The 30th
Billie Eilish Lyrics

Sometimes you look the same
Sometimes you seem unchanged

Just like you did before the accident
You appear the same way as before the accident happened

When you're staring into space
When you're lost in thought

It's hard to believe you don't remember it
It's difficult to imagine that you have no recollection of it

Woke up in the ambulance
You regained consciousness in the ambulance

You pieced it all together on the drive
You reconstructed the details of the accident during the drive

I know you don't remember calling me
I'm aware that you have no memory of calling me

But I told you, even then, you looked so pretty
But I reassured you that you still looked beautiful

In a hospital bed
Laying in a hospital bed

I remember, you said you were scared
I recall that you expressed fear

And so was I
And I felt scared too

In a standstill on the five
Stuck in traffic on the highway

I thought it was unusually early traffic
I believed it was odd to encounter heavy traffic so early

Usually, I don't panic, I
Normally, I don't become distressed, I

Just wanted to be on time
I simply wanted to arrive on schedule

When I saw the ambulances on the shoulder
Upon noticing the ambulances on the side of the road

I didn't even think of pulling over
I didn't consider stopping my vehicle

I pieced it all together late that night
I reconstructed the details of the accident much later that night

What if it happened to you on a different day
What if a similar accident happened to you on another day

On a bridge where there wasn't a rail in the way
On a bridge without any safety guardrails

Or a neighborhood street where the little kids play
On a residential street where children frequently play

Or the Angeles Crest in the snow or the rain?
Or on Angeles Crest, a mountain road in snowy or rainy conditions

What if you weren't alone? There were kids in the car
What if you had children with you in the car

What if you were remote? No one knows where you are
What if you were in a location where no one knew your whereabouts

If you'd changed anything, would you not have survived?
If you had made different choices, would you still be alive?

You're alive, you're alive, you're alive
You're alive and breathing

And I know you don't remember calling me
And I'm aware you can't recall phoning me

But I told you even then, you looked so pretty
But I reassured you that you remained beautiful

In your hospital bed
Lying in a bed in the hospital

I remember you said you were scared
I remember that you expressed fear

And so am I
And I'm scared as well