Winter
Bryce Bishop Lyrics

I hope you're happy
I wish you are content and fulfilled

Like the way you used to be
Just as you were before, when we were happy together

When we would talk about the future, smell the summer in the trees
When we used to dream about what lies ahead, feeling hope and joy in the present moment

But now it's winter
But now it feels like everything is cold and bleak

And a lot of time has past
It has been a long time since we were last happy together

It's been a year and a half, I hope you haven't moved past this
It's been 18 months since we last saw each other, and I hope you are not over our relationship

You're kinda hard to contact
It's difficult to get in touch with you

At least that's what your friends say
That's what I hear from your friends

But it's been a while since we have talked
But it's been a long time since we last communicated

I'm wondering if you'd rather not
I'm contemplating if you don't really want to speak to me

And I've noticed
And I've observed

That you've been struggling to admit
That you find it hard to confess

That I don't know the half of it
That there is much more to the situation than I understand

And things have changed a lot since we met
And much has altered in our lives since we first crossed paths

I hate these worthless conversations rationalized indecision
I despise these pointless chats where we justify our lack of action

And the awful thoughts I had when you were "having too much fun"
And the negative emotions that arise when I think about you enjoying yourself without me

I'm a liar and a cheat and I'll be here all fucking week
I'm untrustworthy and deceptive, and I'll be around here for the entire week

I'll just be tryna slow my heart rate down enough so I can finally fall asleep
I'll just be attempting to calm myself down so I can drift off to sleep

When we drove out to the hills where you can see across the city
When we took a trip to the hills that gave a panoramic view of the city

While the trees blocked half the view the centre console stabbed our backs
Although the view was a bit obstructed by the trees, the centre console of the car poked into our backs

I thought "fuck me this is nice"
I remember thinking to myself that this was an incredible moment

And then you did and then it was
And then we had sex, and the moment became even more special

And then we laid out on the pavemenet till the cold crept through our bones
And then we lay on the pavement until we started feeling the chill in our bones

And then we tried to forget this would be the last time this would happen before you left
And then we attempted to push the thought that this was our last intimate moment before you departed from our minds