I'm Still Your Fag
Broken Social Scene Lyrics


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Heard about your wife and kids where we slept
Felt their mouths with stitches at that were slowly lit
Kept your uniform this time because I couldn't quit
Haven't felt the ground so cold without getting sick

And I'm still your fag
I'm still your fag
It's a possibility to live without lips
Kleenex love to fill right up with all the broken kids
I swore I drank your piss that night to see if I could live
But my wrists couldn't stand the life that we missed

And I'm still your fag
I'm still your fag

You're only coming out because you came back in
You're only coming out because you came back in





And I'm still your fag
I'm still your fag

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Broken Social Scene's song I'm Still Your Fag tells a complex and emotional story that is open to interpretation. The song seems to revolve around a tumultuous and possibly abusive relationship between the singer and the subject of the song. The first few lines describe the singer's knowledge of the subject's married and parental status, and the graphic violence they have inflicted on their family. This stanza conveys a sense of shame and disgust at the subject's behavior, but also hints at a connection that the singer cannot quite sever, as demonstrated by their keeping the subject's uniform.


The second stanza is even more opaque, and possibly metaphorical. The singer seems to be describing a lover who is either physically or emotionally unavailable, and who remains connected to their past traumas. The line, "Kleenex love to fill right up with all the broken kids," could refer to a medication that is popular among teenagers, or to an explosive or volatile relationship that leaves both participants feeling hollow and devastated. The final lines, "But my wrists couldn't stand the life that we missed / And I'm still your fag," suggest that the singer has attempted self-harm or suicide in the past, and that they are still emotionally tied to the subject in spite of their trauma.


Overall, the song takes a dark, often cryptic look at the struggles and pain that come with intimate relationships. It suggests that even in the midst of intense isolation or suffering, there is a possibility of connection, and that love and sex can be both healing and destructive.


Line by Line Meaning

Heard about your wife and kids where we slept
I found out about your family while we were together


Felt their mouths with stitches at that were slowly lit
I imagined silencing your family in a violent way


Kept your uniform this time because I couldn't quit
I couldn't resist keeping something of yours to remind me of you


Haven't felt the ground so cold without getting sick
I am emotionally numb and indifferent to everything around me


And I'm still your fag
I am still subservient to you and cannot let go of our past relationship


It's a possibility to live without lips
It's possible to live without the physical act of kissing


Kleenex love to fill right up with all the broken kids
Our love was like a cheap substitute for real love, and attracted those who were also broken and hurting


I swore I drank your piss that night to see if I could live
I did something extreme to prove my loyalty to you


But my wrists couldn't stand the life that we missed
I couldn't handle the pain and emptiness that came with our relationship ending


You're only coming out because you came back in
You are only revealing your true self because you want to be with me again


And I'm still your fag
Even though you have power over me, I still have feelings for you and am willing to submit to you




Lyrics © Peermusic Publishing
Written by: Brendan Canning, David Newfeld, David Whiteman, Evan Cranley, Jason Collett, Justin Peroff, Kevin Drew

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Comments from YouTube:

@angelicdexter

This song came out when I was in high school and it changed me. At that time I didn't know there was a possibility for me to live my life freely (I live in Romania, you see) but this helped me pull through. Couldn't really talk about the song, as I was afraid that it would put me in the spotlight, but I kept it as my little secret. The fact that there was music out there for people like me changed everything and I couldn't be more thankful.

@djm55

I'm glad that you were able to persevere, and I'm sorry that you had to keep such a large part of your life secret. Is the world so bereft of compassion and love that people would deny happiness to two people who happen to be of the same gender? I hope things are better for you in Romania these days.

@simonwaldram6680

I'm not even really a Broken Social Scene fan, but I still think this is the greatest music video of all-time.

@67Kiffy

14 years ago already.. man time flies

@dearbluecat02

:,(

@codymccormack3554

This is quietly one of my favourite tracks from YFIIP. "You're only coming out cause you came back in" is such a beautiful line.

@aJazzcat

There's so much in this video that's symbolic on some crazy levels. I never really noticed it in all the years since I first saw it, until just now.. IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL

@RobertMichaelTodd

This song helped change my life. Songs are rarely written regarding the gay male experience.

@StingaB1

I've always loved this song but never saw the video until today. I got chills and cried, lol
Is that weird? I'm a girl btw. I just think this was beautiful.

@kamalmanzukie

im a guy, and no its not weird. it didn't make me cry, but i recognize elements in it that could if it hit me in the right mood. i find it incredibly moving, and it warms my cold heart. whoever came up with this as a music video for this song is a genius, it says so much and matches perfectly the message and feeling of the song in an interpretive way

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