Diary
Butch Walker Lyrics


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Lil' Jewish princess, never recognized
Replaced the star of David for the ones in your eyes
So you popped a Vicodin and ran away from everyone
And everything you thought you knew

Hangin' by the pool with the leisure dudes
Who never have a job but they got the attitude
And the clothes, and the shoes and a disease or two
And every head turns on cue

When she flies
Like a ballerina babe strung so high
Everybody have you seen her?
But the side that no one knows
She shows on video
She's a San Fernando sexx star and she's fine

Telephone screamin' on the bathroom floor
Momma tryin' to call ya since July forth
Erase the message along with the life
Of everything ya knew before

Life is pretty good with your wood grain walls
Lime green carpet with your meth lab stall
Mattress full of money and five locks on the door
As she falls to the floor

From trying to fly
Like a ballerina babe strung so high
Everybody have you seen her?
But the side that no one knows
She screams on video
She's a San Fernando sexx star and she's fine

East coast transplant now in California
Can ya feel the side effects of finally leaving Georgia?
Nothin' you can do about it, daddy tried to warn ya

Allowance cut off, blue jean cut offs
Feeling like a, cut out paper whore

When she flies
Like a ballerina babe strung up so high
Everybody have you seen her?
But the side that no one knows
She screams on video
She's a San Fernando sexx star

Where are you? Where are you?
Where are you? Where are you?
Where are you? Where are you?
Where are you? Where are you?





San Fernando sexx star, San Fernando sexx star
San Fernando sexx star, San Fernando sexx star

Overall Meaning

The song "Diary of a San Fernando Sexx Star" by Butch Walker tells a story about a girl who leaves her life behind in search of fame and success. The lyrics suggest that the girl, a "Lil' Jewish princess," is unfulfilled and unappreciated in her current situation. She replaces her Jewish identity with a more alluring image, taking Vicodin to escape reality. She is portrayed as a sex symbol, with men admiring her and heads turning when she is around. However, her story is not what it seems on the surface. In the chorus, we learn that she has a secret side that she reveals on video. The girl is actually a San Fernando sexx star, known for her performances in adult films. She is a performer that has made a name for herself but is not recognized for anything else. The song is about the search for validation and attention, a desire to be seen and heard, and the dangerous paths people will take to get it.


The song speaks to the feeling of isolation, loneliness, and lack of worth, which can drive someone to leave behind what they once knew for something unknown. Ironically, the girl's fame as a San Fernando sexx star is what isolates her from society, and her only validation is from the camera that records her videos. The lyrics also suggest that she suffers from drug addiction and a broken relationship with her family. The chorus is hauntingly beautiful, and the delivery gives insight into the dark and lonely thoughts of someone who is trapped inside themselves.


Line by Line Meaning

Lil' Jewish princess, never recognized
A young Jewish girl with unacknowledged beauty and talent


Replaced the star of David for the ones in your eyes
Her remarkable eyes became her defining feature


So you popped a Vicodin and ran away from everyone
She resorted to drugs to escape the people around her


And everything you thought you knew
She became disillusioned with life


Hangin' by the pool with the leisure dudes
She spent time with rich, idle guys


Who never have a job but they got the attitude
These people were arrogant despite having no job or purpose


And the clothes, and the shoes and a disease or two
They had expensive items and diseases, showing their poor health choices


And every head turns on cue
They were seen as attractive individuals


When she flies
When she is on drugs


Like a ballerina babe strung so high
She feels weightless and euphoric


Everybody have you seen her?
She becomes the center of attention


But the side that no one knows
Her true self is hidden


She shows on video
Her unfiltered self is revealed in her secret videos


She's a San Fernando sexx star and she's fine
She is a pornstar, but seems okay with it


Telephone screamin' on the bathroom floor
She avoids phone calls, possibly due to shame or guilt


Momma tryin' to call ya since July forth
Her mother has been trying to contact her since Independence Day


Erase the message along with the life
She deletes her mother's message without hearing it, symbolizing her desire to cut off her past life completely


Of everything ya knew before
She wants to forget her old life and move on


Life is pretty good with your wood grain walls
Her new life is luxurious, with expensive wood walls


Lime green carpet with your meth lab stall
She has a drug lab in her luxurious house


Mattress full of money and five locks on the door
She has a lot of money and protects it with multiple locks


As she falls to the floor
She experiences a drug-induced fall


East coast transplant now in California
She moved from the East Coast to California


Can ya feel the side effects of finally leaving Georgia?
She suffers side effects from leaving Georgia, possibly referring to nostalgia or homesickness


Nothin' you can do about it, daddy tried to warn ya
Her father warned her, but she couldn't undo her decisions


Allowance cut off, blue jean cut offs
She is no longer financially supported and wears cut-off shorts made from old jeans


Feeling like a, cut out paper whore
She feels fake and disposable like a cut-out paper doll


Where are you? Where are you?
She is lost and searching for meaning


San Fernando sexx star, San Fernando sexx star
She is embracing her new identity as a pornstar




Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: BUTCH WALKER

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