In 1998, Paul Durham and his rock band, Black Lab, released their Geffen Records debut Your Body Above Me to critical acclaim. The album yielded the top 10 rock and alternative single "Wash it Away," and the top 40 ac and pop track "Time Ago."
Paul Durham grew up in Twin Falls, Idaho before moving to San Francisco to pursue his passion for musical invention. He recorded and toured with a group of friends under the moniker “Durham,” and made an acoustic-based singer/songwriter record with celebrated jazz producer Lee Townsend. (now available at blacklabworld.com under the title Ten Million Years: songs from the nineteen nineties).
“Durham” split, but a deal with Geffen Records followed, a new band was built, and Black Lab's debut was tagged as "one of this year's breakout records" (Billboard). Hollywood called, and the band contributed songs to the soundtracks for Can't Hardly Wait, Varsity Blues, Permanent Midnight, and Buffy the Vampire Slayer. After a year of touring, Black Lab was poised to fulfill their destiny as "the American U2" (San Francisco Chronicle) when their record label was quickly shuttered. Over the next two years, Durham left his band, fired his manager and moved to LA. "In the end, all I had were my guitars and the songs I was writing." Durham wanted to control the sound around his voice, so he bought a computer and learned to use it. "I had to get back to how it was in high school -- just me and my four-track."
The resulting demos got Durham a new deal with Epic Records. "The first thing I did was buy a giant ProTools system." The only problem was, he didn't know how to install the software. On advice from a friend, Durham hired Andy Ellis to set up his studio. "So, we're sitting around waiting for the computer to reboot," remembers Durham, "And this guy picks up my guitar, without asking. I was cringing inside, afraid of what he would play. But he was great. I wanted to sing over the top of everything he played. Pretty soon, we were writing together."
At 23, Ellis was already an accomplished guitarist, keyboard player and programmer. He had been working as an assistant to some of the best engineers in the business and knew how to twiddle some serious knobs. Durham had found the missing link between what he heard in his head and what came out of the speakers. "Working with Andy is the first time collaboration has ever been easy," says Durham. "Instead of the whole hell-is-other-people thing, we have a blast just making sounds.
See the Sun has a depth and emotional range that broadens with each listen. Much of the album was mixed by Tom Lord-Alge (Live, Blink 182, Avril Lavigne). What shines brightest is the band's pop sensibility – the liquid swirl of "Remember," the epic sweep of "See the Sun," the raging loss of "Without You," and the open-armed surrender of "Lonely Boy."
“Learn to Crawl” was tapped as the fourth track on the platinum Spider-Man soundtrack. Produced by Durham and veteran mixer/producer Tom Lord-Alge, the song wraps an aggressive guitar riff around what Rolling Stone calls "Black Lab's tightly spun, highly melodic rock."
The title of "Ecstasy," a pulsing shadow that wakes to full rock glory, was inspired by Durham's experience recording: "The freedom to do what I wanted – in the studio across the hall from my bedroom – was amazing. I would get up late, go to the beach, then work until four or five in the morning. I got to record this album the same way I wrote it."
While See the Sun represents a zenith in Black Lab’s songwriting and production, the band continues to push and expand its sound into uncharted territory, contributing a vicious techno track called “This Blood” to the worldwide hit movie Blade : Trinity. Black Lab also continues to produce music for television (MTV’s Real World, “What I Like About You,” “The Days”) as well as the upcoming film Lovewrecked.
The third Black Lab album, entitled "Passion Leaves A Trace" was released on January 16th, 2007. Highlights include the majestic "Mine Again", the jet-black remorse of "This Night" (featured in the trailer for The Shield Season 6, and on the episode "Out of the Chute" of House), the hook-laden driving force that is "The Real You", and the achingly beautiful "Ghost In Your Mind".
All things Black Lab, including streaming and free downloads from the new and past albums, can be found at blacklabworld.com.
Hole in My Heart
Black Lab Lyrics
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The lyrics to Black Lab's song "Hole in My Heart" reveal a complex and intense relationship between two individuals. The singer confesses that he has been watching and missing the other person, acknowledging that they are the "hole in [his] heart." He seems to be yearning for deeper physical and emotional intimacy with this person, expressing a desire to "strip it down to the bone" and be vulnerable with them. The violent imagery of the singer pushing the other person until they "cough up a lung" is jarring, indicating the intensity of not only his desire but also his emotional pain.
The phrase "the hole in my heart" is repeated throughout the song, emphasizing the central theme of this emotional emptiness that the singer is experiencing. He seems to believe that the other person is the only one who can fill that void, making their connection all-encompassing and even essential for his survival. The singer's desire to be ravished like a demon and the reference to heaven before the fall paint a picture of a passionate, perhaps even destructive relationship, suggesting that the singer's need for this person goes beyond a simple attraction.
In summary, "Hole in My Heart" by Black Lab depicts a complex, intense relationship filled with desire, violence, and emotional emptiness. The singer's urgent plea for the other person to "let go" of their heart suggests that he is ready to fully immerse himself in this relationship and that he believes it is the only way to fill the hole in his heart.
Line by Line Meaning
so I’ve been watching you.
I've been keeping an eye on you.
there’s nothing I’m missing now except you.
I have everything I need, except for you.
and I’m missing you.
I long for you.
and I take your mind.
I captivate your thoughts.
the hole in my heart.
The emptiness within me.
the hole in my heart is you.
You are the one who can fill the void within me.
the hold in my heart is you.
You have a grip on my heart.
all these words they go so far alone.
Words are inadequate in expressing my feelings.
let go. let go.
Relax and surrender.
I want to take everything that lies between us.
I desire to eliminate any barriers between us.
I want to strip it down to the bone.
I want to remove all superficiality from our relationship.
I want to put my hands around you from behind you.
I want to embrace you from behind.
I want to push until you cough up a lung.
I want to exert effort to make you feel the intensity of my love.
do you understand?
Do you comprehend the depth of my emotions?
break me.
Passion overwhelms me.
you’re the hole in my heart.
You are the one I long for.
I want to make you understand me.
I desire for you to comprehend my feelings.
I want to wrap your skin around me.
I desire your physical presence nearby.
come on come on.
Encouragement to take action.
let go of your heart. let go.
Surrender your heart and emotions.
Contributed by Violet N. Suggest a correction in the comments below.