Amnesia
Bryana Salaz Lyrics

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
As I passed by the places where we used to have fun while under the influence, it reminded me of the memories we shared and how much I miss them.

I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
The memory of our last kiss is still fresh in my mind, and I can still remember how your lips tasted.

And even though your friends tell me you’re doing fine
Despite what your friends tell me about you moving on, I still wonder if you really are happy without me.

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
I can't help but think that even though you have someone new in your life, you might still feel empty and alone inside.

When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
I wonder if the hurtful words that he says to you trigger memories of the sweet and loving words that I wrote to you.

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
The doubt creeps in my mind that maybe the love we had wasn't real and all those memories were just a lie.

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
If what we shared was true love, then how could you move on so quickly and be happy without me?

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
The day you broke the news to me that you were leaving is still etched crystal clear in my memory.

I remember the make-up running down your face
The tears that ran down your face as you tried to wipe off the makeup are an unshakeable image in my mind.

And the dreams you left behind you didn’t need them
All the aspirations and dreams we had together, you left behind without taking them, like they didn't hold any importance.

Like every single wish we ever made
All the desires and aspirations we wished for together, now seem so distant and far-fetched.

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
I wish I could forget all the memories of you and our past together and start anew.

And forget about the stupid little things
The little things we did together that used to bring me so much happiness now seem trivial and unimportant.

If today I woke up with you right beside me
If I woke up to find you beside me today, I would hold you tightly and never let you go.

Like all of this was just some twisted dream
It all feels like a bad dream, and I wish to wake up and find that it was all just my imagination.

And you’d never slip away
I would hold on to you tightly and never let you go if you were really here beside me.

And you'd never hear me say
I wish we could go back to the way things were and that I never said those things that made you leave me.

No, I’m really not fine at all
No matter what anyone says, I am not doing well and still miss you more than ever.

Tell me this is just a dream
I wish that everything that has happened since you left me was just a bad nightmare I could wake up from.

’Cause I’m really not fine at all
Despite trying to stay strong, the truth is that I'm not fine and still struggling to deal with the loss.