The band existed for almost a decade before mainstream success. The members met and played in Our Lady of Mount Carmel Secondary School under the name Pezz and remained underground in Toronto's indie music scene until 2001. The band renamed itself Billy Talent after running into legal trouble with the old name. It was then that Kowalewicz's connection with an employee of Warner Music Canada's A&R department landed the band a record deal and launched them into mainstream success. Since then, Billy Talent has made three multi-platinum records in Canada and continues to expand their success overseas; this included touring for 20 months supporting their second album. They released their third album, Billy Talent III, in 2009, and their fourth album, Dead Silence, in 2012. Dead Silence was followed up by a full UK tour throughout October and November 2012. To commemorate the longevity since the release of their first studio album, the band has released a greatest hits album entitled Hits in 2014. In 2015, they began to prepare material for their fifth studio album. Just before entering the studio, drummer Aaron Solowoniuk decided to sit out the recording sessions while he continued his longstanding battle with multiple sclerosis. Fellow Canadian Jordan Hastings was quickly recruited to play as Solowoniuk's studio stand-in, and, in early 2016, the group completed work on Afraid of Heights, which was released in July of that year. The band's most recent album is Crisis of Faith, released in January 2022.
Full Wikipedia article: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Billy_Talent
Studio albums
Billy Talent (2003)
Billy Talent II (2006)
Billy Talent III (2009)
Dead Silence (2012)
Afraid of Heights (2016)
Crisis of Faith (2022)
This Surffering
Billy Talent Lyrics
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She's a bullet in Russian Roulette
You said you'd never turn your back on me (rescue me, rescue me)
Would you stand by me and bury me? (bury me)
Why don't we end this lie
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find
Every time (this suffering)
You tried to leave me blind (this suffering)
You'll never close my eyes (this suffering)
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
And when she spins the bottle round and round
Every time it leaves me gagged and bound
You said you'd never turn your back on me (rescue me, rescue me)
Would you stand by me and bury me? (bury me)
Why don't we end this lie
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find
My broken mind before it falls to pieces
End this lie (this suffering)
I can't pretend this time (this suffering)
I need a friend to find (this suffering)
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
Every time (this suffering)
You tried to leave me blind (this suffering)
You'll never close my eyes (this suffering)
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
Misery won't get the best of me
'Cause now I'm calling, yes, I'm calling on your bluff
Misery won't get the best of me
'Cause now I'm calling, yes, I'm calling on your bluff
Throw down the cards, I've had enough
Why don't we end this lie
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find
My broken mind before it falls to pieces
Every time (this suffering)
You tried to leave me blind (this suffering)
You'll never close my eyes (this suffering)
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
End this lie (this suffering)
I can't pretend this time (this suffering)
I need a friend to find (this suffering)
My broken mind before it falls to pieces
Every time (this suffering)
You tried to leave me blind (this suffering)
You'll never close my eyes (this suffering)
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
The song "This Suffering" by Billy Talent portrays a sense of betrayal and vulnerability. The lyrics start with the line, "Like a target drawn across my chest," which creates an image of a clear aim on the singer. The woman he refers to is compared to a bullet in Russian Roulette, a game that leaves its fate up to chance. He begs her not to abandon him, to "rescue me, rescue me," and asks if she would stay by his side even after his death ("bury me"). The theme of betrayal is evident as he speaks of being gagged and bound by the woman who promised to always be there for him.
The chorus of the song repeats the words "this suffering" and shows the emotional turmoil the singer is experiencing. He feels as though the woman is trying to leave him blind to the truth about her, but he refuses to let her win. He won't let her close his eyes as he faces his misery alone.
The bridge tries to empower the singer, as he tells himself that he won't let misery defeat him. He is calling out the woman's bluff, ready to face her lies and end the game they have been playing.
Overall, the song showcases the painful feeling of betrayal and emotional abuse, as the singer pleads for help and hopes for someone to rescue him from the cycle of abuse.
Line by Line Meaning
Like a target drawn across my chest
I feel vulnerable and exposed like someone has taken aim at me.
She's a bullet in Russian Roulette
She's dangerous and unpredictable, like playing a deadly game of chance.
You said you'd never turn your back on me (rescue me, rescue me)
You promised to always support and help me, but now I feel abandoned.
Would you stand by me and bury me? (bury me)
If I fall, will you stick around to help me heal or just bury me and move on?
Why don't we end this lie
Let's stop pretending that everything is okay when it clearly isn't.
I can't pretend this time
I can't cover up my pain and suffering any longer.
I need a friend to find
I need someone I can rely on to help me find my way out of this darkness.
My broken mind before it falls to pieces
I need help to fix my mental state before it completely deteriorates.
Every time (this suffering)
I'm constantly experiencing this pain and agony.
You tried to leave me blind (this suffering)
You tried to keep me in the dark and ignorant about the truth of our situation.
You'll never close my eyes (this suffering)
You won't be able to make me stop seeing the harsh reality of our relationship.
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
You won't be able to stand by and let me suffer and fall apart without trying to help me.
And when she spins the bottle round and round
She's toying with me and my emotions, like a game of spin the bottle.
Every time it leaves me gagged and bound
Every time she messes with my head, I feel helpless and trapped.
Misery won't get the best of me
I won't let myself be consumed by pain and sorrow.
'Cause now I'm calling, yes, I'm calling on your bluff
I'm not going to let you get away with lying and manipulating me anymore.
Throw down the cards, I've had enough
I'm done playing this game with you, it's time to face the truth.
Contributed by Riley I. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@VincentDeLuca2003
Like a target drawn across my chest
She's a bullet in Russian Roulette
You said you'd never turn your back on me (Rescue me, rescue me)
Would you stand by me and bury me? (Bury me)
Why don't we end this lie,
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find,
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
Every time
You tried to leave me (This Suffering) blind
You'll never close (This Suffering) my eyes
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
And when she spins the bottle round and round
Every time it leaves me gagged and bound
You said you'd never turn your back on me (Rescue me, rescue me)
Would you stand by me and bury me? (Bury me)
Why don't we end this lie
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find,
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
End this lie,
I can't pretend (This Suffering) this time
I need a friend (This Suffering) to find,
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
Every time
You tried to leave me (This Suffering) blind
You'll never close (This Suffering) my eyes
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
Misery won't get the best of me
'Cause now I'm calling, yes I'm calling on your bluff, yeah!
Misery won't get the best of me
'Cause now I'm calling, yes I'm calling on your bluff
Throw down the cards I've had enough
Why don't we end this lie
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find,
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
Every time
You tried to leave me (This Suffering) blind
You'll never close (This Suffering) my eyes
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
End this lie
I can't pretend (This Suffering) this time
I need a friend (This Suffering) to find,
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
Every time
You tried to leave me (This Suffering) blind
You'll never close (This Suffering) my eyes
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
@kerrym6297
This song has been on repeat for days. I love it
@luluciferia1948
saame
@slicksterprickster2076
for years now for me, lol
@ashash7348
Same
@everydayalex4503
Billy Talent II is easily one of my all time favorite Album , ever !
@anthonypurcell2044
Over a decade since I heard this one. Banger
@VincentDeLuca2003
Like a target drawn across my chest
She's a bullet in Russian Roulette
You said you'd never turn your back on me (Rescue me, rescue me)
Would you stand by me and bury me? (Bury me)
Why don't we end this lie,
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find,
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
Every time
You tried to leave me (This Suffering) blind
You'll never close (This Suffering) my eyes
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
And when she spins the bottle round and round
Every time it leaves me gagged and bound
You said you'd never turn your back on me (Rescue me, rescue me)
Would you stand by me and bury me? (Bury me)
Why don't we end this lie
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find,
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
End this lie,
I can't pretend (This Suffering) this time
I need a friend (This Suffering) to find,
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
Every time
You tried to leave me (This Suffering) blind
You'll never close (This Suffering) my eyes
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
Misery won't get the best of me
'Cause now I'm calling, yes I'm calling on your bluff, yeah!
Misery won't get the best of me
'Cause now I'm calling, yes I'm calling on your bluff
Throw down the cards I've had enough
Why don't we end this lie
I can't pretend this time
I need a friend to find,
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
Every time
You tried to leave me (This Suffering) blind
You'll never close (This Suffering) my eyes
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
End this lie
I can't pretend (This Suffering) this time
I need a friend (This Suffering) to find,
My broken mind, before it falls to pieces
Every time
You tried to leave me (This Suffering) blind
You'll never close (This Suffering) my eyes
You'll never close my eyes and watch me die
@jordyplaysgamesAUTISMYEET
Jokes on you I know the lyrics from listening to the song. You are beneath me today, friend.
@jorjaplays1541
I haven’t heard this song in for ever billy talent was one of my big bands back then especially around 2004-2009
@thomasdavis3933
I used to farm bgs to this song. A different time. Ah to be young. It’s amazing seeing myself so long ago, so foolish. Billy Talent II is one of my last guilty pleasures. Godspeed