Laika
Boston Manor Lyrics

They say the truth's your best defence
It's a common saying that truth is the best weapon one can use to protect oneself.

I'm bleeding just to pay the rent
I'm working hard to make ends meet, even if it means sacrificing my own needs and health.

And broken dreams mean nothing
When one is struggling to survive, any aspirations or plans for the future lose their value.

When you need something
The constant pressure of everyday life makes us cling to anything that can bring comfort or relief.

Just to get you through the year
To survive in this world, one needs to focus on the present moment and finding ways to keep going regardless of the future.

And now we're moving out
We are leaving this place, this situation, behind.

So pack your clothes, your books, your doubt
Pack up everything you have, including your insecurities and uncertainties.

And bring the piece of paper
I need you to bring back the piece of paper that I gave you in the past, when you were alone.

That I gave you, back when you were all alone
I gave you that piece of paper when you had nobody else to turn to.

Letters sent home with no return address
I wrote letters to those I care about, but I didn't give them any way to reply.

I've got a bag full of old clothes
I only have old, worn out clothes to take with me.

I've got a bag full of stress
I'm carrying a lot of internal conflict and worry with me.

I'm so sorry that I'm leaving
I regret having to leave you behind.

You so little to believe in
I know you don't have a lot of faith in me or in anything else.

'Cause we had a house
We used to have a place to call home.

With a perfect door and a front room
Our home was warm and welcoming, with a nice front room.

With the right decor
Our home was decorated to perfection.

And I came and wrecked it all
I ruined everything we had together.

Yes, I came and wrecked it all like I always do
I'm not surprised that I destroyed everything, because I've done it before.

'Cause I didn't think and I poured your life down the kitchen sink
I acted without considering the consequences, and as a result, I ruined your life along with mine.

With the dregs of yesterday
I destroyed our lives with the remnants of our past mistakes and regrets.

And now I'm going to be late
I'm running out of time and I won't make it.

I'm sorry
I apologize for everything that I've done wrong.

Just tell me, that you're free, of your woes and of me
All I want is to know that you're okay and that you've moved on from me and all our troubles.

There's weather more reliable than me
I'm not a reliable person or partner, and there are more dependable things in this world than me.

I'm calling base command as the last bit of oxygen runs out but
I'm calling for help as I run out of time and resources.

They're down there softly sleeping
Even though I'm in distress, the rest of the world is at peace and unaware of my troubles.

The sun sets over the Pacific region
Even though my life is ending, the rest of the world continues to turn, and the sun sets as usual.

I'm sitting here hanging in the balance
I'm in a precarious position, uncertain of what will happen to me.

Just barely in the atmosphere
I'm barely holding on, either to life or to something else.

As lonely as Laika
I'm as isolated and abandoned as the dog sent into space, never to return.

Up there all alone
Just like Laika, I'm all by myself in this difficult situation.

You miss the atmosphere
I miss the feeling of being grounded and connected to something, anything.

The stars are now your home
All that's left for me is to become a part of the vast, empty universe around me.