Suffering
Boondox Lyrics

She lies awake for days suffering in misery
She can't sleep and is constantly suffering and in pain.

No one to hold her close and give her what she really needs
She is lonely, and there is no one to comfort or care for her.

Blood flows like a busted nose
Blood is flowing freely, much like it would from a broken nose.

Red fluid drains down and it stains your clothes
The blood is seeping out and staining everything it touches.

No rest no strength ain't been fed in days
She is physically and emotionally exhausted and hasn't eaten in days.

Down in the cellar kept you locked away
She is being held captive in a cellar and cannot escape.

My one true love and I said I adored you
The singer loves and adores the victim.

Walks in the parks so I never ignored you
The artist took the victim on walks and never neglected or turned away from them.

We held hands in the dark as the band played
The artist was affectionate with the victim, even in public and with music playing in the background.

Looked you in you eyes told you never to be afraid
The artist comforted and assured the victim, telling them not to be afraid.

I knew it wouldn't last but I wanted you forever
The singer knew the relationship couldn't last forever, but they wanted it to last forever.

Had to find a way for us to stay together
The artist was committed to finding a way to make the relationship last and keep the victim close.

That's when it happened and the thoughts came clear
Something happened that made the singer's plan become clear and achievable.

A smile on my face as I whispered in your ear
The singer is pleased with their plan and is communicating it to the victim in a whisper.

Come walk with me come walk into the night
The singer is leading the victim away from their current location.

Sip champagne with me lay beside the candle light
The artist is offering the victim a romantic evening together.

I took her hand and the last word said
The artist took the victim's hand and said something significant.

I made her mine forever with a blow to the head
The singer killed the victim with a lethal blow to the head and believes that she is now his forever.

She lies awake for days in misery
She can't sleep and is constantly suffering and in pain.

No one to hold her close or give her what she really needs
She is lonely, and there is no one to comfort or care for her.

I know I want to see here be with her all throught the night
The artist longs to be with the victim, even though she is no longer alive.

And so I'm waiting for her last goodbye
The artist is waiting for the victim's spirit to leave her body so that he can be with her.

It was a song walk her over my shoulder
The singer is carrying the victim over his shoulder while singing a song.

Thinking about the moments and the things tat I told her
The artist is reflecting on the past moments they shared and the things he said to the victim.

Throught the swamp through the fields
The singer is traveling through difficult terrain with the victim's body.

Past an old barn I never felt so alive my baby in my arms
Despite the situation, the singer feels alive while holding the victim's body.

I looked down at the ground I saw her blood drop
The singer notices a drop of the victim's blood on the ground.

Had to get her back fast couldn't lose her on the trip
The artist is determined to get the victim's body back home without incident.

So many things that I needed us to do
The artist had plans for the future that he will now never be able to realize.

I call it love others might call it taboo
The singer's feelings for the victim may be considered taboo by others.

But I don't give a fuck her happiness is all I need
The singer's focus is solely on the victim's happiness, regardless of the consequences.

Pleasure that she's looking for when I make her bleed
The artist believes that the victim found pleasure in being hurt by him.

Down on her knees praying for the first injection
The victim's last thoughts were of praying for release or overdose.

Loving is to suffer have her praying for the resurrection
The victim suffered greatly and prayed for death, as it was the only option for release.

At my doorstep sat her down let us in
The singer brought the victim's body back to his home.

Looked in her pretty face wiped the blood from her chin
The artist is caring for the victim's body and attempting to maintain her appearance.

Over the threshold I swept this girl right off her feet
The singer is carrying the victim's body across the threshold, as if they were a bride.

The time is getting near for this fairytale to be complete
The singer is waiting for the moment when he can be with the victim's spirit permanently.

No one to hold her close or give her what she really needs
She is lonely, and there is no one to comfort or care for her.

I know I want to see here be with her all throught the night
The artist longs to be with the victim, even though she is no longer alive.

And so I'm waiting for her last goodbye
The artist is waiting for the victim's spirit to leave her body so that he can be with her.

Down the stairs around the corner to her new home
The singer is bringing the victim's body to a new location within his home.

Coming to her senses and she's knowing something's going up
The victim may be sensing that something is not right, even in death.

Eyes glazed she looked at me as if to say
The victim's dead eyes appear to be staring at the artist, conveying a message.

Tell me what you've done and please make this all go away
The victim is asking the artist to explain what he has done and to undo it.

But no words no sound from her precious lips
The victim is incapable of speaking or making any sound.

She reached and touched me softly with her broken bloody fingertips
The victim's fingers still have blood on them as she reaches out to touch the singer.

The tear fell reality was sinking in
The artist is beginning to realize the gravity of what he has done and is emotional.

In utter shock and disbelief at this unforgiven sin
The singer is horrified at the realization that he has committed an unforgivable sin.

The smell of death like a reminder echoes through the walls
The smell of death permeates the room, serving as a constant reminder of what has happened.

Knowing that she sits all alone down those darkened halls
The victim's body is still present in the singer's home, alone and lifeless.

I want to hold her touch her lay beside her never leave
The artist still desires to be close to the victim, even in death.

But the sadness on her face will never let it be
The victim's face still reflects the sadness and pain she experienced in life.

And so she sits and stares just waiting for her final breath
The victim's body remains lifeless, and the singer is waiting for her spirit to leave.

A mix of love and broken heart wishing for her death
The singer loves the victim but is also responsible for her death, and is now wishing for her release.

And on this night I sit here waiting for the end
The artist is still waiting for the moment when he can be with the victim's spirit permanently.

When I can walk those darkened halls and be with her again
The artist is looking forward to the moment when he can be reunited with the victim's spirit.