Revelation
C.P.C. Lyrics

I’m not trying to be gangster no
I am not pretending to be someone I am not

I’m not trying to be hard
I am not trying to be tough

I’m trying to express myself in a way that will take some pain from my heart
I am using music to express my emotions and cope with my past experiences

I’m in love you can trust that I meant it
I am truly and genuinely in love

But if you judge me based on my past
If you judge me by my mistakes and not who I am today

I’ll be fucked if I wait for that ending
I won't wait around for your negativity and judgment to bring me down

Then again I’ve been fucked from the start
I have faced difficulties and obstacles from the beginning of my life

So I tear apart pages
I write lyrics as a form of emotional release and to express myself

Been sitting here ages
I have spent a lot of time reflecting and writing

Spitting my lyrics on stages
I perform my music live in front of audiences

Thinking I wish I could taste it forever and it’s never wasted I bet it’s amazing
I am grateful for every opportunity to make music and share it with others

Yeah I fell down but I made it
I have faced challenges and obstacles but I have overcome them

To the places I knew I could take it
I have set goals for myself and achieved them

I’m not faking the news I was breaking to you
I am telling the truth and being honest

I’ve been stating the truth since I came here "Facts"
I have always been truthful in my music

And you haven’t a clue where I started
You do not know the struggles I have faced in my life

So if only you knew where I’d been
If you knew my life story and experiences

You would know that I’ve always had targets laid down paving the road to my dreams
I have always set goals and worked hard to achieve them, despite the obstacles I faced

It’s the way that I work I’m grafter
I am a hard worker

I put the work in and get what I need
I work hard to achieve my goals

And I hold some hate to my father coz my sons two still he ain’t come see
I still harbor resentment towards my father because he has not visited his grandson

So one question I have that I’m asking
I have a question I need to ask

Coz you say that you can’t come visit
Because my father says he cannot visit

How do you get on that plane to Spain you prick when I saw that shit I was livid
I am angry that my father can go on vacation but not come visit his grandson

It’s the fact that you act like you love him
It is frustrating that my father acts like he cares about his grandson

It’s the fact that you act like you care
It is frustrating that my father acts like he cares about his family, but his actions do not match his words

But minutes keep ticking on faster still I don’t see you there
Time is passing quickly and my father still has not come to visit

Every time that he asks "Every time that he asks"
Every time my son asks

Who sent that card "Who sent that card"
Who sent him a card

Who sent that gift well it don’t mean shit till he knows who you are
The gifts do not matter until my son knows who his grandfather is

Yeah that’s all sad "Yeah that's all sad"
It is a sad situation

Does it hurt your heart "Coz it hurts my heart"
Does it hurt your feelings because it hurts mine

Coz it pulls on my strings every time that I think he don’t know who you are but
It is emotional for me every time I think about my son not knowing his grandfather

That’s on you thats not me dad
The responsibility for building a relationship with your grandson lies with you, not me

Sometimes I try to remember
Sometimes I try to recall things from the past

More time I try to forget
Most of the time I try to forget about the past

All the pain inside like the embers burning down anything it can get
The pain I feel inside is intense and all-consuming

Got my son in my life and I need him
My son is important to me and I need him in my life

Hold his hand as we walk every step
I cherish every moment I spend with my son

So near I can hear his heart beating
I am so close to him that I can hear his heartbeat

As he breathes I just hold every breath
I take in every moment I spend with him

But the fact is I take it granted
However, sometimes I take those moments for granted

All the time that I spend with my son
The time I spend with my son is precious

Coz I've got a good friend round here I swear hasn’t seen his kids in a month "facts"
I have a friend who has not seen his children in a month, and it makes me realize how fortunate I am to have time with my son

And I know that it drives him mental "nuts"
I know that it is driving my friend crazy

And the blame goes straight on the mum "uh huh"
And he blames the mother for keeping him away from his children

And I hope one day for the kid sake she will realise all this shit is dumb
I hope that one day, for the sake of the children involved, the parents can work through their issues and come to a resolution

Coz life’s too short to hold grudges
Life is too short to hold onto anger and resentment

But sometimes it’s hard to forgive
However, forgiveness can be difficult sometimes

In a world where everyone punches first and nobody’s started to think
In a world where people are quick to fight and slow to think

In the end we pretend that it’s alright
In the end, we pretend that everything is okay

Looking back at the things that we did
Reflecting on our past actions

Every action has a reaction
Every action we take has consequences

In this world it’s the way that we live
This is the reality of the world we live in

So I know I can’t talk for my sister
I cannot speak on behalf of my sister

And I know I can’t speak for my bro
I cannot speak on behalf of my brother

But I know that it breaks their heart every time they wait for a text on their phone
I know that it hurts my siblings every time they wait for a message from our father and receive nothing

Coz that man they call dad he’s a wanker
Because the man they call dad is a terrible person

When he’s drinking won’t leave them alone "Prick"
He won't leave them alone when he's drinking

If I see that bloke well it’s hands up hit hard bringing the blows
If I see him, I will fight him

Every time that I hit "Every time that I hit"
Every time I fight

You best watch your lip "You best watch your lip"
He should be careful what he says

Coz you could try laugh get a straight up spark
Because I might punch him in the face

Man I’ll bust your shit "Yeah I’ll bust your shit"
I will beat him up

Let us look at the past "Let us look at the past"
Let's examine the past

Coz it’s time to admit "Coz it’s time to admit"
Because it's time to tell the truth

All the things that you done how you treated my mum
Things he did and how he treated my mother

All the times you’re a prick and it’s all coz of drink it’s a madness
All the times he was a terrible person because of alcohol, it's insane

I remember the day that it kicked off
I remember the day when things started to go wrong

It was christmas I knew you was pissed
It was Christmas Day and I knew he was drunk

In the morning I woke to your music was stupid the things that you did
The next morning, I woke to his loud music and witnessed the things he did while drunk

You was screaming at mum so loud I got pissed off
He was screaming at my mother so loudly that I became angry

But at the time I was only a kid "I was only a kid"
But I was young and did not know how to deal with the situation

Then you went upstairs with your drink I could hear you scream
He went upstairs with his drink and I could hear him yelling

As you broke that sink and the water come
He broke the sink and water started flowing

Pouring, pouring, pouring, pouring down through the kitchen light
Water poured down through the light fixture in the kitchen

Then it come pouring pouring pouring pouring on to the kitchen sides
The water poured onto the kitchen counters and cabinets

All the food mum prepped got drenched and I mean it
All the food my mother had prepared got wet

Couldn’t believe what I’d seen through my eyes, it’s not right
I could not believe what I saw and knew that it was wrong

All of the grief you supplied your the reason I started scream through the night
He caused a lot of problems and trauma and I screamed in response

You’re the reason I learnt how to fight your the reason I learnt about war
He is the reason I learned how to fight and understand conflict

You’re the reason I look at my life like man I’d be damned if it ends up like yours
He is the reason I look at my life and know I don't want it to be like his

There’s a reason I love my son so much I believe that I craved it before
I love my son a lot and I think I always wanted to be a father

You’re the reason I hate so much held so much hate till the day he was born
He is the reason I hold so much anger and resentment, but my son's birth has helped me let some of it go