Fake Smiles
Boys of Fall Lyrics

I've learned to bury it.
I have become accustomed to suppressing my emotions and hiding my true feelings.

I'm sick of wasting time.
I'm tired of spending my precious time on you, realizing it has been unproductive and fruitless.

I find comfort in the dark when,
I seek solace in isolation and loneliness because in those moments, I can be honest with myself.

I know your words are twisting me.
I am aware that your manipulative words are distorting my perception and causing confusion.

(So tell me if you wanna) Keep it up, playing my emotions.
(Therefore, please inform me) If you intend to continue manipulating and toying with my emotions.

You think you hide well and I don't know it?
Do you believe you conceal your true intentions effectively, while assuming I am oblivious to them?

You think that I misunderstood your games? (No, no)
Are you under the impression that I have misinterpreted your deceitful actions? (Absolutely not)

Cause we keep doing this again and again.
Because we repeatedly engage in this cycle of manipulation and emotional turmoil.

So break me.
Inflict pain and destruction upon me.

To help you feel in control.
In order to satisfy your need for dominance and power.

You'll burn to hide your pain.
You will resort to self-destructive behavior to conceal your own suffering.

You're cold, you feel nothing.
You have become emotionally detached, incapable of experiencing genuine emotions.

Sick to death of how you've made me feel for so long.
I am extremely weary and disgusted by the way you have consistently made me feel over an extended period of time.

Cause I know you never loved me.
Because I am fully aware that you never truly loved me.

No you never loved anyone but you.
You have only ever cared about yourself, without genuine affection for anyone else.

Fake smiles don't hide your purpose.
Pretending to be happy cannot conceal your true intentions and motives.

You took my time like it's worthless.
You have wasted my valuable time as if it has no significance or value.

And I wish you could just feel my pain.
I desire for you to empathetically understand and experience the suffering I have endured.

I don't wanna go on living that way.
I no longer wish to continue existing in such a manner.

Spending every minute stuck in the same place.
Being trapped in a stagnant situation, repeating the same patterns and unable to progress.

Letting this room hold all of that pain.
Allowing the confinement of this room to contain and encapsulate all the emotional anguish.

So where do we go when none of it's real?
In this situation where nothing is authentic or genuine, where do we find a way forward?

Everyday, I swallow how I feel.
Each day, I suppress and internally digest my true emotions.

Just to hold on to something you're trying to steal.
Merely to cling onto something you are attempting to take away from me.

And I guess I don't know you.
I suppose I am unaware of who you truly are.

So I don't want to let you keep,
Therefore, I refuse to allow you to retain any part of me.

Any single part of me.
Not even a fraction of who I am.

Cause you just cut too deep.
Because you have inflicted emotional wounds that penetrate far too profoundly.

Felt like it was all for nothing.
It gave the impression that everything we had was devoid of purpose or meaning.