Movin' On
Boondox Lyrics

The bottom of these bottles getting closer but are miles away.
I am drinking heavily, and the bottom of the bottle is getting closer, but I feel miles away from any resolution or clarity.

Too much thinking going on but not a lot to say.
I am consumed with thoughts and emotions, but I struggle to put them into words.

I'm done some prayin' but my soul nah can't be saved.
I have prayed for salvation, but I believe that my soul cannot be saved.

I know exactly what is ahead but i'm not afraid.
I am aware of the future and what it holds, but I am not afraid to face it.

Commited evil but comment it I was lost on me.
I have done terrible things, but I have lost touch with my sense of morality.

Bent up emotions lost my mind when I lost my homie.
My emotions are overwhelming, and I lost my grip on reality when I lost my friend.

They took his toe.
Someone has done something terrible to my friend.

Cut to deep, for these scars to heal.
The damage done is too severe for me to heal or recover from easily.

And so i locked him down way forgot how to feel.
I have suppressed my emotions to the point that I am numb and cannot experience them anymore.

Thought I found the answer life had plsy different tune.
I believed I had found the solution to my problems, but life turned out differently.

And they took him from his life the way she always assumed.
My friend was taken from his life in a way that people had always expected.

And that's the shit that turned me colder with that life faded.
The loss of my friend has made me colder and more distant from life.

I'm still alive and i'm still kicking butt and all seemed shaded.
Despite everything, I am still alive and fighting, although the future seems uncertain.

Fucked up relationships the king is striking with love the matches soaked in gasoline burned the way Amire matches.
I have ruined many relationships due to my own issues and problems, and I have hurt others with my love and affection, which feels like pouring gasoline on a fire.

And yes, I know that burned you up I did you wrong.
I know that I have hurt someone with my actions and I feel guilty for it.

That' s why the only thing to do is leave i'm movin' on. () I meant to see her.
The best course of action is for me to move on from the situation, even though I wish I could have seen someone before doing so.

Tell her I've been gone.
Let her know that I have been away and have moved on from the situation.

Ain't nothin' left to talk about.
There is nothing left to discuss or resolve.

And tell her I've been thinking; Thinking all night long.
I have been thinking about the situation for a long time, and it has consumed my thoughts.

And if she ever thought about; I've been gone.
If she has wondered where I went, the answer is that I have moved on.

My hands are dirty with some things that I can't wipe away.
I have done things that cannot be undone or forgotten, and I carry the guilt of those actions with me.

Just like some words that I said and I forgot to say.
I regret not saying certain things that I should have, and those words weigh heavily on me.

They said time can heal and time is all left to kill.
People say that time can heal all wounds, but to me, time only feels like a slow death.

I might end up alone.
I worry that my actions and issues will cause me to end up alone.

But that't the hand they had to deal.
I cannot control my fate, and this is the hand I have been dealt.

They easily forgot they never been the one for me to take.
People forget that they were never the one I should have been with or taken seriously.

I think some times i'm only happy with the shit I break.
I find satisfaction and pleasure in breaking things or causing chaos, which worries me.

I'm know i'm all alone but things keep me in the back.
I am aware that I am alone, but there are things that haunt me and cause me pain.

Sometimes i wish i could change but there ain't no turning back.
I wish I could change my past actions and decisions, but I know that it is impossible.

That's why I roll with heat revenge is served bitter sweet.
I am focused on revenge, and I know that it will not bring me true satisfaction or happiness.

A jealous rage waitin for me in the street.
I am worried about encountering someone who is jealous or angry with me while out in public.

To put and end to all pain I seem to leave behind.
I hope that by ending the pain and suffering of others, I can find some relief from my own pain.

That might be why I make it easy I ain't hard to find.
I make myself easy to locate and target, which is a result of my own self-destructive tendencies.

I wish I could say i'm sorry for these trail of tears.
I regret the pain and emotional damage I have caused to myself and others, and I wish I could apologize for it.

I apologize for all the time and waste of all years.
I am sorry for wasting time and causing pain to others throughout the years.

That's the way i live my life I put it in a song.
I use my music as an outlet for all of my pain and emotions, and it reflects the way I live my life.

I now I'm just another verse I'm movin on.
I am aware that I am just one more sorrowful verse in the larger context of life, and I must keep moving forward.

Wish I had the time of day.
I wish I had more time to focus on myself and my own problems.

Been grinding tryin' to find a way.
I have been working hard to find a solution to my issues and problems.

Been grinding tryin start a movement.
I am attempting to create a positive change or movement in my life and the lives of others.

Modern day Violent J.
I am like the modern-day equivalent of Violent J, a member of the hip-hop duo Insane Clown Posse.

Whiskey makes me tipsy.
Drinking whiskey makes me feel slightly intoxicated and helps me forget my problems for a moment.

For a minute I forget the pain.
While drinking, I am able to forget about my emotional pain and troubles for a brief period of time.

All a sudden people know my name.
I have become famous or well-known because of my music.

I swear This shit's insane.
The sudden fame and attention is overwhelming and I cannot believe how crazy it all is.

From penitentiary blues to sold out shows ain't seen my daughter in some months man i've been out on the road.
I have gone from a life of crime and incarceration to performing sold-out shows, but I have not been able to see my daughter because of my touring schedule.

Man i've been running from reality through all the songs I sang.
Through my music, I have been avoiding facing reality and my own problems.

And Some how i Fucked off relationships along the way.
As a result of my behavior and actions, I have damaged and ruined many relationships in my life.

Let me pop another pill.
I want to take another pill to try and forget my problems or emotions.

But I'm Still feeling the same.
Even though I have been taking pills, I still feel terrible and overwhelmed.

Wouldn't know I was alive.
I feel dead or numb inside and do not feel truly alive.

Didn't feel any pain.
Despite my issues and problems, I do not feel any emotional pain or regret.

I Was engaged to a women she got up and moved away.
I was engaged to a woman, but she left me and moved away because of my issues and behavior.

Said I was a lunatic that can't communicate.
My ex-fiance called me a lunatic and claimed that I was incapable of effective communication.

So I wished I could I find that her so that we could have a talk then burn the bitches house down and just wait for the cops.
I wish I could find my ex-fiance to talk to her, but I also have violent thoughts or tendencies and want to burn her house down and confront the police when they arrive.

Real they call the bullets.
The bullets are real and dangerous, and I am aware of the risk that comes with violent behavior.

The moment that I see them.
If I am confronted by bullets or violence, I know that it could be a defining or critical moment in my life.

Then maybe they kill me.
I know that there is a possibility that I could be killed or harmed as a result of my behavior or actions.

Then my life will be complete. () I meant to see her.
I am aware of the dangers of my behavior, but I still struggle to move on and wish I could see my ex-fiance again.

And tell her I moved on.
Despite my lingering feelings and thoughts, I have moved on from my past relationship.