SPECIAL PLACE
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Drain Gang
Take a knife and Drain your life, hahaha
(Blood moon, black walls, I can't see at all)

Blood moon, black walls, I can't see at all
I'm in my special place
Back lake, blue pond, I hear the sirens call
I'm in my special place
No end, just grey, I let it go for days
I'm taking off my face
No start, just grey, I'm in my special place
I'm in my special place

Public display me, shame me, baby
I do it all for you, rate me
Lie and betray me, hate me, play me
I'll be whatever you make me

Always crying 'bout yourself, make me wet
I can be your pet, play dead
Can step on my neck, walk over my head
My eyes are red, Drain Gang, we triple threat
I stay in the night, I should go to bed (Drain Gang)
I'm playing with the meds, it's going to my head
Playing with the meds, it's going to my head
I'm playing with the meds, it's going to my head

Public display me, shame me, baby
I do it all for you, rate me
Lie and betray me, hate me, play me
I'll be whatever you make me
Public display me, shame me, baby
I do it all for you, rate me
Lie and betray me, hate me, play me
I'll be whatever you make me

I'll be whatever you make me (Drain Gang)




I'll be whatever you make me
I'll be whatever you make me

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of "SPECIAL PLACE" by Bladee delve into themes of self-destructive behavior, emotional vulnerability, and the desire for validation and acceptance. The opening line "Take a knife and Drain your life, hahaha" can be interpreted metaphorically, suggesting a willingness to delve deep into one's emotional turmoil and pain. This sets the tone for the rest of the song, where Bladee explores his own inner world and the struggles he faces.


The mention of a "blood moon" and "black walls" adds to the sense of darkness and isolation in Bladee's special place. The repetition of "I'm in my special place" emphasizes his desire to retreat from the outside world and find solace within himself, even if it means embracing the bleakness that surrounds him. The reference to sirens suggests a connection to danger or harm, perhaps mirroring the internal battles Bladee faces within his own mind.


The chorus speaks to the idea of seeking validation from others, even if it comes at the cost of self-deprecation. Bladee expresses a willingness to be publicly shamed, betrayed, or even hated if it means being acknowledged and recognized. This yearning for attention and approval speaks to the vulnerability he feels, as he is willing to become whatever others want him to be.


In the second verse, Bladee continues to explore his emotional state, acknowledging his own weaknesses and the struggles with substance abuse. He refers to playing with medications, which highlights the dangerous path he is treading. The repetition of "it's going to my head" suggests the overwhelming effects of his actions and how they are impacting his mental state.


Overall, "SPECIAL PLACE" is a deeply introspective song that delves into the complex emotions and conflicts within Bladee. It showcases his willingness to embrace pain and seek validation, even at the cost of his own well-being.


Line by Line Meaning

Drain Gang
Referring to the music collective Drain Gang, of which Bladee is a member.


Take a knife and Drain your life, hahaha
Encourages self-destruction and embracing the dark aspects of one's life.


Blood moon, black walls, I can't see at all
Feeling trapped and lost in a dark and overwhelming environment.


I'm in my special place
Finding solace and escape from reality in a personalized mental refuge.


Back lake, blue pond, I hear the sirens call
Immersed in a peaceful and calming imaginary landscape, despite the looming danger suggested by the sirens.


No end, just grey, I let it go for days
Embracing a monotonous and stagnant existence, devoid of progress or change.


I'm taking off my face
Removing one's facade and revealing their true self, vulnerable and unmasked.


No start, just grey, I'm in my special place
Existing in a state of perpetual sameness, finding comfort in the familiarity of the special place.


Public display me, shame me, baby
Seeking validation and attention from others, even if it means experiencing humiliation and shame.


I do it all for you, rate me
Performing and seeking approval solely for the satisfaction of others, measuring self-worth through external validation.


Lie and betray me, hate me, play me
Allowing others to manipulate and mistreat for the sake of maintaining connections and avoiding loneliness.


I'll be whatever you make me
Being adaptable and moldable to fit the desires and expectations of others.


Always crying 'bout yourself, make me wet
Finding pleasure and satisfaction in being used and dominated emotionally.


I can be your pet, play dead
Willing to sacrifice individuality and autonomy to serve someone else's needs, even to the point of emotional suppression.


Can step on my neck, walk over my head
Being submissive and allowing others to take advantage of you, disregarding personal boundaries.


My eyes are red, Drain Gang, we triple threat
Symbolizing emotional distress and identifying with the collective Drain Gang as a powerful force to cope with pain.


I stay in the night, I should go to bed (Drain Gang)
Preferring to remain in a state of darkness and sadness rather than facing the daylight and confronting reality.


I'm playing with the meds, it's going to my head
Experimenting with drugs as a means to escape and numb oneself from the overwhelming thoughts and emotions.


I'll be whatever you make me
Reiterating the willingness to be shaped and controlled by others, prioritizing their desires over personal identity.




Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Benjamin Reichwald

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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

@yuseitada45

Drain Gang
Take a knife and Drain your life, hahaha
Blood moon, black walls, I can't see at all
I'm in my special place
Black lake, blue pond, I hear the sirens call
I'm in my special place
No end, just grey, I let it go for days
I'm taking off my face
No start, just grey, I'm in my special place
I'm in my special place
Public display me, shame me, baby
I do it all for you, rate me
Lie and betray me, hate me, you play me
I'll be whatever you make me
Always crying 'bout yourself, make me wet
I can be your pet, play dead
Can step on my neck, walk over my head
My eyes are red, Drain Gang, we triple threat
I stay in the night, I should go to bed (Drain Gang)
I'm playing with the meds, it's going to my head
Playing with the meds, it's going to my head
I'm playing with the meds, it's going to my head
Public display me, shame me, baby
I do it all for you, rate me
Lie and betray me, hate me, play me
I'll be whatever you make me
Public display me, shame me, baby
I do it all for you, rate me
Lie and betray me, hate me, play me
I'll be whatever you make me
I'll be whatever you make me (Hahaha, Drain Gang)
I'll be whatever you make me
I'll be whatever you make me



All comments from YouTube:

@dookiesquirt

This is easily one of bladee’s best songs ever

@sneakysnake7669

I feel like ive said that about all of his songs now.. He's so fucking fire

@Austin-vg1cr

Definitely a SPECIAL song

@prodnadare

definitely his best so far

@Pedro-yz2id

@@prodnadare
what about oxygen? jewerly? crushed? subaru?

@prodnadare

@@Pedro-yz2id definitely classics and had huge impact before but remember its just personal opinion:)

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@zaxxorz

used to listen to this in college last year smoking on the bike path behind my apartment next to a pond n you could hear the sirens from town in the distance some nights just like the song says, makes me miss those perfect days man

@drymu9497

Wow, this hits on another level. It was your special place, Zack. I also have mine, where I smoke, chill, and think about how the time passed.

@GEARSFIFALUFCx

Sadge

@thesoicybroadcast9384

this one hits bro hope all is well

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