Blutengel (German: Blood Angel) (stylized as BlutEngel) is a German futurep… Read Full Bio ↴Blutengel (German: Blood Angel) (stylized as BlutEngel) is a German futurepop/industrial music group formed by singer Chris Pohl (also of the groups Terminal Choice, Tumor, and Miss Construction and the owner of the Fear Section label) after he had to leave Seelenkrank due to contractual and legal problems. The lyrics are written primarily in German and English and are presented with male and female vocals. The themes of the songs usually centre around themes common in Gothic fiction such as love, vampirism, sexual fetishism, death, and immortality. The band calls their musical style dark pop.
Blutengel was formed in 1998 after Chris Pohl had decided to give up the preceding project, Seelenkrank (which had released two albums), due to contractual problems. Just as its predecessor, Blutengel uses melodious electronic tunes in combination with both male and female voices. The lyrics are primarily in German or English and mixed between male and female vocals paired with electronic sounds and with songs often focusing on all aspects of love, from the tragedy of hopeless romance of vampires (all the way to the more animal aspects of desire) and aspects of death and the afterlife.
The first album Child of Glass was released in early 1999 with Kati Roloff and Nina Bendigkeit as the original female vocalists.
In 2001, the second album Seelenschmerz was released. Nina left to concentrate on photography and eventually form the band Formalin. Gini Martin joined the band as the second female voice alongside Kati. The first Blutengel gig ever took place at the Wave-Gotik-Treffen on June 1, 2001, in Leipzig, in front of 10,000 fans. At the end of 2001, the single Black Roses was released with Constance Rudert as a session singer. The band performed at the Dark Storm Festival where Constance appeared on stage with Kati and Gini. This was the last time the band would play with its original line-up. Kati and Gini left the band days later for personal reasons and founded their own project together, Tristesse de la Lune. Constance, who had originally only been recruited for the single "Black Roses", became a full time member of Blutengel. Eva Pölzing joined soon after as a second vocalist.
Angel Dust was released in 2002, placing 58th on the German Charts.The Angel Dust promotional photo-shoot and booklet was made by Nina Bendigkeit.
In 2004 their fourth album, Demon Kiss, was released, featuring the single "Forever". A DVD release Live Lines and the album-length EP The Oxidising Angel appeared in 2005, the latter of which contained new material as well as a cover of "Cry Little Sister" from The Lost Boys soundtrack. In early October Eva Pölzing decided to leave the band due to other projects. Eva was replaced by Ulrike Goldmann (ex-Say-Y).
For the following two years, the band released a couple of singles with a slightly more "pop-driven" sound until their fifth album, Labyrinth was released in September 2007. It reached 36th in the German charts, and featured the single "Lucifer", and the live favourite "Engelsblut".
In 2009 Blutengel released the album Schwarzes Eis, which featured the single "Dancing in the Light" and accompanying music video to promote the album. An extended edition of this album contained three full CDs, each with its own subtitle (Schwarzes Eis, the instrumental Behind the Mirror and Redemption). The EP Soultaker was released later that year.
In 2010, they performed at the Amphi Festival featuring Anja Milow, Maria Rehfeld and Jenny Haufe who had been hired in 2009 as a dancers for the Schwarzes Eis Tour. Days later, it was announced on the official website that Constance had been replaced by two new singers, Anja Milow and Steffi Weingarten. Both featured on the seventh album Tränenherz, released in 2011 and placed in the German charts at number 12. Two singles "Über den Horizont" & "Reich Mir Die Hand" were released to promote the album, with accompanying music videos the latter featuring Pohl's new girlfriend Viki Scarlet as the "Bloody Girl" in Reich Mir Die Hand who would later become a permanent dancer.
The EP Nachtbringer followed that same year. a music video was released for the title track featuring the complete lineup excluding Jenny for this video. Steffi was fired from the band before they began touring and on her official Facebook page, she wrote a statement claiming that she was not allowed to tour due to legal issues with Constance. Jenny left in 2012, followed by Anja to focus on her job as a model for the clothing label AMF Korsets, continue college studies and work as an independent designer with her label Madone Noire.
Monument and Black Symphonies (2012–2014) Edit
From May 12 to May 20, 2012 Blutengel toured North America for the first time. Playing in Mexico City, New York, San Antonio, San Francisco, Los Angeles, and in Montreal for the Kinetik Festival. After the tour Maria Rehfeld left the band.[citation needed]
The first single from the album Monument, "Save Our Souls", was released in November 2012 while the second single, "You Walk Away", was released in January 2013. The album Monument was released in February 2013 and placed #4 & #96 on the German and Switzerland music charts respectively. "Kinder dieser Stadt" was released on July 19, 2013, as the third single from Monument.
Blutengel released an orchestral compilation album, Black Symphonies (An Orchestral Journey), on February 28, 2014. A single and music video for "Krieger" were released to promote the album.
Omen & Nemesis: The Best of & Reworked (2014–2016)
The first single "Asche Zu Asche", from their upcoming album was released on November 14, 2014. The second single, "Sing", was released on January 23, 2015.
Omen was released on February 12, 2015.
The band then embarked on the first leg of the Omen tour in April and spanning through to August. Festival appearances include Wave-Gotik-Treffen, Mera Luna Festival, and Summer Breeze Open Air.
A new EP, In Alle Ewigkeit, was announced via the band's website in early August as well as the tour dates for the second leg of the Omen tour, which began in November and ended in early December. The new EP was released 23 October 2015, and featured a reworking of 'Weg Zu Mir' originally from 'Child of Glass' which served as a preview for the upcoming 'Best of' album.
Chris Pohl recorded guest vocals on Italian industrial group Helalyn Flowers' "Beware of Light" single which was released by Belgian label Alfa Matrix Records in October 2015.
On 26 February 2016, their 'best of' album Nemesis: The Best of & Reworked was released with re-recorded versions of BlutEngel classics. To support this release, they will be playing 'Nemesis - Open Air Festival' in July.
Due to legal issues, Omen was re-released under the title Save Us.
Leitbild & Un:Gott (2016–present) Edit
In early 2016, BlutEngel entered the studio to record a new album, set for a release in February 2017.
"Complete", the first single from the upcoming 10th album, Leitbild, was released on December 2, 2016. it featured two B-sides and a remix by British darkwave act Massive Ego. The second single "Lebe Deinen Traum" was released as a digital single on February 3, 2017.
Leitbild was released on 17 February. The album would be the band's third straight album to chart in the top 5 of the Media Control Charts at number 4. The album would also chart Swiss Music Charts at #49. BlutEngel went on Tour starting in April and ended in May to promote Leitbild, with Massive Ego as their support. On 12 May, they performed an acoustic set which was recorded for release on DVD as, A Special Night Out: Live & Acoustic in Berlin.
After the Leitbild tour ended, Chris teased that he began work on a new Mini Album or EP to be released towards the end of the year. The new Mini Album was later confirmed and entitled Black. The 2nd leg of the Leitbild tour was also announced for October through December, 2017. Live im Wasserschloss Klaffenbach will be released April 2018, with footage from their 'Nemesis - Open Air Festival' from July 2016.
In May, 2018 BlutEngel were back in the studio working on their next album, Un:Gott, which was released 15th February 2019 and was promoted with a tour, that began in February. The tour was once again supported by Massive Ego.
A new Mini Album "Damokles" was released on November 1st, 2019.
During the COVID-19 pandemic three singles were released. The first Wir Sind Unsterblich on 27th March. The second, Obscured, a collaboration with Hocico on 3rd April. The third, Nothing But A Void, a collaboration with Massive Ego was released Friday 13th of November.
Line-up
Current members
Chris Pohl – vocals, lyrics, programming (1998–present)
Ulrike Goldmann – vocals and lyrics (2005–present)
Current dancers
Viki Scarlet – Main Visual Concept (2011–present)
Former members
1998–2000: Nina Bendigkeit (now in Formalin;also female voices on Seelenkrank and Terminal Choice albums) – Vocals and lyrics
1998–2002: Kati Roloff (was in Tristesse de la Lune with Gini but left in late 2006) – Vocals
2000–2002: Gini Martin (now in Tristesse de la Lune) – Vocals and Lyrics
2002–2005: Eva Pölzing – Vocals
2002–2010: Constance Rudert (now in Cinderella Effect)– session singer then Vocals and Visual Concept
2010–2011: Steffi Weingarten – Vocals
2009–2012: Anja Milow – Vocals and Visual Concept
Former dancers
2001–2009: Sonja Semmler (now in Masters of Comedy – Live performance, visual concept (their first official dancer/performance artist to be part of the band)
2009-2012: Jenny Haufe- Visual Concept
2009-2012: Maria Rehfeld- Visual Concept
Albums Edit
1999: Child of Glass
2001: Seelenschmerz
2002: Angel Dust
2004: Demon Kiss
2007: Labyrinth
2009: Schwarzes Eis
2011: Tränenherz
2013: Monument
2015: Omen/Save Us
2017: Leitbild
2019: Un:Gött
Blutengel was formed in 1998 after Chris Pohl had decided to give up the preceding project, Seelenkrank (which had released two albums), due to contractual problems. Just as its predecessor, Blutengel uses melodious electronic tunes in combination with both male and female voices. The lyrics are primarily in German or English and mixed between male and female vocals paired with electronic sounds and with songs often focusing on all aspects of love, from the tragedy of hopeless romance of vampires (all the way to the more animal aspects of desire) and aspects of death and the afterlife.
The first album Child of Glass was released in early 1999 with Kati Roloff and Nina Bendigkeit as the original female vocalists.
In 2001, the second album Seelenschmerz was released. Nina left to concentrate on photography and eventually form the band Formalin. Gini Martin joined the band as the second female voice alongside Kati. The first Blutengel gig ever took place at the Wave-Gotik-Treffen on June 1, 2001, in Leipzig, in front of 10,000 fans. At the end of 2001, the single Black Roses was released with Constance Rudert as a session singer. The band performed at the Dark Storm Festival where Constance appeared on stage with Kati and Gini. This was the last time the band would play with its original line-up. Kati and Gini left the band days later for personal reasons and founded their own project together, Tristesse de la Lune. Constance, who had originally only been recruited for the single "Black Roses", became a full time member of Blutengel. Eva Pölzing joined soon after as a second vocalist.
Angel Dust was released in 2002, placing 58th on the German Charts.The Angel Dust promotional photo-shoot and booklet was made by Nina Bendigkeit.
In 2004 their fourth album, Demon Kiss, was released, featuring the single "Forever". A DVD release Live Lines and the album-length EP The Oxidising Angel appeared in 2005, the latter of which contained new material as well as a cover of "Cry Little Sister" from The Lost Boys soundtrack. In early October Eva Pölzing decided to leave the band due to other projects. Eva was replaced by Ulrike Goldmann (ex-Say-Y).
For the following two years, the band released a couple of singles with a slightly more "pop-driven" sound until their fifth album, Labyrinth was released in September 2007. It reached 36th in the German charts, and featured the single "Lucifer", and the live favourite "Engelsblut".
In 2009 Blutengel released the album Schwarzes Eis, which featured the single "Dancing in the Light" and accompanying music video to promote the album. An extended edition of this album contained three full CDs, each with its own subtitle (Schwarzes Eis, the instrumental Behind the Mirror and Redemption). The EP Soultaker was released later that year.
In 2010, they performed at the Amphi Festival featuring Anja Milow, Maria Rehfeld and Jenny Haufe who had been hired in 2009 as a dancers for the Schwarzes Eis Tour. Days later, it was announced on the official website that Constance had been replaced by two new singers, Anja Milow and Steffi Weingarten. Both featured on the seventh album Tränenherz, released in 2011 and placed in the German charts at number 12. Two singles "Über den Horizont" & "Reich Mir Die Hand" were released to promote the album, with accompanying music videos the latter featuring Pohl's new girlfriend Viki Scarlet as the "Bloody Girl" in Reich Mir Die Hand who would later become a permanent dancer.
The EP Nachtbringer followed that same year. a music video was released for the title track featuring the complete lineup excluding Jenny for this video. Steffi was fired from the band before they began touring and on her official Facebook page, she wrote a statement claiming that she was not allowed to tour due to legal issues with Constance. Jenny left in 2012, followed by Anja to focus on her job as a model for the clothing label AMF Korsets, continue college studies and work as an independent designer with her label Madone Noire.
Monument and Black Symphonies (2012–2014) Edit
From May 12 to May 20, 2012 Blutengel toured North America for the first time. Playing in Mexico City, New York, San Antonio, San Francisco, Los Angeles, and in Montreal for the Kinetik Festival. After the tour Maria Rehfeld left the band.[citation needed]
The first single from the album Monument, "Save Our Souls", was released in November 2012 while the second single, "You Walk Away", was released in January 2013. The album Monument was released in February 2013 and placed #4 & #96 on the German and Switzerland music charts respectively. "Kinder dieser Stadt" was released on July 19, 2013, as the third single from Monument.
Blutengel released an orchestral compilation album, Black Symphonies (An Orchestral Journey), on February 28, 2014. A single and music video for "Krieger" were released to promote the album.
Omen & Nemesis: The Best of & Reworked (2014–2016)
The first single "Asche Zu Asche", from their upcoming album was released on November 14, 2014. The second single, "Sing", was released on January 23, 2015.
Omen was released on February 12, 2015.
The band then embarked on the first leg of the Omen tour in April and spanning through to August. Festival appearances include Wave-Gotik-Treffen, Mera Luna Festival, and Summer Breeze Open Air.
A new EP, In Alle Ewigkeit, was announced via the band's website in early August as well as the tour dates for the second leg of the Omen tour, which began in November and ended in early December. The new EP was released 23 October 2015, and featured a reworking of 'Weg Zu Mir' originally from 'Child of Glass' which served as a preview for the upcoming 'Best of' album.
Chris Pohl recorded guest vocals on Italian industrial group Helalyn Flowers' "Beware of Light" single which was released by Belgian label Alfa Matrix Records in October 2015.
On 26 February 2016, their 'best of' album Nemesis: The Best of & Reworked was released with re-recorded versions of BlutEngel classics. To support this release, they will be playing 'Nemesis - Open Air Festival' in July.
Due to legal issues, Omen was re-released under the title Save Us.
Leitbild & Un:Gott (2016–present) Edit
In early 2016, BlutEngel entered the studio to record a new album, set for a release in February 2017.
"Complete", the first single from the upcoming 10th album, Leitbild, was released on December 2, 2016. it featured two B-sides and a remix by British darkwave act Massive Ego. The second single "Lebe Deinen Traum" was released as a digital single on February 3, 2017.
Leitbild was released on 17 February. The album would be the band's third straight album to chart in the top 5 of the Media Control Charts at number 4. The album would also chart Swiss Music Charts at #49. BlutEngel went on Tour starting in April and ended in May to promote Leitbild, with Massive Ego as their support. On 12 May, they performed an acoustic set which was recorded for release on DVD as, A Special Night Out: Live & Acoustic in Berlin.
After the Leitbild tour ended, Chris teased that he began work on a new Mini Album or EP to be released towards the end of the year. The new Mini Album was later confirmed and entitled Black. The 2nd leg of the Leitbild tour was also announced for October through December, 2017. Live im Wasserschloss Klaffenbach will be released April 2018, with footage from their 'Nemesis - Open Air Festival' from July 2016.
In May, 2018 BlutEngel were back in the studio working on their next album, Un:Gott, which was released 15th February 2019 and was promoted with a tour, that began in February. The tour was once again supported by Massive Ego.
A new Mini Album "Damokles" was released on November 1st, 2019.
During the COVID-19 pandemic three singles were released. The first Wir Sind Unsterblich on 27th March. The second, Obscured, a collaboration with Hocico on 3rd April. The third, Nothing But A Void, a collaboration with Massive Ego was released Friday 13th of November.
Line-up
Current members
Chris Pohl – vocals, lyrics, programming (1998–present)
Ulrike Goldmann – vocals and lyrics (2005–present)
Current dancers
Viki Scarlet – Main Visual Concept (2011–present)
Former members
1998–2000: Nina Bendigkeit (now in Formalin;also female voices on Seelenkrank and Terminal Choice albums) – Vocals and lyrics
1998–2002: Kati Roloff (was in Tristesse de la Lune with Gini but left in late 2006) – Vocals
2000–2002: Gini Martin (now in Tristesse de la Lune) – Vocals and Lyrics
2002–2005: Eva Pölzing – Vocals
2002–2010: Constance Rudert (now in Cinderella Effect)– session singer then Vocals and Visual Concept
2010–2011: Steffi Weingarten – Vocals
2009–2012: Anja Milow – Vocals and Visual Concept
Former dancers
2001–2009: Sonja Semmler (now in Masters of Comedy – Live performance, visual concept (their first official dancer/performance artist to be part of the band)
2009-2012: Jenny Haufe- Visual Concept
2009-2012: Maria Rehfeld- Visual Concept
Albums Edit
1999: Child of Glass
2001: Seelenschmerz
2002: Angel Dust
2004: Demon Kiss
2007: Labyrinth
2009: Schwarzes Eis
2011: Tränenherz
2013: Monument
2015: Omen/Save Us
2017: Leitbild
2019: Un:Gött
Ãber den Horizont
Blutengel Lyrics
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Du bist in deiner Welt
Gefangen ohne Licht und Zeit
In stiller Ergebenheit
Ertr??gst du die Einsamkeit
Du willst nicht mehr weiter
Doch du siehst den Weg zur??ck nicht mehr
Tausend ??ngste in deiner Seele
Und dein Herz unendlich schwer
Niemand wird es je verstehen
Du kannst diesen Weg nicht alleine gehen
Wenn die Einsamkeit dein Herz zerbricht
Und der Schmerz in dir erwacht
Wenn deine dunklen Tr??ume
Dich verf??hren in jeder Nacht
Dann komm zu mir, Komm zu mir
Breite deine Fl??gel aus und flieg
Mit mir durch die Nacht
??ber den Horizont hinaus...
Schlie?? deine Augen
Sp??r das Leben ein letztes Mal
Sp??r die K??lte auf deiner Haut
Nichts bleibt so wie es war
Eine neue Hoffnung wird
Durch deinen Mut geboren
Die Schuld der Vergangenheit
Bleibt in deiner Erinnerung verloren
Wenn die Einsamkeit dein Herz zerbricht
Und der Schmerz in dir erwacht
Wenn deine dunklen Tr??ume
Dich verf??hren in jeder Nacht
Dann komm zu mir, Komm zu mir
Breite deine Fl??gel aus und flieg
Mit mir durch die Nacht
??ber den Horizont hinaus
Schlie?? deine Augen
Sp??r das Leben ein letztes Mal
(Ein letztes Mal)
Sp??r die K??lte auf deiner Haut
Nichts bleibt so wie es war
Schlie?? deine Augen
Sp??r das Leben ein letztes Mal
Wenn die Einsamkeit dein Herz zerbricht
Und der Schmerz in dir erwacht
Wenn deine dunklen Tr??ume
Dich verf??hren in jeder Nacht
Dann komm zu mir, Komm zu mir
Breite deine Fl??gel aus und flieg
Mit mir durch die Nacht
??ber den Horizont hinaus...
Gefangen ohne Licht und Zeit
In stiller Ergebenheit
Ertr??gst du die Einsamkeit
Du willst nicht mehr weiter
Doch du siehst den Weg zur??ck nicht mehr
Tausend ??ngste in deiner Seele
Und dein Herz unendlich schwer
Niemand wird es je verstehen
Du kannst diesen Weg nicht alleine gehen
Wenn die Einsamkeit dein Herz zerbricht
Und der Schmerz in dir erwacht
Wenn deine dunklen Tr??ume
Dich verf??hren in jeder Nacht
Dann komm zu mir, Komm zu mir
Breite deine Fl??gel aus und flieg
Mit mir durch die Nacht
??ber den Horizont hinaus...
Schlie?? deine Augen
Sp??r das Leben ein letztes Mal
Sp??r die K??lte auf deiner Haut
Nichts bleibt so wie es war
Eine neue Hoffnung wird
Durch deinen Mut geboren
Die Schuld der Vergangenheit
Bleibt in deiner Erinnerung verloren
Wenn die Einsamkeit dein Herz zerbricht
Und der Schmerz in dir erwacht
Wenn deine dunklen Tr??ume
Dich verf??hren in jeder Nacht
Dann komm zu mir, Komm zu mir
Breite deine Fl??gel aus und flieg
Mit mir durch die Nacht
??ber den Horizont hinaus
Schlie?? deine Augen
Sp??r das Leben ein letztes Mal
(Ein letztes Mal)
Sp??r die K??lte auf deiner Haut
Nichts bleibt so wie es war
Schlie?? deine Augen
Sp??r das Leben ein letztes Mal
Wenn die Einsamkeit dein Herz zerbricht
Und der Schmerz in dir erwacht
Wenn deine dunklen Tr??ume
Dich verf??hren in jeder Nacht
Dann komm zu mir, Komm zu mir
Breite deine Fl??gel aus und flieg
Mit mir durch die Nacht
??ber den Horizont hinaus...
The song is about someone who feels trapped in their own world without any light or time. They are living in solitude and are burdened with the weight of a heavy heart and a thousand fears. The singer wants to escape their current situation but doesn't know how to find their way back to the light. They feel misunderstood and alone, but the singer assures them that they are not alone and that they can find comfort and solace by spreading their wings and flying into the unknown with him.
The lyrics convey a message of hope and finding strength in the face of adversity. The singer is encouraged to face their fears and let go of the guilt of past mistakes. By embracing courage and hope, they can take control of their life and find a new sense of purpose. The chorus acts as a beacon of hope and provides reassurance that they are not alone and that love and light are waiting for them beyond the horizon.
Overall, the song deals with heavy themes of loneliness, fear, and desolation, but offers a message of hope and encouragement to anyone who feels trapped or alone.
Line by Line Meaning
Du bist in deiner Welt
You are trapped in your own world
Gefangen ohne Licht und Zeit
You are captured without light and time
In stiller Ergebenheit
In silent submission
Ertr??gst du die Einsamkeit
You endure the loneliness
Du willst nicht mehr weiter
You don't want to continue anymore
Doch du siehst den Weg zur??ck nicht mehr
But you can no longer see the way back
Tausend ??ngste in deiner Seele
Thousand fears in your soul
Und dein Herz unendlich schwer
And your heart is infinitely heavy
Niemand wird es je verstehen
No one will ever understand
Du kannst diesen Weg nicht alleine gehen
You cannot go this way alone
Wenn die Einsamkeit dein Herz zerbricht
When loneliness breaks your heart
Und der Schmerz in dir erwacht
And the pain inside of you revives
Wenn deine dunklen Tr??ume
When your dark dreams
Dich verf??hren in jeder Nacht
Seduce you every night
Dann komm zu mir, Komm zu mir
Then come to me, come to me
Breite deine Fl??gel aus und flieg
Spread your wings and fly
Mit mir durch die Nacht
With me through the night
??ber den Horizont hinaus...
Beyond the horizon...
Schlie?? deine Augen
Close your eyes
Sp??r das Leben ein letztes Mal
Feel life for one last time
Sp??r die K??lte auf deiner Haut
Feel the cold on your skin
Nichts bleibt so wie es war
Nothing remains as it was
Eine neue Hoffnung wird
A new hope will be
Durch deinen Mut geboren
Born through your courage
Die Schuld der Vergangenheit
The guilt of the past
Bleibt in deiner Erinnerung verloren
Remains lost in your memory
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@nikkili8944
Wenn die Einsamkeit
Dein Herz zerbricht
Und der Schmerz in dir erwacht
Wenn deine dunklen Träume
Dich verführen in jeder Nacht
Dann komm zu mir
Komm zu mir
Breite deine Flügel aus
Und flieg mit mir durch die Nacht
Über den Horizont hinaus
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@obychnyichelovek6757
10 years later this song is still catchy as hell! I really appreciate that symphonic feel throughout the album!
@cypa3458
what that girls name who is sucideing ? she is so stylish
@herrwahnsinn4229
@cypaдж сурадж She's all over the album and singing, and touring for this one. Don't know if she's still Blutengel.
@I1like1wood1ash
I just want to say this song saved my life when I was 15. 5 years later, thank you.
@hakont.4960
Hope you're still doing well. :)
@ivyox5451
Håkon T. True that
@herrwahnsinn4229
I heard this in my sleep last night :0 o.0
@ileniameini7439
@Herr Wahnsinn das Lied ist unglaublich verführerisch...gefährlich würde ich sagen
@ileniameini7439
Alice
@ghostswitches305
This music is telling our story, our life, our hurts, our happiness, our sadness, our everything... even without lyrics, music is touching my heart, my memories.