of soul or lack the meaning
I need to have passion and purpose to be successful in showbiz.
I have not even tried expressing feelings
I am hesitant to express my emotions honestly and openly.
With the light in my eyes
I am hopeful and optimistic about the future.
Fucked from behind
I feel taken advantage of or mistreated.
I touch freedom
Despite my struggles, I am able to find moments of liberation and independence.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: EINAR SJURSO, ESPEN INGIERD, PETTER HAAVIK, TORE GJEDREM
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