BITTERSUITE
Billie Eilish Lyrics

I can't fall in love with you
The intense emotional pull I feel is overshadowed by the understanding that a romantic relationship is unwise.

I've been overseas
I've been away from my familiar surroundings, experiencing life and detachment.

I've been havin' dreams
My subconscious has been filled with recurring thoughts and desires that haunt my sleep.

You were in the foyer
In my dreams, you appear as a significant presence, waiting at an important threshold.

I was on my knees
I find myself in a vulnerable position, perhaps longing or pleading for something unattainable.

Outside of my body
I feel detached from my physical self, as if observing my reality from an external perspective.

Watchin' from above
I am a passive observer, reflecting on my emotions and situation with a sense of detachment.

I see the way you want me
I can perceive your desire for me, even if it complicates my feelings.

I wanna be the one
I yearn to be the person you choose, yet I'm conflicted about the implications.

But I gotta be careful
I must tread lightly and consider the consequences of my feelings.

Gotta watch what I say
I need to be mindful of my words to avoid misunderstandings or complications.

God, I hope it all goes away
I wish for these overwhelming feelings to dissipate, providing me with peace.

'Cause I can't fall in love with you
Despite my strong feelings, I recognize that love is not a feasible option for me.

No matter how bad I want to
Regardless of my deep longing, I understand that love may lead to inevitable heartache.

I don't need to breathe when you look at me, all I see is green
Your gaze captivates me to the point of losing my sense of self; green symbolizes both envy and desire.

And I think that we're in between everything I've seen
We're caught in a liminal space, straddling reality and fantasy based on my experiences.

In my dream, have it once a week, can't land on my feet
These dreams occur regularly, yet they leave me feeling disoriented and unstable upon waking.

Can't sleep, have you underneath all of my beliefs
Rest eludes me as my thoughts are consumed by the notion of you, challenging my foundational views.

Keep it brief
Let's maintain simplicity in this situation, avoiding overcomplication.

I'll wait in the suite
I am willing to remain in a place of potential connection, hopeful yet patient.

Keep me off my feet, mm
I seek to be swept away by emotions or experiences, longing for that exhilarating state.

You seem so paranoid
I notice your unease and distrust, likely stemming from past experiences.

I'm looking at the boys
Your anxieties manifest as suspicions about my attention towards others.

I've never filled the void
Despite attempts, I haven't been able to address or heal the emptiness within.

Out of spite
My actions may be influenced by bitterness or unresolved feelings.

You seem so paralyzed
Your emotional state renders you immobile, trapped in your thoughts.

It's so romanticized
There’s a tendency to idealize our situation, despite its underlying complexities.

If this is how I die, that's alright
If these tumultuous feelings are my end, I accept it as part of my journey.

I've been overseas
My physical and emotional journeys have distanced me from what’s familiar.

I don't need to breathe when you look at me
Your presence creates an overwhelming sensation that renders other needs insignificant.

All I see is green
I’m consumed with feelings of envy or desire in response to your gaze.

And I think that we're in between everything I've seen
We occupy a space unclear and undefined, influenced by past experiences.

In my dream, have it once a week, can't land on my feet
Frequent dreams leave me feeling ungrounded and searching for stability.

Can't sleep, have you underneath all of my beliefs
My thoughts about you challenge my core beliefs, making rest impossible.

Keep it brief
Let’s not complicate our situation further; simplicity is key.

I'll see you in the suite
I will look for chances to connect in private, away from external distractions.

We can be discrete
Our interactions can be secretive, avoiding the judgment of the outside world.

But I've been overseas
My emotional distance from you reflects my broader experiences away from familiarity.

And I've been havin' dreams
Recurring dreams signify unresolved feelings and pressure to deal with them.

L'amour de ma vie
You represent the quintessential love I yearn for, despite the complications involved.

Love so bittersweet, mm
The nature of this love combines intense joy with inevitable pain.

Open up the door for me, for me
I am pleading for your emotional openness to allow a deeper connection.

'Cause I'm still on my knees
I remain in a humble position, seeking reconciliation or acceptance.

I'm stayin' off my feet
I choose to remain grounded until I can better understand my feelings.

(Will you come with me?)
I desire companionship, seeking reassurance in shared experiences.

(I just want you to tell the truth)
Honesty is the foundation I hope for in our interactions.

(Come on, ha)
A call for lightness amidst the seriousness, urging authenticity.

(I know it seems to just be the beginning)
Recognizing that we are at the start of something profound and potentially transformative.

(Listen up, hm)
An invitation for you to be attentive and receptive to what I’m expressing.

(I want you to keep on doing it)
Encouraging continuity in the behaviors or feelings that draw us together.

(It's something I don't know)
Acknowledging uncertainty in my feelings, adding to the complexity of this connection.

(I've never paid this much attention to you, ever)
My newfound focus on you highlights the depth of my feelings and the significance you hold.