Better Than I Am
Buckshot LeFonque Lyrics

I know that I was not the one
I was never able to show my true feelings or let anyone in

To let my feelings show
My inability to express myself has hindered me in any relationship

In any way that mattered
My attempts at showing affection were not significant or meaningful

The moment I felt
If I ever felt like I might be developing feelings for someone

She might mean something to me
If I ever thought a woman had potential to be more than just a fleeting interest

I would just run away
I would retreat, convinced that love was foolish and destructive

I felt that love was for the fool
I believed only naive or simple-minded people would fall in love

Would tarnish any jewel
I was convinced that love would only tarnish or degrade anything good I had in my life

Turn a diamond to simple coal
Love would take something valuable and turn it into something worthless

Because in all my life
Throughout all my experiences

I never met that someone to make me feel love was right, alright
I had never met someone who gave me the sense that love could be a good thing in my life until her

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Now I see how issues from the past
I realize that past problems or experiences can affect how we approach new relationships

Can manifest themselves
Can show up or become apparent in how we behave or express ourselves

In your feelings for others
My past issues were preventing me from fully connecting emotionally with others

My bitter heart would poison loving souls of those
My resentful and cynical attitude towards love would negatively affect anyone I tried to love

Who tried to come too close
If someone ever tried to get closer to me, I would push them away

And then you came into my life
But then she appeared in my life

And filled me with the strength
She gave me the courage and motivation

To face the pain inside me
To confront and deal with the emotional baggage I had been carrying

Now that I've given you
Now that I've opened up to her and let her in

The best part of my heart
Now that I've given her the most important part of myself

I see you have your issues too
I realize that she too has her own past traumas and obstacles to overcome

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Better than I am
Her appearance in my life has made me a better version of myself

I'm better than I am
I have become a better person because of her

Though I'll never know why you left this way
Even though she has left without explanation

I'll try to understand
I will do my best to comprehend her actions and move forward

'Cause the moment you were in my life
Because the time we spent together has been transformative for me

Made me better than I am
She has improved my life in a significant way, making me a better person than I was before