不是故意
By2 Lyrics

我以为恶梦 不会一直缠着我
I thought the night terrors would not continue to haunt me, suggesting an expectation that pain would eventually dissipate.

我以为头痛 闭上眼就痊愈了
I believed that by simply closing my eyes, the headache would heal, indicating a desire for relief from emotional or physical suffering.

我只听 你爱听的歌
I only listen to the songs you love, reflecting a willingness to prioritize your preferences over my own.

我只做 你的朋友
I only remain your friend, showing my commitment to our relationship while suppressing my true feelings.

我变得沉默 伤心也不愿开口
I have become silent, unwilling to express my sadness, which illustrates the struggle to communicate inner turmoil.

我变了好多 是否更靠近你呢
I've changed so much, wondering if it brings me closer to you, hinting at a self-transformation in hopes of gaining your affection.

等一个 固执的如果
Waiting for a stubborn 'what if,' signifying a lingering hope or fantasy about how things could have been different.

如果你懂我为什么就够了
If you understood me, it would be enough, signifying that understanding from you would alleviate my emotional burden.

你别担心 我 不怕一个人站在雨里
Don't worry, I'm not afraid to stand alone in the rain, emphasizing my resilience and readiness to face solitude.

除了你 我找不到能快乐的意义
Without you, I can't find meaning in happiness, indicating that my joy is intrinsically linked to your presence.

眼泪 带给你的压力太清晰
My tears reflect the pressure I place on you, illustrating how my emotional struggles impact our relationship.

我真的不是故意
I truly did not intend this, conveying my regret for the unintended consequences of my actions.

不是故意 让自己变得不再像自己
I didn't mean to change into someone unrecognizable, revealing the conflict between my true self and the persona I present.

为了你 拼命想拿一百分而努力
I strive hard to achieve a perfect score for you, symbolizing the intense pressure I feel to meet your expectations.

你却 离我越来越远的距离
Yet, you are drifting further away from me, depicting the painful reality of emotional distance in our relationship.

直到我失去你
Until I lose you, reflecting the anxiety about eventual abandonment and the potential end of our connection.

你别担心 我 不怕一个人站在雨里
Don't worry, I'm still not afraid to stand alone in the rain, reinforcing my inner strength despite loneliness.

除了你 我找不到能快乐的意义
Without you, happiness feels meaningless, reiterating the depth of my emotional dependence on you.

眼泪 带给你的压力太清晰
My tears clearly show the stress I bring upon you, underlining the visible impact of my emotional struggles.

我真的不是故意
I genuinely did not intend for this to happen, conveying sincerity in my remorse.

不是故意 让自己变得不再像自己
It was not my intention to lose touch with my true self, articulating the internal conflict I experience.

为了你 拼命想拿一百分而努力
I desperately work towards perfection for you, showing how much you mean to me and the lengths I am willing to go.

你却 离我越来越远的距离
Yet, you seem to distance yourself more and more, expressing the ache of feeling ignored or unworthy.

直到我失去你
Until I no longer have you, highlighting the fear of losing something deeply cherished.

真的不是故意
I truly did not mean for any of this to happen, underlining my sincere regrets and wishes for understanding.