Trial
Bladee Lyrics


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OK Crystals

Oh, oh, oh

Is it this, this is not it
I′m falling off again
Pull a card, read, upside down head, it's not all bad
On the timeline, I don′t make sense
Add it up, make it make sense
Add it up then
Add it up, make it make sense (like in past tense)
I don't offense, I defense, yes, I defense
Add it up, make it make sense
Make sense

Let me delete myself
Let me don't be myself
(Be myself)

(Make sense)

I went too far, I wanna be exiled
I went too far, I gotta be exiled
I went too far, I wanna be exiled
I went too far, I′m gonna be exiled
(Exist, exist)
Feed evil

Is it this, this is not it
I′m falling off again
Pull a card, read, upside down head, it's not all bad
On the timeline, I don′t make sense
Add it up, make it make sense
Add it up then (turn my head down)
Add it up, make it make sense (spread evil)
I don't offense, I defense (spread evil)
Yes, I defense




(Feed evil)
(Spread evil)

Overall Meaning

The song "Trial" by Bladee reflects on a journey towards self-destruction and the feeling of disconnect from oneself. The lyrics reveal the struggles and insecurities of Bladee, as he finds himself falling deeper into a rabbit hole of negative thoughts, a sense of not belonging and self-destructive behavior. The opening lines "Is it this, this is not it, I'm falling off again" echo the feeling of disillusionment and confusion. As he looks for answers, he draws a tarot card and realizes that his mind is upside down. However, even in the midst of this, Bladee remains hopeful and suggests that it's not all bad.


The line "Let me delete myself, let me don't be myself" indicates the desire to escape from his current reality and from himself. His longing to be exiled suggests a desire to punish himself for his failures and make amends. As the song progresses, Bladee's desperation increases, and he seeks refuge in the darkness, feeding evil and spreading it like a defense mechanism. The repetition of "add it up, make it make sense" reinforces the need for coherence and understanding, but the more he tries, the more he falls further away from the truth.


In summary, "Trial" is an honest and introspective song that delves into the psyche of Bladee. The lyrics reflect a generation that is struggling with issues of identity, self-doubt, and the quest for meaning in a world that seems chaotic and uncertain. The song is a raw and vulnerable expression of the complexities of the human experience.


Line by Line Meaning

Is it this, this is not it
Questioning if this is what they truly want and expressing doubt


I'm falling off again
Feeling like they are losing control or regressing in their progress


Pull a card, read, upside down head, it's not all bad
Using divination to gain insight, recognizing that even negative outcomes can have a positive aspect


On the timeline, I don't make sense
Feeling lost or out of place within their own life journey


Add it up, make it make sense
Attempting to understand or rationalize one's current situation


Add it up then
Encouraging themselves to continue seeking understanding


Add it up, make it make sense (like in past tense)
Reflecting on past mistakes or experiences to gain insight for the present


I don't offense, I defense, yes, I defense
Asserting their non-aggressive nature and expressing their inclination to protect themselves


Make sense
Concluding the previous verse with an assertive desire for clarity


Let me delete myself
Expressing a desire to remove oneself from existence or at least the digital world


Let me don't be myself (Be myself)
Desiring to break free from their current identity or persona to be more true to themselves


I went too far, I wanna be exiled
Recognizing that they have overstepped boundaries and desiring punishment or exile as a result


I went too far, I gotta be exiled
Reiterating the previous line with urgency or certainty


(Exist, exist)
Perhaps an allusion to feelings of existential crisis, wanting to feel present or alive


Feed evil
An ominous or possibly sarcastic line about giving in to negative feelings or actions


(Spread evil)
Perhaps a continuation of the previous line about giving in to negative impulses or emotions


Turn my head down
Desiring to avoid confrontation or a negative situation


I don't offense, I defense (spread evil)
Repeating a previous line to express a desire to protect oneself and a potential willingness to cause harm to others if necessary


Yes, I defense
Asserting their inclination towards self-protection once more


(Feed evil) (Spread evil)
Repeating earlier lines that suggest indulging in negative emotional states or behavior




Writer(s): Bladee

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@JCream561

OK Crystals

Is it this, this is not it, I'm falling off again
Pull a card, red, upside down head, it’s not all bad
On the timeline, I don't make sense
Add it up, make it make sense, add it up then
Add it up, make it make sense, like in past tense
I don't offense, I defense, yes, I defense
Add it up, make it make sense, make sense
Let me don’t need myself, let me don't be myself

I went too far, I wanna be exiled
I went too far, I gotta be exiled
I went too far, I wanna be exiled
I went too far, I'm gonna be exiled

Feed evil

Is it this, this is not it, I'm falling off again
Pulled a card, read, upside down head, it's not all bad
On the timeline, I don't make sense
Add it up, make it make sense, add it up then (Turn my head down)
Add it up, make it make sense, make it past tense
I don't offense, I defense, yes, I defense



All comments from YouTube:

@themisterolichip

holy shit this beat is too advanced, not sure if our civilization is ready for this

@somedankmuffins

ooo my drain.. this is perfect!

@Domar95

Lmao exactly how I feel

@normalhuman666

whitearmor better than debussy

@evgeniizaets9243

i was not ready for this

@isaiahsmith5712

Yes bro

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@Nickersons-Theme

Bladee like a final boss who fights you without even touching you

@iasoe

haha no cap

@springchickena1

memory lost game save deleted. final boss taunts you by reading your mind, making you believe you're real before showing you that this is only a game; one which he is the puppeteer of.

@blakeengle4153

jimbo morison there you are hating in blades comments again, what’s with you man? Do you have nothing better to do? I feel bad for you. X

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