i wish you were gay
Billie Eilish Lyrics


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Baby, I don't feel so good
Six words you never understood
I'll never let you go
Five words you'll never say (aw)
I laugh along like nothing's wrong
Four days has never felt so long
If three's a crowd and two was us
One slipped away

I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way, mm
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay

Is there a reason we're not through?
Is there a twelve step just for you?
Our conversation's all in blue
Eleven, "Heys" (hey, hey, hey, hey)
Ten fingers tearin' out my hair
Nine times you never made it there
I ate alone at seven, you were six minutes away (yay)

How am I supposed to make you feel okay
When all you do is walk the other way? Uh
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay, uh
I just kinda wish you were gay

To spare my pride
To give your lack of interest an explanation
Don't say I'm not your type
Just say that I'm not your preferred sexual orientation
I'm so selfish
But you make me feel helpless, yeah
And I can't stand another day



Stand another day

I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way, mm
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay, uh
I just kinda wish you were gay
I just kinda wish you were gay
I just kinda wish you were gay

Overall Meaning

The song Wish You Were Gay by Billie Eilish tells the story of a girl who has feelings for a boy who doesn't seem to reciprocate them. The girl is trying to make the boy feel okay and let go of him, but it is difficult for her, so she wishes he were gay as a way to explain his lack of interest in her. The lyrics are full of symbolism and metaphors.


The first verse talks about how the girl is feeling sick and the boy doesn't understand her. She loves him and doesn't want to let him go, but he doesn't feel the same. The second verse talks about how the girl is trying to communicate with the boy, but he ignores her. She feels like he is tearing her apart, and he never shows up when she needs him.


In the third verse, the girl reveals her selfishness by wishing the boy were gay. She doesn't want to hurt him, but she also can't keep pretending that everything is okay. She wants him to be honest with her and tell her that he is not interested in her because of her gender. The chorus repeats the line "I just kinda wish you were gay" to emphasize the girl's desire for the boy to be gay.


Line by Line Meaning

Baby, I don't feel so good
I don't feel well and I'm not sure why


Six words you never understood
You don't understand me, despite my efforts to communicate


I'll never let you go
I won't give up on trying to make things work between us


Five words you'll never say (aw)
You won't express your love for me in words


I laugh along like nothing's wrong
I pretend everything is okay even though I'm hurting


Four days has never felt so long
Time drags on when we're not together


If three's a crowd and two was us
Our relationship doesn't work when there's outside interference


One slipped away
I lost the one I love


I just wanna make you feel okay
I want to make you happy


But all you do is look the other way, mm
You ignore me


I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay
I wish I didn't love you so much


I just kinda wish you were gay
I wish you didn't like girls so that you could love me


Is there a reason we're not through?
I'm wondering why we're still together if you don't love me back


Is there a twelve step just for you?
Is there something you need help with?


Our conversation's all in blue
Our talks are sad and depressing


Eleven, "Heys" (hey, hey, hey, hey)
You greet me but that's all


Ten fingers tearin' out my hair
I'm stressed out trying to figure out what's wrong with our relationship


Nine times you never made it there
You didn't show up for me nine times


I ate alone at seven, you were six minutes away (yay)
I waited for you for a long time but you didn't show up


How am I supposed to make you feel okay
I want to help you but don't know how


When all you do is walk the other way? Uh
You avoid me


I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay, uh
I can't tell you how much I want to move on


I just kinda wish you were gay
I wish you couldn't love me because of your sexuality


To spare my pride
I don't want to feel embarrassed or ashamed


To give your lack of interest an explanation
I want to understand why you don't love me back


Don't say I'm not your type
Don't say it's because I'm not what you're attracted to


Just say that I'm not your preferred sexual orientation
Say that you can't love me back because of your sexuality


I'm so selfish
I know I'm only thinking about my own feelings


But you make me feel helpless, yeah
I feel powerless because I can't make you love me


And I can't stand another day
I can't keep feeling this way


I just wanna make you feel okay
I still want to help you even though it's painful for me


But all you do is look the other way, mm
You still ignore me


I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay, uh
I can't express how much I want to move on


I just kinda wish you were gay
I still wish you couldn't love me because of your sexuality


I just kinda wish you were gay
I still wish you couldn't love me because of your sexuality


I just kinda wish you were gay
I still wish you couldn't love me because of your sexuality




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Billie Eilish O'Connell, Finneas Baird O'Connell

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@zrosix2240

I knew she was counting down from the very beginning. But every time she said “I ate alone at 7” I was always like “wait she skipped 8??” But I just realized ate=8

6 words you never understood
5 words you never say
4 four days has never felt so long
3s a crowd
2 is us
1 slipped away

12 step just for you
11 heys
10 fingers tearing out my hair
9 times you never made it there
8 alone at
7 you were
6 minutes away



@the-ghost4792

Baby, I don't feel so good
Six words you never understood
I'll never let you go
Five words you'll never say (aw)
I laugh along like nothing's wrong
Four days has never felt so long
If three's a crowd and two was us
One slipped away
I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way, mm
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
Is there a reason we're not through?
Is there a twelve step just for you?
Our conversation's all in blue
Eleven, "Heys" (hey, hey, hey, hey)
Ten fingers tearin' out my hair
Nine times you never made it there
I ate alone at seven, you were six minutes away (yay)
How am I supposed to make you feel okay
When all you do is walk the other way? Uh
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay, uh
I just kinda wish you were gay
To spare my pride
To give your lack of interest an explanation
Don't say I'm not your type
Just say that I'm not your preferred sexual orientation
I'm so selfish
But you make me feel helpless, yeah
And I can't stand another day
Stand another day
I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way, mm
I can't tell you how much I wish I didn't wanna stay, uh
I just kinda wish you were gay
I just kinda wish you were gay
I just kinda wish you were gay



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@EvGontier

some people don't understand that it's not that she's gay or bisexual but she wants him to be gay so that it's easier for her to move on. I feel the same exact way in unrequited love and I actually say to myself that I wish he's gay so that I give up because I can't block him out of my life otherwise :/

@EvGontier

SARAH Megs - of course I want him. He’s all I ever wanted for almost 7 years now. 😅 we can’t be friends. The best thing I need to do for myself is force myself to block him out of my life but I can’t control myself and go back to whatever it is that we have, which lowers my dignity as it did many times before. I block, I come back, I block, I come back:) and he knows he has me wrapped around his finger. This - results to the point that only if he was gay I’d be able to move on because I love him so.

@hazera7357

evy mary yh she want him to be gay because then the reason he doesn’t like her isn’t because she doesn’t have a good personality but because he is interested in his own gender

@panicurie2455

YES!!!!!!!

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