In My Heart
Boycott feat. M.Slice Lyrics
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Been with a jitt From the start
I was so trapped in the dark
For the betrayal's and scars
I got this pain in my heart
Like slave men my back is just scarred
I done came outta dark
Still got some pain in my heart
I been really grinding onna daily
Up 3 days my mental really fading
Think to much my mental really racing
I been gone I'm moving way too crazy
I be on my shii no moving lazy
You know that I got it moving crazy
Let's just go back to the start
I was trapped in dark
Wit some pain in my heart
I was feeling my scars
And depression my thoughts
When my niggas had left me
I was still thanking GOD
Don't feel the love cuz that shit is Façade
War wit myself how I'm feeling inside
Stay to myself I just like my own vibe
Lost in clouds cuz it's free in my mind
No one had noticed I was loosing my mind
Momma was working all the Goddamn time
I remember when I tried to take my life
Everybody looked at Nigga like why
If you look close see the pain in my eyes
Some of my niggas done moved to grave sites
Still tryna figure the point of this life
Hope that my moving direction is right
Smoking these blunts got me chocking alright
Kept my head up just been moving thru tides
Showing a smile feeling hopeless inside
I just be feeling like nothing is right
Can't sleep at night Cuz I sit up and cry
Shit ain't the same since my niggas had died
The way I been feeling my soul
Should just fly
I got this pain in my heart
Been with a jitt From the start
I was so trapped in the dark
For the betrayal's and scars
I got this pain in my heart
Like slave men my back is just scarred
I done came outta dark
Still got some pain in my heart
Smoking drinking really got me faded
I been really grinding onna daily
Up 3 days my mental really fading
Think to much my mental really racing
I been gone I'm moving way too crazy
I be on my shii no moving lazy
You know that I got it moving crazy
So i stay to myself I don't need no help
I been on my own just surrounding myself
Since everyone left I went and prevailed
I know that I'm winning but I feel like hell
Daddy had met me when I was like 12
And he still didn't stay
What the fuck what the hell
I just be feeling like nothing is real
Momma say love you I tell her be real
I just don't know how to cope how to feel
Living my life knowing wicked is real
People gone come and go Nigga just chill
It just hit harder cuz you kept it real
Bad at explaining the way that I feel
sitting in therapy got me real ill
Picking my brain and my thoughts till they spill
Think to myself do they care how I feel
Spaz at the world cuz I know they ain't real
Pushing my buttons a nigga just chill
Genuine love what i want how I feel
Women will switch and these niggas ain't real
Circle so small you can call it pill
RIP Fredo he popped all then pills
Shit is so sad GOD you taking the real
I got this pain in my heart
Been with a jitt From the start
I was so trapped in the dark
For the betrayal's and scars
I got this pain in my heart
Like slave men my back is just scarred
I done came outta dark
Still got some pain in my heart
Smoking drinking really got me faded
I been really grinding onna daily
Up 3 days my mental really fading
Think to much my mental really racing
I been gone I'm moving way too crazy
I be on my shii no moving lazy
You know that I got it moving crazy
In "In My Heart," Boycott and M. Slice share their emotional and mental struggles through lyrics that depict sorrow, pain, and betrayal. The chorus "I got this pain in my heart" highlights the emotional turmoil the artists are going through, reinforced by reminiscing on their scars and dark times. They claim to be grinding daily, but issues like smoking, drinking, overthinking, and losing sleep are affecting their mental health, leading them to feel hopeless and alone. The artists reveal that their fathers and friends have left them, creating more emotional distress in their lives. They seem to struggle to find genuine love and people they can trust, leading them to push away and isolate themselves from everyone else.
Line by Line Meaning
I got this pain in my heart
I am feeling emotional pain that is affecting my wellbeing
Been with a jitt From the start
I have been with someone since the beginning of our journey
I was so trapped in the dark
I felt trapped in a negative space with no hope or light
For the betrayal's and scars
I have experienced betrayal and physical or emotional wounds
Like slave men my back is just scarred
Like a slave, my back bears the scars of my past hardships
I done came outta dark
I have emerged from that dark place
Still got some pain in my heart
Although I have made progress, I still feel emotional pain
Smoking drinking really got me faded
I am using substances to cope and feeling the effects of it
I been really grinding onna daily
I have been working hard regularly
Up 3 days my mental really fading
I have not slept for three days and my mental wellbeing is declining
Think to much my mental really racing
I overthink and my thoughts are racing
I been gone I'm moving way too crazy
I have been absent and my actions are irrational
I be on my shii no moving lazy
I am always active and motivated
You know that I got it moving crazy
I am known for my wild and unpredictable behavior
So i stay to myself I don't need no help
I keep to myself and do not rely on others for help
I been on my own just surrounding myself
I have been independent and focused only on myself
Since everyone left I went and prevailed
Since everyone abandoned me, I have succeeded on my own
I know that I'm winning but I feel like hell
Despite my accomplishments, I still feel emotionally unwell
Daddy had met me when I was like 12
My father met me when I was twelve years old
And he still didn't stay
But he still left and did not stay in my life
What the fuck what the hell
I am frustrated and confused by his actions
I just be feeling like nothing is real
I often feel disconnected from reality
Momma say love you I tell her be real
When my mother tells me she loves me, I doubt her sincerity
I just don't know how to cope how to feel
I struggle to manage my emotions and feelings
Living my life knowing wicked is real
I am aware of the harsh realities of life
People gone come and go Nigga just chill
People will come into and leave your life, so stay calm
It just hit harder cuz you kept it real
It hurts more when someone you trusted betrayed you
Bad at explaining the way that I feel
I struggle to articulate my emotions
sitting in therapy got me real ill
Attending therapy is making me feel sick
Picking my brain and my thoughts till they spill
I am reflecting deeply on my thoughts and emotions until they overflow
Think to myself do they care how I feel
I wonder if others actually care about how I am feeling
Spaz at the world cuz I know they ain't real
I lash out at the world because I believe it is fake
Pushing my buttons a nigga just chill
People intentionally provoke me, but I try my best to stay calm
Genuine love what i want how I feel
I desire authentic love and connection
Women will switch and these niggas ain't real
Women can be unfaithful and unreliable, just like men
Circle so small you can call it pill
I have a very small and tight-knit group of friends
RIP Fredo he popped all then pills
Fredo was a rapper who overdosed on drugs
Shit is so sad GOD you taking the real
It is tragic that God takes away the genuine and pure people
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Written by: D $M00V3
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