Overthinking
Boys of Fall Lyrics

Stay up late and I can't sleep.
I cannot seem to fall asleep even though it's late at night.

I lose time and I don't why
I am unable to keep track of time and I do not understand why it's happening.

Words circle in my head like Poison with a needle and a thread.
I am plagued with harmful thoughts that keep repeating in my head like a poisonous thread.

Sew me up.
Help me close off these harmful thoughts that seem to be consuming me.

Keep my head shut.
Make these thoughts stop so that I can find some peace and quiet.

Panic and anger fill up my bedroom.
I am overwhelmed with a sense of panic and anger that seems to have taken over the entire room.

Thinking about the words that you were screaming as your make up ran ever slowly down your face.
I can't stop thinking about the hurtful things you said as tears streamed down your face.

I think I went and said too much.
I may have said things that I regret and that may have caused damage to our relationship.

And maybe I'm just overthinking.
Perhaps, I am thinking too much about the situation and making it worse than it actually is.

Maybe I don't really need to know.
I may not need to know all the details of what's happening to avoid complicating things further.

But so much times been wasted.
We have spent so much time on this issue already without finding a solution.

And I'm just stuck thinking that it's all the same.
I feel like we keep going in circles without making any progress.

Who but I thinks about it everyday?
I am the only one who can't stop thinking about this situation every single day.

What makes you fuck with my head when I say that I'm okay and there's no way I could let you take it?
Why do you continue to disturb my peace even when I tell you that I'm okay and won't let you affect me?

Ha. Yeah.
A sarcastic reaction to the constant turmoil the author is experiencing.

I'm a mess and that's really nothing new to you.
I am in a state of chaos and it's nothing new to the person I am addressing.

Break my neck from all the stress you fucking put me through.
You are causing me so much physical and emotional stress that I feel like I'm on the verge of having a breakdown.

Cause lately I'm feeling displaced In every single space, That I spend time in and I can't relate.
I am feeling out of place in every environment that I am in and I am unable to connect with anyone or anything.

All of the words that I wrote were mistakes.
Everything that I have said or written lately seems to be a mistake and is causing more harm than good.

And I just see hate when I look in your face.
When I look at you, all I see is anger and hostility instead of love or compassion.

And all my hallways, They echo endless and always, My voice remained just incoherent, All I wanted was just to talk to you.
My screams and pleas for help seem to fall on deaf ears and I am not being heard properly even though I just want to have a conversation with you.

When's it enough? This has gone way past love.
I am at my breaking point and this situation has gone far beyond what a healthy relationship should look like.

It just feels personal.
The things that you are doing/saying feel very intentional and directed towards me personally instead of just being about the situation.

It keeps me up.
The situation is causing me so much stress and anxiety that I am unable to sleep properly.

And I'm so paranoid, I keep distance just to hold my head above the water.
I am so fearful of what may happen that I am keeping my distance in order to protect myself.

You'd have me sink right through with you.
You are dragging me down with you and I feel like I am going to drown because of it.