Epiphany
Broox Lyrics

I like to dance
I enjoy expressing myself through dance

I like to feel like a man
Dancing makes me feel confident and masculine

But sometimes it's hard
However, circumstances can make it difficult to feel that way

'Cause I don't have a car
For example, not having a car limits my ability to go out and have fun

And I don't have a plan
And without a clear direction, I feel lost and unsure of myself

Make me feel strong
I need to feel empowered and capable

'Cause I feel like calling my mom
Otherwise, I may resort to seeking comfort from my parents

Like, come pick me up
As if I'm a child who needs to be rescued

I've been so fucking lame
I feel like a failure or a loser

For so fucking long
And this feeling has persisted for quite some time

I've been mowing my lawn
I've been doing mundane tasks to fill my days

Every day of the week
Repeating the same activities, day after day

Now the grass is all dead
But even that effort was futile, as the grass has died

Where it used to be green
Where once there was life and vitality

I've been waking up late
I've been struggling to find motivation to begin my day

Going right back to sleep
And often give up and return to bed

'Cause I try to get up
Although I attempt to start my day with purpose

But my knees are too weak
I lack the strength and drive to follow through

Tired of being nothing
I'm disillusioned and unhappy with my current state of being

I've been funny
Humor has been a coping mechanism for me

I feel it coming
But I sense a change in my life on the horizon

I miss 2010
I yearn for a simpler, happier time in my life

When I didn't avoid my friends
When I was more social and engaged with the people in my life

I miss playing sports
I miss the camaraderie and physical release that comes with athletic activity

And baseball games with snacks at the end
I miss the small pleasures that came with those experiences

Rice Krispie Treats
For example, the taste of my favorite childhood snack

They used to taste so sweet
Which no longer satisfies me as it once did

Then I grew up
As I've matured and faced the realities of adulthood

Now everything tastes like nothing to me
I'm disillusioned and find little pleasure in things that once brought me joy

I've been trying to man up
I've been trying to become more mature and responsible

But I feel like a kid
But I still feel naive and inexperienced

And I'm still so confused
I'm still struggling to make sense of the world

To what anything is
And uncertain of my place and purpose in it all

And all of my freckles are turned into zits
Even my physical appearance is changing, and not for the better

And my cereal bowl slowly fills up with shit
Even my simplest pleasures are sullied by the effects of aging and disappointment