Suicide
C.R Lyrics


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You and I were like a suicide squeeze
Do or die, choose a side and yours was not me
Heart is tired losing sleep all the times we had together
Caught on fire put it out got back together
Heart on fire but it burns a little more
Are you not tired of picking pieces off the floor
Class is back in session but its hard for me to breathe
Learning about my self is like the scariest thing
How can you prepare for these things
I had to let you go just to grow your own wings
Class is back in session I dont judge a first impression
Cause I always second guess it
Second place aint where im headed
Ask me where my heart is its the same place that you left it
I never knew where you kept it
You couldn't ever accept it
I wanted to inspire you and spark the drive inside of you
But every time I turned around you took the exit
I loved you in the dark when there was no one else beside of you
I tried to hold on tight to you my heart is reckless
And it was bigger once you left
I could never take the credit im forever in your debt
With your soul and that's okay
I can't control it any way
Can't be broken down just moping around
Theres dreams I gotta chase
Heart on fire but it burns a little more
Are you not tired of picking pieces off the flow
Class is back in session but its hard for me to breathe
Learning about my self is like the scariest thing
How can you prepare for these things
I had to let you go just to grow your own wings,
Learning all these things about myself is kind of strange I guess
Maybe everyone around me wishes Id be changing less
Heart on sleeve yea that's my fashion these days he be saying less
Chaos never goes away I just embrace it less
I loved you lots I made a mess
I wanted you to Love me here
Not from a far cause my heart wasn't vacant yet
I fucking thought I wouldn't be awake for that
But I feel numb from all this shit no lidocaine for that
Heart on fire but it burns a little more
Are you not tired of picking pieces off the flow
Class is back in session but its hard for me to breathe
Learning about my self is like the scariest thing




How can you prepare for these things
I had to let you go just to grow your own wings,

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of C.R's "Suicide" explore the struggles of a person who feels trapped in their own mind and powerless against their negative thoughts. The song begins with the singer acknowledging that they are a slave to their own thoughts and despite trying to fight them, they feel caught in an endless cycle of negativity, unable to relinquish control. They describe themselves as a lost soul left with a hole, mourning their own existence. The singer seems to be apologizing for their rambling and scattered thoughts, indicating that they might be suffering from a mental illness that affects their ability to think and function properly. However, they also express a sense of disconnection from their own feelings, stating that they never cry, and instead, there is a part of them that longs to end the constant noise inside their head.


The singer then seems to question whether their desire to end their life is a sin and says that they have met their "haps" in the past. They reflect on how they never imagined that life could end so quickly and how they never considered what it would be like to be part of mass society. However, they now describe themselves as being "facetious" and hollow. They have been consumed by an array of illnesses and feel like they have been left speechless. The singer seems to be overwhelmed by the deepness of their own sadness and the bleakness of their surroundings, which is their weakness. They are sleepless and wish to be left alone in their nightmare. They feel like they do not care about anything anymore and that their fate is to die alone, except for the presence of the isolated twins who have broken into their thoughts. The singer is unable to feel alone in their skin until everything ceases within them.


Line by Line Meaning

Slave to the organization of thoughts
Trapped in the mental process of organizing thoughts


With wrought I say I fought
Although I tried, I couldn't escape this mental state


But caught in the undertow
But pulled back into this state


Never relinquish control
Never losing control of my thoughts


Condemned to a lost soul
Sentenced to feeling lost and hopeless


Left with a hole all alone so forlorn
Feeling lonely and depressed, with an emptiness inside


I mourn
I grieve for the life I cannot escape


Apologetic for the hectic rambling but my brains scrambling
Sorry for the chaotic thoughts, but my mind is confused


Cease handling
Stop trying to deal with me


Not a fan of me, who you?
You don't like me, so who are you to judge?


No I he who resides inside but I never cry
I'm the person inside, but I don't cry


Thats he whos grazing the edge longing to never think freely again
That's the part of me that's on the brink, wanting to be permanently free from my thoughts


Is this a sin?
Is it wrong to want to end this way of life?


End it all final grasp
I'm ready to die


Iโ€™ve meet my haps but that was all in the past
I've reached my limits, but that was a long time ago


Young never thought life would end this fast
When I was younger, I never thought I'd feel this way so soon


But never thought bout that in mass with the masses
But I never considered that others might feel the same


But now im facetious
But now I'm sarcastic


Call me a genius
Mocking the idea of being intelligent


But im hollow and grievous
I'm really just empty and in pain


Needless to say arrays of illness and diseases left me speechless
I can't even explain the various mental and physical illnesses and conditions that have affected me


Itโ€™s this deepness bleakness that is my weakness
It's the depth of despair that makes me weak


Thatโ€™s why Iโ€™m sleepless
That's why I can't sleep at night


Just leave me be in this constant nightmare that would scare
Just let me be in my perpetual nightmare that frightens me


If I dared to care
If I was brave enough to care


But my fate is fair for I am a man
But it's fair that I suffer because I'm a human


That deserves to die
Assuming that I deserve to die


With no one by my side
Feeling completely alone


Except isolated souls captured within
Except for other people who feel the same way I do


Some twins that happened to break in
People who have experienced the same pain as me and can relate


Canโ€™t feel alone in my skin until everything ceases within
Can't feel comfortable with myself until my thoughts and pain disappear




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Written by: Collin Walker

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ElderMutantstomp

C. R. KILLED IT LAST NIGHT!!

bengief

+Jordan's Nyhc Well last night is as close as its getting to the 90's but young dudes like "Vice" are putting out great stuff for your generation

bengief

+Jordan's Nyhc Definitely the best since the 90's

ElderMutantstomp

+bengief best show I've been too Sihc!!!

bengief

oh yes they did

Who Are You? Suka!

Last time I hung with my friend Alex was at the reunion in 09, this is my favorite song by them. I didn't know a few years later when I hear this song I'd be thinking of him as a bastard....we loved you.

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