Taking Barker from blink-182 and David Kennedy they recorded their self-titled album, "Box Car Racer", in 2002. On the album Tom did all the bass work, but Anthony Celestino was their touring bass player. Guests on the album included Mark Hoppus from blink-182, Tim Armstrong from Rancid and also Jordan Pundik from New Found Glory.
Tom and Travis claim the band was heavily influenced by Dischord Emo, citing influences such as Rites of Spring, Fugazi and later era post hardcore bands such as Quicksand.
Box Car Racer took a hiatus after their headlining tour in 2003. Tom has stated publicly that Box Car Racer is now defunct and will never reunite. Their website was taken off the Internet in late March 2005 and has since been put back online. Many people speculated that Tom's new project was going to be a new Box Car Racer album when he initially announced that he was working on a new album but those rumors were dismissed after the announcement of +44 and Angels & Airwaves. But now blink-182 is back - and touring!
Origin of Name
The band's name comes from the B-29 Bomber which dropped the second atomic bomb (to be used in warfare) on the Japanese city of Nagasaki. The plane's name was "Bockscar". Tom has said in an interview that he has seen the name misspelled as "Boxcar".
Members
Tom DeLonge - Vocals, Guitar (blink-182, Angels & Airwaves)
Travis Barker - Drums (blink-182, +44, The Transplants, The Aquabats)
David Kennedy - Guitar (Over My Dead Body, Hazen Street, Angels & Airwaves)
Anthony Celestino - Bass (Over My Dead Body)
I Feel So
Box Car Racer Lyrics
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I wish I was stronger
Wish I could feel no pain
Wish I was young
Wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
Wish I was you, not I
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Sometimes I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over
The song "I Feel So" by Box Car Racer is a hauntingly beautiful exploration of the struggles of life and the human condition. The lyrics express a longing for change, a desire to be someone else, or to have different abilities. The songwriter wishes for bravery, strength, youth, honesty, intelligence, power, to be a leader, and to be someone else.
However, underneath these wishes and desires is a deep well of anger, callousness, confusion, and a sense of being lost. The repeated chorus "I feel so mad, I feel so angry, feel so callous, so lost, confused again, feel so cheap, so used, unfaithful" magnifies the sense of sadness and pain underneath the seemingly positive wishes in the verses. The final plea to "let's start over" reflects a hope for a new beginning.
The beauty of this song lies in the way it captures the complexity of human emotions and the struggles we all face. The songwriter, likely Tom DeLonge from Blink-182, speaks to a universal experience of feeling inadequate and wishing for something different, but also acknowledges the difficult emotions that come with it.
Line by Line Meaning
Sometimes I wish I was brave
At times, I aspire to be courageous.
I wish I was stronger
I longed to have more strength.
Wish I could feel no pain
I wanted to be able to experience no physical or emotional suffering.
Wish I was young
I yearned to be youthful again.
Wish I was shy
I sometimes wish I was more reserved.
I wish I was honest
I desired to be truthful and sincere.
Wish I was you, not I
I would rather be in your position than mine.
'Cause I feel so mad
Because I'm incredibly angry
I feel so angry
I am consumed by a strong feeling of wrath.
Feel so callous
I feel indifferent and apathetic.
So lost, confused again
I'm feeling aimless and bewildered once again.
Feel so cheap
I feel worthless and undervalued.
So used, unfaithful
I feel like I've been taken advantage of and I am feeling unfaithful.
Let's start over
I suggest that we try again from the beginning.
Sometimes I wish I was smart
Occasionally, I desire to be intelligent.
I wish I made cures for how people are
I wanted to find a cure for human nature.
I wish I had power
I wanted to have authority or control over things.
I wish I could lead
I wanted to have the skills necessary to be a successful leader.
I wish I could change the world
I wanted to have the ability to make significant modifications to the planet.
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Travis Barker, Tom Delonge
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
JOURNEY
Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over
Darkstar 6589
@Dely fikri Hadian take the red pill and blue pill theory : “in a world that changes life to a bitter game” 🎵 🎶 🎵 🎶
Take love : where you know about female nature
Take two and two together and you get the line in the song
Or at least that’s my interpretation.
What’s it say to you when you listen to it by yourself?
Dane Goodwin
This is one of the most criminally underrated songs/album of all time
Dan Danger
Ever heard of Zebrahead?
Patrick Rustan
Every track slaps
M
@Dungeon Keeper I was a teenager when this was out, and it was the cringey lyrics that put me off. I like it more now but those lyrics are still pretty rough.
STΞΞL
@Dungeon Keeper just received my mini guitar today & came to the video to appreciate it more lol
Dungeon Keeper
@STΞΞL lol thanks for your reply. I'm in the UK so another few weeks to go before it arrives 😁
BroheimianGrove
I feel so nostalgic for a world that no longer exists.
Jared Heck
that hit deep
Bear Flag Revolt
internet = devil yet we all use it has destroyed everything we shouldn't be able to have the power we do... 46&2
xxmicron
did it ever exist?