Nightmare
Brian Lyrics

I know you know I know that there's something that's worth holding on to
Both of us understand that there is something worth preserving amidst the struggles and challenges of life.

In spite of the burned out scene and the aging pains and the quiet little monsters
Despite the desolation and weariness of our surroundings, we still face our inner demons that haunt and torment us in our silence.

And you know I know you know that I feel the same, I feel just like you do
We both understand that we share the same feelings of loneliness and despair, and that we could relate to each other in our struggle.

When I hear you say sometimes there's something pure about growing up lonesome
Your words reveal the idea that there might be a certain purity in enduring solitude and facing one's struggles alone.

All my life I was the quiet kind
Throughout my entire existence, I have been the type of person who keeps to myself and my dreams.

I just kept to myself and my dreaming
I simply chose to stay in my own world of fantasies and illusions, avoiding the harsh realities of life.

And all my life I just tried to survive
Survival was my sole purpose as I struggled to make it through each day.

I'm not trying to shut you out
I don't intend to alienate or distance myself from you in any way, and I hope that you would understand and accept me for who I am.

And she says, "I just wanna live, and if I get the chance then I would wanna live again"
She expresses her desire to live life to the fullest, and her willingness to grab any opportunity that would allow her to do so.

But I get this nightmare where you leave me on my own
I sometimes experience distressing dreams where you abandon me and leave me to deal with my struggles alone.

All I want is to let you know but my words get lost and haunt the back of my throat
I want to communicate my feelings to you, but my words fail me and my emotions remain unexpressed and trapped inside, causing me great anguish.

And little nightmares, keep telling me you'll go
Frequent troubling thoughts and nightmares plague me with the fear that you will eventually leave me alone to confront my demons.

I see you shake and shake and shake and shake and I wanna reach out now
I observe you trembling and shivering with fear, and I long to comfort and support you in any way I can.

'cause there must be a brighter light there's a simple life that gets past these breakdowns
I believe that there is a brighter future beyond the darkness and defeats we experience, and we need to live a simpler life that can help us overcome our struggles.

And you know that I know you know that I crash the same in tiny little pieces
We both understand that we face the same struggles that crush us into tiny fragments, leaving us damaged and vulnerable.

You gotta know that I'm on your side and there's something gold about someone you can bleed on
You need to recognize that I am always by your side, ready to support you and be your shoulder to lean on, and that there is something precious and valuable in having someone to confide in and share your pain with.

All my life I was the killing kind
Throughout my life, I behaved like a person who was ruthless and indifferent, causing harm and destruction to others.

I was cool as the cold stormy weather
I projected an image of calmness and detachment, as if nothing ever affected me, just like the cold and stormy weather.

Don't you know there's an ocean of hope underneath the grey sky where you're dreaming?
There is a vast sea of optimism and promise hidden beneath the bleak and gloomy skies of your dreams.

And it's so hard to know which lonely hand you should hold
It can be difficult to discern who among the lonely and struggling people you should reach out to and support.

You can hold me until you don't want me
You can rely on me as your support system until such time that you feel like you don't need me anymore.

We can cry together through the bad dreams
We can share our pain and emotions together, especially during tough times when our dreams are plagued with nightmares.

Through the nightmare that is the waiting
We can endure the grueling and trying periods while waiting for a better future amidst the terrible nightmares.

Wild horses couldn't drag me away (from you baby)
No matter what happens, I will always be beside you, nothing could drag me away from your side or the role of support that I play.

Where you leave me on my own
The idea that you would leave me alone to deal with my struggles haunts me with terrifying nightmares.