Current members of Blue October include Justin Furstenfeld (lead vocals), Ryan Delahoussaye (violin/viola, mandolin, keyboards, and vocals), Jeremy Furstenfeld (drums, percussion), Matt Noveskey (bass guitar) and Will Knaak (guitar).
Popularized by their platinum-certified album Foiled (2006), which features the hit singles “Hate Me” and “Into the Ocean,” the group has continued to evolve… shifting from a far more pensive sound to one that is more optimistic and reflective of lead singer/songwriter/guitarist Justin Furstenfeld’s transformation—which will also be the focus of his soon-to-be-released documentary film, I Want It.
Once known for their stormy dynamic and self-destructive tendencies, Blue October couldn’t be more distinct from the band it once was, which is why their latest studio album, I Hope You’re Happy, looks to push the envelope even further with a whole new approach. Justin Furstenfeld is quoted as saying "I think Blue October should never be limited to the instruments we have in the band. I’m always about bringing in whoever can play what’s best for the song in. I’m also a huge fan of Peter Gabriel, and if you were to him all you can have is a guitarist a bassist and a drummer, he’d go “what?!” That’s how I feel. We took all the tools we had gotten from working all these kinds of people over the twenty-year span and made a really good album and we’re super proud of it. It’s nice and colorful and positive and universally themed. It’s something you can really sink your teeth into and not get sick of. You can always discover little new secrets about it along the way."
Their latest album, I Hope You're Happy, was released on August 17, 2018 on the band's own Up/Down Records label and was produced by Justin Furstenfeld and engineer Eric Holtz.
Previous band members have included Liz Mulally, Brant Coulter, Dwayne Casey, Piper Dagnino, Julian Mandrake, CB Hudson and Matthew Ostrander.
Blue October has an official site www.blueoctober.com/.
For the British band, please see Blue October UK
Hate Me
Blue October Lyrics
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They're crawling like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride
A nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you
Will you never call again?
Just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me
It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
I'm sober now for three whole months
It's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart
Is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you
For holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself
You were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions
On things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself
When it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away
That I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart
To leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
And with a sad heart, I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street
For every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy
I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes crying
And I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling
"Make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back
And shine just like it used to be
And she whispered
"How can you do this to me?"
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
For you
For you
For you
The lyrics to Blue October's "Hate Me" are an expression of the pain and confusion of a failed relationship. The singer is haunted by thoughts of his former lover and constantly has to shut them out in order to keep his sanity. The imagery of cockroaches and pornographic movies highlights the feeling of disgust and revulsion that he has towards himself and the memories of the relationship. He wants peace and closure but is plagued by the hope of reconciliation and the fear of being alone.
The chorus "Hate me today, Hate me tomorrow, Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you" expresses the singer's recognition of his own shortcomings in the relationship and the desire to be hated by his ex as a way of making her see that she deserves someone better. The bridge of the song reflects the singer's journey towards healing and sobriety, with the realization that the one thing that he needs to let go of is the thing that has caused so much pain in his life. The final verse is a poignant realization that the singer has lost the love of his life and the regret he feels for not being the man that she deserved.
Line by Line Meaning
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
I need to stop thinking about you so I don't go crazy
They're crawling like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Thoughts of you are persistently bothering me like cockroaches that keep reproducing in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Memories keep playing in my mind, reminding me that I am all alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
My thoughts of you are so vivid that they feel more real than any pornographic movie, and they make me feel trapped
There's a burning in my pride
My pride is hurt and it feels painful
A nervous bleeding in my brain
I am anxious and my thoughts are overwhelming me
An ounce of peace is all I want for you
I wish for you to have some peace in your life
Will you never call again?
Are you never going to call me again?
And will you never say that you love me, just to put it in my face?
Are you going to stay away and never lie again by saying you love me while also hurting me?
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space
If I wanted space and stayed away, are you not going to try and reach me?
Hate me today
You can hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
You can hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
You can hate me for all the things I should have done for you but didn't
Hate me in ways, yeah, ways hard to swallow
You can hate me in ways that might be difficult to digest
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
You can hate me so that you can understand what is best for you
I'm sober now for three whole months
I haven't had alcohol for three months
It's one accomplishment that you helped me with
You have helped me achieve this accomplishment
The one thing that always tore us apart
The one thing that always separated us
Is the one thing I won't touch again
I won't do that thing that tore us apart again
In a sick way I want to thank you
In a twisted manner, I want to show gratitude towards you
For holding my head up late at night
For being there for me when I was struggling in the middle of the night
While I was busy waging wars on myself
When I was battling with my own problems
You were trying to stop the fight
You were trying to help me overcome my struggles
You never doubted my warped opinions
You never questioned my strange beliefs
On things like suicidal hate
The belief that suicide can be an acceptable way to express hate
You made me compliment myself
You made me feel good about myself
When it was way too hard to take
At a time when it was very difficult to do so
So I'll drive so fucking far away, that I never cross your mind
I will distance myself so much that you won't even think about me ever again
And do whatever it takes in your heart, to leave me behind
Do whatever you need to do, in order to forget about me
And with a sad heart, I say bye to you and wave
Sadly, I say goodbye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
I am punishing and blaming myself for every mistake I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man until I saw your blue eyes crying
I finally became a man when I saw you cry
And I held your face in my hand
I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling, "Make it go away!"
I fell down shouting, "Make it all go away!"
Just make a smile come back, and shine just like it used to be
Make a smile return to your face, shining just like before
And she whispered, "How can you do this to me?"
And she whispered, "How could you do this to me?"
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: JUSTIN S FURSTENFELD
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
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If someone notices this, I’m still alive and fighting depression
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Stay strong brother ❤❤❤
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Keep your head up king
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The world is just illusion trying to change you
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Don’t give up.. You can get through this!
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I’m so proud of you
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Dear younger me. We made it. It got better. We did it. We're happy. We're loved
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Bless you. I feel this personally
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Beautiful
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Kill