Obedient
Bladee Lyrics

Can't you see it?
Are you able to perceive the reality that surrounds us?

Bad dog, but for you I'm obedient
Though I have a rebellious nature, I conform and commit to you.

Trash Star, cross my heart, that's the reason
I acknowledge my flaws and lowliness, but I promise that it fuels my actions.

Look up at the stars, they're retreating
When gazing at the vast universe, I feel as if hope is diminishing.

Don't get lost, don't live what I'm preaching
Stay grounded and avoid misdirected paths, as my own advice may not reflect my actions.

Drain Jesus, ice me immediately
I feel overwhelmed and in need of a swift release or numbness.

Can't even come home when it's freezing
The home I desire feels unattainable, especially in these cold, harsh times.

925, burn me my medallion
I seek to be transformed and recognized for my struggles and aspirations.

Smell like spray paint, yeah, what I'm off of
I’m under the influence of a chaotic lifestyle, marked by fleeting moments and creativity.

Link at the gas stop, won't stop, I can't stop
I continuously connect with others at transient places, embodying a restless spirit.

Can't even see clear where I'm at though
Finding clarity in my surroundings is increasingly difficult.

This not a mansion, it's a castle
Despite its grandeur, this life is more fragile and complex than it seems.

You a fuckboy, heard it from Ecco
I’ve recognized your shallow nature through the insights of a mutual acquaintance.

Drain Show, no face, came through the back door
In this underground realm, anonymity is key, and appearances are often misleading.

We can't even bring no girls in my section
Isolation and exclusivity define my current situation, limiting genuine connections.

Feel like OD9, I'm a dragon
I resonate with a fierce and mythical presence, embodying intensity and power.

Can't even talk to myself 'cause I'm wrong now
Internal dialogue has become challenging; self-critique is unavoidable.

White gate calling me, won't be long now
A transition or reckoning awaits; an impending change is on the horizon.

I can't even put those words in my songs now
Articulating my feelings has become a struggle, inhibiting my creative expression.

Big strong compounds, life force get crossed out
The overwhelming complexities of existence can overshadow my vitality and essence.

Siren calling, ambulance sound
Urgent demands for help echo around me, illustrating a life in chaos.

Drain Gang track you down like a Bloodhound
My crew relentlessly pursues justice and truth, driven by a deep loyalty.

I can't even trust myself when the night comes
Darkness brings uncertainty, making self-reliance a daunting task.

Four doors, red or blue, pick the right one
Life presents choices, and the implication of wrong decisions can have dire consequences.

It's some writing on the wall, it said 'Die scum'
The harsh truths of reality are etched in front of me, filled with self-deprecation.

No heart, but I do wish I had one
Though I feel emotionally detached, there's a longing for genuine feelings.

And my baby wanna know what I'm scared of
My partner seeks to understand my fears, revealing vulnerability in our relationship.

Don't worry, it's been taken care of
I've addressed my fears and concerns, maintaining a facade of control.

Bladee, I'm coming for the trash like a trashman
I’m actively seeking out what’s neglected or unwanted, infusing my value into it.

Hell Gang, put that back in the trash can
Together with my crew, we reject superficiality and insist on authenticity.

I can't even trust myself when the night comes
The influence of darkness makes self-doubt more pronounced.

Step on my head twice like a cockroach
I endure humiliation and struggle under the weight of others’ disregard.

Every time I close my eyes, I stop existing
In moments of introspection, I feel as if I fade away, losing a sense of self.

Every now and again, I can tell the difference
Occasionally, I regain clarity about my identity and my struggles.

Woke up falling, I'm still falling off of buildings
I rise each day only to feel a continuous descent into chaos and confusion.

Want a new addiction, want to fall victim
I crave something that consumes me, even if the price is suffering.

Something you might crush my heart but I'ma risk it
Despite the potential for emotional pain, I'm willing to take the chance.

And I'm still sinking, need a curse lifted
I feel overwhelmed and in need of liberation from this weight I carry.

Blacklisted at all the clubs, but I can fix this
I've encountered isolation from social circles, but I'm determined to change this narrative.

Think I need stitches, pray to three sixes
I’m wounded emotionally and seeking guidance from darker forces or fate.

I wanna see heads roll, execute past life
I long for a reckoning and transformation, to cut ties with my former self.

Hundred white birds, ninety-nine fall out the sky
Amidst beauty, I witness loss; not everything that appears perfect thrives.

Fast life, race against time, it will outrun you
Living quickly and recklessly often leads to inevitable consequences.

Rains return to the earth, sunlight to the underworld
Nature's cycles remind me that everything goes back to its origins, creating a balance.

Maybe in another life we could be lovers
I ponder the possibilities of alternate realities where love could flourish.

Ever since we met, these thoughts keep getting worse
Since our connection began, my emotional struggles have intensified.

Iron will, ironed shirt, now I want a Fendi purse
I cultivate a strong façade but still desire material validation and luxury.

I don't talk with empty words, what is any of it worth?
I strive for authenticity in communication, questioning the significance behind my expressions.

Every time I close my eyes, I go to prison
In moments of reflection, I feel trapped within my own thoughts and fears.

Every now and again, I can feel the distance
Occasionally, I am painfully aware of the separation between my aspirations and reality.

Woke up running, I'm still running through the system
I continue to navigate through life at a frantic pace, caught in its relentless flow.

Want a new sickness, want to fall victim
I seek new experiences, even if it means facing hardship or pain.

Somewhere, someone broke your heart but I'ma fix it
I wish to mend the emotional wounds caused by past relationships, not just for me but for you.

And I'm still wishing for that first kiss
I yearn for the innocence and hope associated with new love.

Get blacklisted at all the clubs in Seven Sisters
Social isolation intensifies within specific circles, reflecting my perceived unworthiness.

Industry children play with three sixes
Those entrenched in the harsh realities of life often engage with darker themes and motifs.

Every time I close my eyes, I stop existing
In moments of introspection, I feel detached from my own identity, questioning reality.