Born in Hope Valley, Rhode Island, with his parents Mr. & Mrs. William Gilman Jr., Gilman first received notice as a performer at age seven, attracting the attention of a local vocal coach, Angela Bacari, who later became his manager. Eventually he met with Ray Benson (of Asleep at the Wheel) who helped him record demos, including "Roly Poly". Two months later he was signed by Sony Music Nashville.
His 2000 debut album, One Voice, had a very widely-played single that crossed over well into top 40 airplay. The album reached multi-platinum status, and earned a Grammy nomination. Generally touted as a child prodigy, Gilman appeared on various talk shows. Classic Christmas (which was certified gold) was released later in the year.
He released Dare to Dream (certified gold) on Sony BMG Music Entertainment/Epic Records in 2001, and in 2003 released Music Through Heartsongs, an album inspired by the poetry of Mattie Stepanek. Later in 2003, he performed at a benefit for The Station nightclub fire. In May 2005, he released Everything and More, his first album since his voice changed.
Billy's latest album, self-titled, was released in September 2006 on the Image Entertainment label. The first single off the upcoming album, Southern Star, heralds a return to his country music roots. Billy is scheduled to begin working on his next album with Eddie Galan and Andrew Lane of Trilogy Productions.
I'm Not Me Anymore
Billy Gilman Lyrics
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What's going on in my head?
I feel so different today
I have this image of you
My freedom, my courage, the strength I never knew
I found the answer through you
Discover the glory of living through you
You taught me so much
I'm not me anymore
I'm all of us and a part of you
I'm not me anymore
I am here for you
With every beat of my heart
I come closer to you
I have this vision of you
My kindness, my faith I attribute to you
I share my secrets with you
You taught me forgiveness with all that you do
To have someone to trust
Can change you so much
And I'm not me anymore
I'm all of us and a part of you
I'm not me anymore
Well I am here for you
With every beat of my heart
I come closer to you
Closer than I've ever been
To knowing your love never ends
And even when my heart is aching
Knowing that you'll take me in and love me again
I'm not me anymore
I'm all of us and a part of you
I'm not me anymore
Well I am here for you
With every beat of my heart
I come closer to you
This song by Billy Gilman titled "I'm Not Me Anymore" is an emotional tribute to someone who has had a profound impact on the singer's life. The song begins with the singer questioning if he is in his own bed and what is going on inside his head. He then shifts to describing the impact this person has had on his life. The person has helped him discover his own freedom, courage, and strength. They have also taught him many valuable lessons of forgiveness, kindness, and faith that he has internalized and made a part of himself.
The chorus declares that the singer is no longer just himself, but now a part of this person. His heart beats for them and he feels closer to them than he ever has before. The singer feels that this person's love for him is unending and that they will always be there to take him in and love him again even when his heart is aching.
Overall, the song is a beautiful tribute to the power of deep and transformative relationships in our lives. It speaks to the impact that certain people can have on us and the way that they can shape our identities and sense of self.
Line by Line Meaning
Is this my bed?
I'm feeling so lost and disconnected from myself that even my own bed feels unfamiliar.
What's going on in my head?
I'm struggling to make sense of my own thoughts and emotions right now.
I feel so different today
Something has shifted within me, and I don't feel like the same person I was yesterday.
I have this image of you
You've made such an impact on my life that I can't help but see you everywhere I look.
My freedom, my courage, the strength I never knew
You've helped me discover qualities within myself that I never realized I had - things like freedom, courage, and strength.
I found the answer through you
You've shown me the way and helped me find answers to questions I didn't know how to ask.
Discover the glory of living through you
You've taught me that life is something to be celebrated and cherished, and I'm grateful for that.
You taught me so much
Through our relationship, I've learned a great deal from you and grown in ways I never thought possible.
Your words lift me up
Whenever I'm feeling down, your words have the power to lift me up and give me hope.
I'm not me anymore
I've changed so much because of you that I feel like a completely different person.
I'm all of us and a part of you
I've become connected not just to you, but to everyone you've helped and influenced in your life.
I am here for you
Just like you've been there for me, I'm here for you whenever you need me.
With every beat of my heart
My love for you grows stronger with each passing moment.
I have this vision of you
You inspire me to be kind, faithful, and compassionate in everything I do, and I see that vision of you in myself.
My kindness, my faith I attribute to you
You've helped me cultivate qualities like kindness and faith, and I'm grateful for all that you've taught me.
I share my secrets with you
You're the one person I can trust with all of my secrets, and I know you'll always be there for me.
You taught me forgiveness with all that you do
I've learned the power of forgiveness through your example, and it's made a huge difference in my life.
To have someone to trust
Having someone like you in my life who I can trust completely is one of the greatest blessings I could ask for.
Can change you so much
Your influence on my life has been so powerful that it's changed me in ways I never thought possible.
And even when my heart is aching
Even when I'm going through tough times or feeling down, I know that you'll always be there to support me.
Knowing that you'll take me in and love me again
No matter what mistakes I make or how far I might stray, I know that you'll always be there to welcome me back with open arms.
Closer than I've ever been
Our relationship has brought us closer together than I ever thought possible, and I'm grateful for that.
To knowing your love never ends
I know that your love is unconditional, and that no matter where life takes me, you'll always be there to love and support me.
Lyrics © SANDY LINZER PRODUCTIONS INC, SOUND IMAGINATION, LLC D/B/A KESSEL MUSIC
Written by: EDWARD B. KESSELL, SANDY LINZER
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