Everything I Wanted
Billie Eilish Lyrics


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I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what you'd think
And if I'm being honest

It might've been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly (fly)
So I stepped off the Golden, mm
Nobody cried (cried, cried, cried, cried)
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care)

I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me

And you say, "As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you hear
They don't deserve you"

I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like I'm not just somebody's daughter

Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I don't wanna let anybody know
'Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I don't wanna let 'em down

I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me

And you say, "As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you hear
They don't deserve you"

If I knew it all then would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then would I do it again?
Would I do it again?




If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?

Overall Meaning

In the song "Everything I Wanted," Billie Eilish expresses her innermost thoughts and fears, revealing a vulnerability that is both moving and haunting. At first, the lyrics seem to describe a dream that she is sharing with the listener. However, as the song progresses, it becomes clear that the dream may also be a nightmare, as she is haunted by the fear that her success could be temporary, her life could fall apart, and no one would care. In essence, she is expressing a sense of alienation and isolation, feeling that she is alone in the world and that nobody is truly there for her.


In the first verse, Billie sings about a dream she had where she got everything she wanted. She speaks of stepping off the "Golden," which could be a metaphor for fame and success. However, despite having all the success she wanted, nobody seemed to care or notice. The second verse takes a darker turn, as Billie describes feeling emotionally suffocated and oppressed by the criticism and expectations of others. She alludes to a potential suicide attempt by saying that she tried to scream, but her head was underwater.


The chorus of the song features a bittersweet melody and highlights the importance of having someone who cares for you. Billie sings about waking up to see the person she loves next to her, saying that as long as they are there, she will not be hurt. She speaks about wanting to change the way she sees herself to better deal with the criticism that comes with fame.


"Everything I Wanted" is a powerful and deeply personal song that speaks about Billie Eilish's struggles with fame and fortune. It's a reminder that despite their successes, even famous people can feel lost and alone.


Line by Line Meaning

I had a dream
The singer had a dream.


I got everything I wanted
The dream was about getting everything the singer wanted.


Not what you'd think
The dream was different from what one would expect.


And if I'm being honest
The singer is being truthful.


It might've been a nightmare
The dream may have been a nightmare instead of a good one.


To anyone who might care
If anyone cares about the dream, they may find it disturbing.


Thought I could fly (fly)
The singer had a belief that they could fly (literally or metaphorically).


So I stepped off the Golden, mm
The singer took a risky step towards their goal, symbolized by the Golden (could be a metaphor or a literal reference).


Nobody cried (cried, cried, cried, cried)
No one expressed sadness or concern when the singer took a risk.


Nobody even noticed
No one paid attention to the singer's action.


I saw them standing right there
There were people present when the singer took the risk.


Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care)
The singer expected the onlookers to care, but they didn't.


But when I wake up, I see
The dream ends, and the singer wakes up.


You with me
The singer has someone with them when they wake up.


And you say, "As long as I'm here
The person with the singer speaks up.


No one can hurt you
They promise to protect the singer from harm.


Don't wanna lie here
They don't want to stay in bed and do nothing.


But you can learn to
They encourage the singer to learn something instead of wasting time.


If I could change
The person wishes they could change something.


The way that you see yourself
They want to change the singer's self-perception.


You wouldn't wonder why you hear
The singer wouldn't be confused about why people say certain things to them.


They don't deserve you"
The person tells the singer that others don't deserve their time or attention.


I tried to scream
The singer tried to scream.


But my head was underwater
The singer was in a situation where they couldn't scream (could be a metaphor or a literal situation).


They called me weak
Other people labeled the singer as weak.


Like I'm not just somebody's daughter
Their identity as someone's daughter was disregarded, and they were treated unfairly.


Coulda been a nightmare
The situation could have been a nightmare.


But it felt like they were right there
The people who called the singer weak felt like they were still present and causing harm even though they weren't physically there.


And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
The experience feels like it happened a long time ago even though it was recent.


But I don't wanna let anybody know
The singer is keeping their emotions to themselves and doesn't want to share them with anyone.


'Cause everybody wants something from me now
The singer is in a position where others have expectations from them.


And I don't wanna let 'em down
The singer doesn't want to disappoint those who have expectations.


If I knew it all then would I do it again?
The singer wonders if they would make the same decision if they knew everything that would happen beforehand.


Would I do it again?
The singer thinks about whether they would take the same risks again.


If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
The singer thinks about how their actions could affect what people say.


What would they say instead?
The singer wonders if people would say something different if they knew the impact of their words.




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Billie Eilish O'Connell, Finneas Baird O'Connell

Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
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Kind regards,
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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@thomasbaron5367

I lost the love of my life to an OD in 2019
I was devastated
Suffering from suicidal thoughts
Grieving so heavily it was making me physically sick
I didn't want to go to work
I didn't want to eat
I just wanted to be left alone
Isolated myself from everyone
Crying all day until I passed out
I wanted to end myself
Then I found Billie
Her song "I Love You" spoke to me
I felt like she was my guardian angel reaching out to me through the music
When the song was over, I was in tears
But I didn't want to die anymore



@meechyhendrix7277

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I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what you'd think
And if I'm being honest
It might've been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly (fly)


So I stepped off the Golden, mm
Nobody cried (cried, cried, cried, cried)
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care)
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me



And you say
"As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you hear
'They don't deserve you'"
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater



They called me weak
Like I'm not just somebody's daughter
It could've been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I don't wanna let anybody know
'Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I don't wanna let 'em down



I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say
"As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you hear



'They don't deserve you'"
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?



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