Why I Had To Go
Bishop Allen Lyrics

It is a narrowing,
The situation is becoming increasingly limited in scope and options.

It is a shrinking.
The available opportunities and possibilities are decreasing in number.

And there's a danger of overthinking.
There is a risk of thinking too much, which can lead to indecisiveness and inaction.

It was everybody getting tired of drinking
The constant drinking and partying has become stale and unfulfilling for everyone involved.

Every night.
This behavior has become habitual and occurs on a frequent basis.

There was a little left to believe in,
The sense of hope and purpose has diminished over time.

Which is how I really knew I should be leaving...
This lack of belief is the main reason why leaving is the best course of action.

I should be leaving Now.
The artist needs to leave immediately.

We were clever then,
The artist and others once displayed intelligence and creativity.

We talked forever then.
There was a time when the artist and others could have conversations for hours without getting bored or tired.

And the night of our invention it would never end.
There was a night when the group's creativity and cleverness seemed endless.

There was a parting,
At some point, members of the group separated.

And there was sorrow.
This separation caused pain and sadness.

It was impossible to picture it tomorrow.
It was difficult to imagine a future without everyone being together.

It was necessity And it was instinct.
The singer's departure was both necessary and a natural response to the situation.

And the pattern underneath It kept repeating. Kept repeating, Kept repeating.
The same cycle of behavior and experiences continued to occur over and over again.

It's just how I really knew I should be leaving...
The repetition of negative patterns was another indication that leaving was necessary.

Oh and it was everything, Oh and it was just a way to keep from waking up. Hello.
The drinking, partying, and creative endeavors were all distractions and ways to avoid facing reality.

Which is why I had to go. Which is why I should be leaving. Which is why I had to go.
Again, leaving was the necessary and logical step to take in order to face reality and move forward.

Am I delibering? Am I delivering?
The artist questions whether their words are truly meaningful and effective.

Am I offering the blanket And you're shivering?
The artist wonders if their attempts to comfort others are actually helping or causing more harm.

Is it a play without the passion? Is it the endless repetition of inaction?
The artist questions whether their current situation lacks passion and action, leading to a sense of stagnation.

Is this a christening? Or there's a crisis.
The singer is unsure whether their current situation is a new beginning or a time of great difficulty and upheaval.

We can get together then And say how nice it is.
If the group were to reunite, they could reminisce and recall the positive aspects of their past experiences.

Is it torment? That depends.
The singer is unsure whether their current situation is truly torment or not.

Which is how a really knew I should be leaving...
Through questioning and self-reflection, the singer realized leaving was still the most logical choice.