Afraid of Heights
Boygenius Lyrics


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I know that I fucked up when I
Told you I'm afraid of heights
It made you wanna test my courage
You made me climb a cliff at night
You wanted me to jump and I declined
You called me a coward, I replied
I don't wanna live forever, but I don't wanna die tonight
When the black water ate you up
Like a sugar cube in a teacup
I got the point you were makin'
When I held my breath 'til you came up

There's been a run of fires downtown
On half-built construction sites
I know you never liked a townhouse
I've seen you climb a crane at night
If they ever catch you at it
I know you'd want me to be proof
That you took a rich man's dream
And brought it with you on your way down

'Cause one man's dream is another man's death
I remember when you told me that
Didn't know what to say so I just laughed
But now I know it's not funny

I never rode a motorcycle
I never smoked a cigarette
I wanna live a vibrant life
But I wanna die a boring death
I know I was a disappointment
Know you wanted me to take a risk
Not everybody gets the chance to live
A life that isn't dangerous

You called me a crybaby
But you're the one who got teary
Telling me what you believe
How we're stuck in entropy
How it hurts to hope
Oh, it hurts to hope for more




Oh, it hurts to hope the future
Will be better than before

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Boygenius's song "Afraid of Heights" depict a relationship dynamic where one person is pushing the other to confront their fears and take risks. The singer acknowledges that they made a mistake by confessing their fear of heights, as it led their partner to test their courage by making them climb a cliff at night. However, the singer chooses not to jump and is labeled a coward for it. They express a desire to live a fulfilling life but without the constant danger that comes with it.


The second verse provides an interesting contrast as the singer recalls a moment when their partner went underwater and they understood the point they were making. This could imply that the partner had their own fears to face, and the singer recognized the need for bravery in those situations. The lyrics then shift to a series of fires happening in their town, symbolizing the destructiveness of taking risks and seeking thrill. The partner is depicted as someone who is not afraid to climb cranes at night, indicating their willingness to challenge societal norms and live on the edge.


The final verse reveals the singer's perspective on living a vibrant life but dying a boring death. They acknowledge that they may have been a disappointment to their partner, as they were not willing to take risks as often as expected. The singer reflects on the fact that not everyone gets the opportunity to live a safe and stable life, and there is a longing to find a balance between excitement and security.


Overall, the lyrics of "Afraid of Heights" explore the complexities of relationships and the contrasting desires for adventure and stability.


Line by Line Meaning

I know that I fucked up when I
I am aware that I made a mistake when I


Told you I'm afraid of heights
Shared with you that I have a fear of being high up


It made you wanna test my courage
This made you want to challenge my bravery


You made me climb a cliff at night
You compelled me to ascend a steep hill during the darkness


You wanted me to jump and I declined
You desired me to leap, but I refused


You called me a coward, I replied
You labeled me as a coward, and I responded


I don't wanna live forever, but I don't wanna die tonight
I do not wish for eternal life, but I do not wish to perish this evening


When the black water ate you up
As the dark water consumed you


Like a sugar cube in a teacup
Similar to a sugar cube dissolving in a teacup


I got the point you were makin'
I comprehended the message you were conveying


When I held my breath 'til you came up
When I held my breath until you resurfaced


There's been a run of fires downtown
There has been a series of fires in the city center


On half-built construction sites
Occurring on unfinished construction locations


I know you never liked a townhouse
I am aware that you never favored townhouses


I've seen you climb a crane at night
I observed you scaling a crane during the darkness


If they ever catch you at it
If they ever catch you engaging in that activity


I know you'd want me to be proof
I know you would want me to provide evidence


That you took a rich man's dream
That you took away the aspiration of a wealthy individual


And brought it with you on your way down
And carried it along with you as you descended


'Cause one man's dream is another man's death
Because what is a dream for one person could be a fatal outcome for someone else


I remember when you told me that
I recall the moment you shared that with me


Didn't know what to say so I just laughed
I was unsure of how to respond, so I simply laughed


But now I know it's not funny
However, now I understand that it is not amusing


I never rode a motorcycle
I have never experienced riding a motorcycle


I never smoked a cigarette
I have never indulged in smoking a cigarette


I wanna live a vibrant life
I desire to lead a lively and dynamic existence


But I wanna die a boring death
However, I wish for my demise to be unremarkable and uneventful


I know I was a disappointment
I understand that I let you down


Know you wanted me to take a risk
I am aware that you wanted me to embrace uncertainty


Not everybody gets the chance to live
Not everyone is fortunate enough to have the opportunity to exist


A life that isn't dangerous
A life that is devoid of peril


You called me a crybaby
You referred to me as a whiner


But you're the one who got teary
However, you were the one who became emotional


Telling me what you believe
Sharing your beliefs with me


How we're stuck in entropy
How we are trapped in a state of disorder


How it hurts to hope
How painful it is to hold onto hope


Oh, it hurts to hope for more
Oh, it is agonizing to have aspirations for something greater


Oh, it hurts to hope the future
Oh, it is painful to anticipate that the future


Will be better than before
Will surpass what it was previously




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Julien Rose Baker, Lucy Elizabeth Dacus, Phoebe Lucille Bridgers

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Comments from YouTube:

@olijovelmacdonald

my mom passed away two days ago. and i don’t know why i’m posting this, but it feels like the universe was listening to me and now i have this. this is just like mom and i, her being a risk taker and paying for it and me getting nauseous walking down the stairs and staying safe. the timing of this song is perfect, thank you for this, boys.

@penelope36

real bc this song reminds me of my dead dad, stay strong

@mooninherhands

sending you love.

@caseymagon

sending you so so much love. ❤

@rainuhface09

My mom died a week and a half ago, you’re not alone 🌷

@zdln507

Sending you love ❤

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@NateIsLame

The lyrics are next level good on this one. I knew so many folks with so much dread and angst pent up with nothing to really direct it at, eventually resorting to potentially self destructive methods to express themselves. How lucky so many folks are that they’re in a position to invent the things that trouble them, as potentially contradictory and frustrating as that may be for them.

@babfridkrien

OMG ur a boygenius fan!!! I love your channel :)

@Cloudssss687

Lucys voice is so calm and soothing 🥺😭❤️

@mmac5170

It’s crazy how phoebes talking voice & singing voice are so different

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