Under My Skin
Boys of Fall Lyrics

You are the only one that I let get under my skin.
You are the only person who has the power to deeply affect me emotionally.

Cause' to feel you at all is better than feeling nothing.
Even experiencing the pain of being hurt by you is preferable to feeling numb and empty.

I've lost the only part of me, I ever felt was really honest.
I have lost the authentic and genuine aspect of myself that I believed in.

I'm lacking purpose.
I feel directionless and without a clear sense of meaning or goal.

So tense, so full of doubt.
I am filled with anxiety, uncertainty, and hesitation.

Yet I know, it's finding its way out of my heart and to the surface.
Despite my inner turmoil, I am aware that these emotions will eventually release themselves and become apparent.

And I'm terrified that I've just lost everything.
I am deeply afraid that I have lost everything that mattered to me.

In the past few years that has kept me breathing.
I relied on what I had in the past few years to keep myself alive and motivated.

I just want the person that you promised me.
All I desire is for you to be the person you once promised me you would be.

(Now I'm stuck) Now I'm stuck in the middle of hate and envy.
I find myself trapped amidst feelings of animosity and jealousy.

Caused by the two hands that made me whole.
These negative emotions are a result of the actions of the ones who completed me.

But I can't get enough.
Despite the negative consequences, I am unable to resist or get over these emotions.

Writing over and over. Again and again.
Repeating the same pattern and experiencing the same outcome repeatedly.

It's always the same end.
No matter how it unfolds, it consistently leads to the same conclusion.

Maybe I was never enough.
Perhaps I was never sufficient or satisfactory in meeting your expectations.

Fought my way to shore.
I struggled and fought to find stability and safety.

Cast back out just like before.
However, I have been rejected and pushed away once again, just like in the past.

Empty spaces remain wide open.
There are still vacant spaces within me that need to be filled.

You don't get it, no you don't get it.
You fail to understand, you are unable to comprehend.

I hid it, trust me, I hid it.
I concealed my true emotions and kept them hidden, even though it may be hard to believe.

You are the only one that I let get under my skin.
You hold a unique position to deeply affect and influence me emotionally.

Cause' to feel you at all is better than feeling nothing.
Even experiencing the pain caused by you is preferable to feeling empty and devoid of emotion.

And I'm terrified that I've just lost everything.
I am filled with fear and dread that I have lost everything that was meaningful to me.

In the past few years that has kept me breathing.
The things I had in the recent years were instrumental in keeping me alive and motivated.

Writing over and over. Again and again.
Continuously writing and repeating the same thoughts, actions, or patterns.

It's always the same end.
Regardless of how it unfolds, it consistently leads to the same outcome.

You are the only one that I let get under my skin.
Out of all the people I encounter, you are the only one who has the power to deeply affect and influence me emotionally.

Cause' to feel you at all is better than feeling nothing.
Even if it means experiencing pain or hurt because of you, it is still preferable to feeling empty and devoid of any emotions.