Going Back to Jesus
Bishop G.E. Patterson Lyrics

We brought our baggage on this trip I always knew we'd crash
From the very start, I knew we were carrying issues into this relationship, and it was headed towards destruction.

We burned the bridges now it left us pickin' through the ash
We destroyed all the trust we had by doing things we should not have done, and now we're left to clean up the mess.

I'll always wonder if you could would you redo the past
I sometimes wonder if it were possible to go back in time, would you make different choices?

But I know one thing's for sure I'm never goin' back
I am positive that I will never return to a place of hurt and pain caused by you. I'm moving forward.

And I never wanna' see you again
I want nothing to do with you anymore.

You froze my heart then broke it too
You first caused me to be emotionally unavailable, and then ultimately caused my heart to break into pieces.

And you told me you would love me till the end
You made a promise to love me until the end, but that promise proved to be false.

I should have known that that's not true
I realize now that your promise to love and stay true to me was a lie, and in hindsight, I should have seen it all along.

You're the reason that I really got a black heart
You caused me so much pain and misery that my once pure heart turned cold and bitter.

Round and round we go again like Nascar
Our relationship is a never-ending cycle that keeps repeating itself like a speeding car on a racetrack.

Swear they all told me to throw it way
Those close to me advised me to end the relationship because it was toxic.

You always be askin' to write you a song
You frequently asked me to express my love for you through music.

Well here you go bitch I hope you feel better
Here's a song for you, even though you don't deserve it. I hope it brings you some sort of satisfaction.

I've been livin' in hell to keep myself from gettin' burned
I've been living in a constant state of emotional pain to avoid being hurt by you again.

So quick on the blaming
You are quick to shift the blame on me, without taking any responsibility for your actions.

You drove me to crazy
Your actions and behavior pushed me to the brink of madness.

You love me by hating
You express your love for me through resentment and hatred.

That my head's not OK
You spread rumors about my mental state, trying to discredit my thoughts and emotions.

But they hit me up late… Shut the fuck up
Despite your lies, others still reach out to me, so stop talking nonsense.

Your such a hot head baby
You have a strong temper and it's damaging to our relationship.

I can't hear past your screaming
Your yelling drowns out all attempts at communication and understanding.

I hate your guts but I kind of love you
I despise you for causing me so much pain, but I still have some sort of attachment to you.

That's not true
The promise of love and commitment you made to me was all a lie, and that is the truth.