Male Fantasy
Billie Eilish Lyrics


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Home alone, tryin' not to eat
Distract myself with pornography
I hate the way she looks at me
I can't stand the dialogue, she would never be
That satisfied, it's a male fantasy
I'm going back to therapy

'Cause I loved you then and I love you now
And I don't know how
Guess it's hard to know when nobody else comes around
If I'm getting over you
Or just pretending to
Be alright, convince myself I hate you

(Want me to come in here?)

I got a call from a girl I used to know
We were inseparable years ago
Thought we'd get along but it wasn't so
And it's all I think about when I'm behind the wheel
I worry this is how I'm always gonna feel
But nothing lasts, I know the deal

But I loved you then and I love you now
And I don't know how
Guess it's hard to know when nobody else comes around
If I'm getting over you
Or just pretending to
Be alright, convince myself I hate you

Can't get over you





No matter what I do
I know I should but I could never hate you

Overall Meaning

The song Male Fantasy by Billie Eilish is a melancholic and introspective exploration of the inner turmoil of a person dealing with their intimate relationships. The song captures the reality of many individuals struggling with their sexual identity and trying to find their place in relationships. The opening lines of the song, "Home alone, tryin' not to eat, distract myself with pornography" paint a picture of an individual struggling with loneliness and isolation, seeking a form of temporary escape through pornography. However, this only intensifies their feelings of inadequacy and unfulfillment, as they realize that it is a "male fantasy."


The singer of the song then talks about their decision to go back to therapy, indicating their need for professional help to address their personal issues. The chorus of the song, "Cause I loved you then and I love you now, and I don't know how, guess it's hard to know when nobody else comes around, if I'm getting over you or just pretending to be alright, convince myself I hate you," captures the complexities of the singer's relationship with their partner, who they still love, yet struggle to cope with their emotions.


As the song progresses, the singer reflects on their past relationship with a friend and laments the lack of connection they feel. The song concludes on a despondent note as the singer confesses that they know they should move on but cannot get over their love for their partner, "Can't get over you, no matter what I do, I know I should, but I could never hate you" - leaving the listener with a feeling of emotional exhaustion and heartbreak.


Line by Line Meaning

Home alone, tryin' not to eat
I am alone at home and I am trying not to eat anything because of body image issues


Distract myself with pornography
I am trying to distract myself from negative thoughts by watching porn


I hate the way she looks at me
I hate the way that women are often objectified in porn and how it reinforces gender stereotypes


I can't stand the dialogue, she would never be that satisfied, it's a male fantasy
I am uncomfortable with the unrealistic expectations and male-centric nature of many pornographic films


I'm going back to therapy
I am seeking professional help to deal with my mental health and body image issues


'Cause I loved you then and I love you now. And I don't know how. Guess it's hard to know when nobody else comes around
I still have feelings for someone from my past, but I am unsure how to deal with these feelings because there is no one else in my life


If I'm getting over you or just pretending to be alright, convince myself I hate you
I am unsure if I am actually moving on from this person or just pretending to in order to convince myself that I hate them


I got a call from a girl I used to know. We were inseparable years ago. Thought we'd get along but it wasn't so
I recently reconnected with someone from my past who I was once very close to, but we did not end up getting along as well as I had hoped


And it's all I think about when I'm behind the wheel. I worry this is how I'm always gonna feel
I am constantly thinking about this failed reconnection when I am driving and I am worried that I will always feel this way


But nothing lasts, I know the deal
I realize that things do not always last forever and that I need to learn to move on from this experience


Can't get over you. No matter what I do. I know I should but I could never hate you
I am struggling to move on from this person and despite trying, I know that I could never truly hate them




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Billie Eilish O'Connell, Finneas Baird O'Connell

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@madxlln

[Verse 1]
Home alone, tryin' not to eat
Distract myself with pornography
I hate the way she looks at me
I can't stand the dialogue, she would never be
That satisfied, it's a male fantasy
I'm goin' back to therapy

[Chorus]
'Cause I loved you then and I love you now
And I don't know how
Guess it's hard to know when nobody else comes around
If I'm getting over you
Or just pretending to
Be alright, convince myself I hate you

[Interlude]
(Want me to sing in here?)
(Okay)

[Verse 2]
I got a call from a girl I used to know
We were inseparablе years ago
Thought we'd get along, but it wasn't so
And it's all I think about whеn I'm behind the wheel
I worry this is how I'm always gonna feel
But nothing lasts, I know the deal

[Chorus]
But I loved you then and I love you now
And I don't know how
Guess it's hard to know when nobody else comes around
If I'm getting over you
Or just pretending to
Be alright, convince myself I hate you

[Outro]
Can't get over you
No matter what I do
I know I should, but I could never hate you



@BrandonNaatz

[Lyrics]

[Verse 1]
Home alone, tryin' not to eat
Distract myself with pornography
I hate the way she looks at me
I can't stand the dialogue, she would never be
That satisfied, it's a male fantasy
I'm goin' back to therapy

[Chorus]
'Cause I loved you then
And I love you now and I don't know how
Guess it's hard to know
When nobody else comes around
If I'm getting over you
Or just pretending to
Be alright, convince myself I hate you

[Interlude]
(Want me to sing in here?)
(Okay.)

[Verse 2]
I got a call from a girl I used to know
We were inseparablе years ago
Thought we'd get along but it wasn't so
And it's all I think about whеn I'm behind the wheel
I worry this is how I'm always gonna feel
But nothing lasts, I know the deal

[Chorus]
But I loved you then
And I love you now and I don't know how
Guess it's hard to know
When nobody else comes around
If I'm getting over you
Or just pretending to
Be alright, convince myself I hate you

[Outro]
Can't get over you
No matter what I do
I know I should but I could never hate you



@TheGroovyGuitarDude

For anyone who wants to play this on guitar, here's how :)

- Standard Tuning - Capo 7th Fret -

- Structure of the Song -
Verse, Chorus, Verse, Chorus

- Verse Chords & Strum Pattern -
Cadd9 G D Em7
Cadd9 G D D
For each chord, strum: ↓↓ ↑↓↑

- Chorus Chords, Strum Patterns, & Picking -
Am7 Em7 D Cadd9
Am7 Em7 D D
For each chord, strum: ↓↓ ↑↓↑

Then pick:
E| 0 2 3 0 2 3 0 2 3
A| 2 3 2 3 2 3 2 3
D| 0

Finally, strum these two chords with a single ↓ strum:
Em7 D

Hope this helps out! If you get stuck or need a little extra help, I just posted a video lesson for this on my channel :)



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@PianoHits

this live will be billie, the guitar, and 100,000 people crying

@princesspatti16

YUP

@mayo-tj8wp

I agree...I'm waiting for it!! It'll be beautiful.

@TianTao274

BILLIE is my inspiration!! My mom said that if I got 10k LIKES on my new song!! She definitely buy me a professional mic!! Begging you GUYS!! Please...I LOVE YOU! I'M NOT LYING! PLS!...

@TianTao274

BILLIE is my inspiration!! My mom said that if I got 10k LIKES on my new song!! She definitely buy me a professional mic!! Begging you GUYS!! Please...I LOVE YOU! I'M NOT LYING! PLS!...

@rengoku2786

https://youtu.be/gwLPiuM8Qws



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@JordanSuaste

this is genuinely so beautiful

@kaitlincowdin9270

Right. She’s so perfect, her voice and looks. Omg

@devinymendoza605

literally

@nothinghere8280

JORDANNN OMG OMG BESTIE HII

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