The End of a Love Affair
Billie Holiday Lyrics


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So I walk a little too fast
And I drive a little too fast
And I'm reckless it's true
But what else can you do
At the end of a love affair

So I talk a little too much
And I laugh a little too much
And my voice is too loud
When I'm out in a crowd
So that people are apt to stare

Do they know, do they care
That it's only
That I'm lonely
And low as can be
And the smile on my face
Isn't really a smile at all

So I smoke a little too much
And I drink a little too much
And the tunes I request
Are not always the best
But the ones where the trumpets blare

So I go at a maddening pace
And I pretend that it's taking his place
But what else can you do
At the end of a love affair

Do they know, do they care
That it's only
That I'm lonely
And low as can be
And the smile on my face
Isn't really a smile at all

So I smoke a little too much
And I drink a little too much
And the tunes I request
Are not always the best
But the ones where the trumpets blare

So I go at a maddening pace
And I pretend that it's taking his place




But what else can you do
At the end of a love affair

Overall Meaning

"The End of a Love Affair" by Billie Holiday articulates the emotions and the behaviors that accompany the end of a romantic relationship. The song captures the moment when the singer of the song realizes that their love affair has come to an end, and they are left with the feelings of loneliness, sadness, and grief. The opening lines of the song, "So I walk a little too fast, and I drive a little too fast, and I'm reckless it's true, but what else can you do at the end of a love affair," set the tone for the rest of the song revealing a frantic and impulsive behavior. The singer is trying to drown out the pain of the breakup by engaging in activities that keep her distracted.


Throughout the song, Billie's voice overflows with a sense of remorse and sadness. The singer, in attempt to fill the void left within her, indulges in activities such as smoking and drinking excessively and engaging in conversations that are a little too loud. She is trying to smother or numb the pain in her heart, and at least for a while, act like things are alright.


The song reflects the ways in which humans cope with the reality of lost love. It is difficult for some people to handle the pain of separation. There is no single universal way for people to deal with heartbreak. The singer in this song is struggling to find her happy place or pretending to be happy is part of her coping mechanism.


Line by Line Meaning

So I walk a little too fast
I'm trying to escape this heartbreak by moving on.


And I drive a little too fast
I'm recklessly speeding towards the next chapter of my life.


And I'm reckless it's true
I'm taking risks to find something to fill the void left by my lost love.


But what else can you do
I'm asking a rhetorical question, because I genuinely don't know how to move on.


At the end of a love affair
I'm acknowledging that my previous relationship has come to an end.


So I talk a little too much
I'm filling the silence with meaningless chatter to distract myself.


And I laugh a little too much
I'm trying to force happiness to fill the void.


And my voice is too loud
I'm compensating for the emptiness inside by being louder than necessary.


When I'm out in a crowd
I'm putting on a show for others to see.


So that people are apt to stare
I'm aware that my behavior is out of the ordinary, but I can't stop.


Do they know, do they care
I wonder if others are aware of my pain, and if they even care.


That it's only
I'm trying to explain that my behavior is a result of heartbreak.


That I'm lonely
I'm admitting that I'm lonely and hurting.


And low as can be
I'm feeling as low as I possibly can right now.


And the smile on my face
I'm putting on a false display of happiness to mask my pain.


Isn't really a smile at all
I'm finally admitting that I'm not okay and that my smile is fake.


So I smoke a little too much
I'm using smoking as a crutch to cope with the pain.


And I drink a little too much
I'm using alcohol as an escape from reality.


And the tunes I request
I'm choosing music that reminds me of my lost love, rather than uplifting songs.


Are not always the best
I'm aware that my song choices aren't going to help my mood, but I can't help it.


But the ones where the trumpets blare
I'm drawn to songs that are loud and exciting, to distract myself from my sadness.


So I go at a maddening pace
I'm pushing myself to the point of exhaustion in order to avoid thinking about my heartbreak.


And I pretend that it's taking his place
I'm fooling myself into thinking that my frantic pace is a suitable substitute for my lost love.


But what else can you do
I'm repeating the question, because I still don't have an answer.


At the end of a love affair
I'm acknowledging once more that my relationship has ended and I'm struggling to come to terms with it.




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: EDWARD C. REDDING

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Comments from YouTube:

@gilrealmadrid9999

When we are down and lonely no one cares, that's why we stumble and fall.

@jetclntn

Doesn’t get any better than this
Life was tough Billie

@eleonorazichinolfi4571

This album is Just wonderful

@Aprilhojazz

Only when your heart is truly utterly broken can you appreciate this beautiful song and her unique voice.

@JerryAttric42

according to Ray Ellis, Billie didn't even know this particular song. you'd never know it from her reading, that's artistry for you!
if i remember correctly, Ellis took Billie to a Times Square music shop where they picked out some of the tunes for the session.

@jeffreycraven8154

We love who we love. Billy deceased a few months after I was born. I would've kissed her toes to the top of her head if I were born around the time of her birth. A gal like Billie, I've sat drop jawed to other singers, but her interpretations hi spot. Female perfection, long before I was born, I would've loved full body contact with Billie as an adult. Can't go back t0 1938. Main message: We must quit all this race division; we're persons plan and simple or I'll shit my pants.

@sclogse1

You're wearing my pants.

@stuartbritton4811

The music from the previous two or three generations was good. Not today.

@lastrada52

Ray Ellis -- whose orchestra graced this Billie Holiday album -- also added the orchestration to that marvelous Brook Benton track (and the RCA album it came from Mother Nature, Father Time) -- in the current Lincoln car commercials: "I Wanna Be With You," (1965) that many viewers are suddenly discovering in 2018.

A shame Billie didn't make more albums with Ray Ellis. The strings are over the top -- but, after so many years Billie deserved this polish. She sounded at ease even though her health was beginning to fail when she recorded it. Her voice is shot but has charm. Dylan's voice, Tom Waits' voice -- all shot to hell as well -- but still conveying their art.

This entire album is beautiful. Truly classic and quite listenable even today.

@gilrealmadrid9999

Really awesome! An autobiographical song from 1958 to ETERNITY.

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