I'm Sorry
C.Soulove Lyrics

I’m trying to say I’m sorry
The singer is expressing their intention to apologize.

So Where should I begin?
The singer is unsure about where to start apologizing from.

Do I start by listing all my sins
The singer is considering confessing all their wrongdoings as a way of apologizing.

Should I go alphabetically or maybe chronologically
The artist is contemplating the best way to structure their apology, either by listing their mistakes alphabetically or in the order that they occurred.

Cause I got way too many things so need to share within
The artist has done many things they are sorry for and feels the need to express all of them.

I used to carry baggage, I would take on every mission
The singer carried around emotional baggage and took on every task that was given to them.

It had my dirty laundry that was hidden in the zippers
The singer hid their flaws and secrets, like dirty laundry, beneath the surface.

It was like a carry on and if you let me carry on
The emotional baggage was like a carry-on bag that the artist would keep unpacking for anyone who was willing to listen.

I would always unpack it for anyone who’d listen
The artist would constantly talk about their problems to anyone who was willing to hear them out.

Even take it home for Christmas
The artist would even bring their emotional baggage with them to family gatherings, like Christmas.

It's where I used to store all the hatred and poisonous arrogance I was thinking
The emotional baggage contained the singer's negative and arrogant thoughts and feelings.

I used to play the victim
The artist would often portray themselves as a victim in situations.

But I didn’t realize that I was dying the inside, blinded by decisions
The singer didn't realize that their negative thoughts and behaviors were hurting them internally and impacting their decision-making abilities.

That never made me better
The singer's negative behavior did not improve their life or make them a better person.

That only made me bitter
The singer's negative behavior only led to them becoming more bitter.

They stayed in me forever
The effects of the artist's negative behavior have stayed with them permanently.

And made me to a sinner
The artist feels as though their negative behavior is a sin and has affected their moral standing.

With Each and every critic making me a greater cynic
The singer's negative behavior has caused them to become more cynical anytime they receive criticism.

Cause no matter what I did they hated each and every lyric
The singer encountered criticism no matter what they did or said.

So what did I do? I took it out on you
The artist redirected their anger and frustration from criticism towards someone else, likely the person they are apologizing to.

Couldn’t blame myself, I didn’t want the truth
The artist couldn't take responsibility for their actions and was unwilling to face the truth about their negative behavior.

It’s easier to take it that to earn it
The artist found it easier to take things they wanted, rather than earn them honestly through hard work and effort.

To fake it than to learn it
The singer found it easier to pretend they knew things, rather than taking the time to learn and improve their skills and knowledge.

To break it and to burn it
The artist would rather destroy something, rather than putting in the effort to fix or improve it.

Than to make it to the surface
The singer would rather keep their negative behavior hidden, rather than bringing it to the surface to address and improve it.

It took a long time I was on the wrong side
The singer acknowledges that they were on the wrong side for a long time and didn't do the right thing.

But I really want to tell you I know you don’t deserve it
The singer recognizes that the person they are apologizing to doesn't deserve the treatment they received.

I’m Sorry that I hurt you and I took you all for granted.
The artist is apologizing for hurting the person and not appreciating them enough when they had the chance.

I promise I can see it really wasn’t worth it
The artist realizes that their negative actions and behavior weren't worth the outcome and they regret their choices.

I need to learn to say I’m sorry
The singer recognizes that saying sorry is an area where they need to improve.

I was wrong
The singer is admitting to being wrong.

I was quick the blame the people all around me when really I was the problem all along
The artist admits to blaming others for their problems, when it was actually their behavior that caused the problems.

I burned so many bridges, I cut too many ties
The artist has hurt many people and ended relationships due to their negative behavior.

I can’t even go back, I don’t know how long
The artist feels as though it's too late to fix some of the damage they've caused as they don't know how much time has passed.

I've always been the loudest,
The singer is acknowledging that they have always been outspoken.

I've always been the proudest,
The artist is acknowledging that they have had a lot of pride in themselves.

And now I’m all alone and I’m so far gone
The singer recognizes that their behavior has caused them to be alone and they feel lost.

Used to say I don’t need you, I’ll do it on my own
The singer used to claim that they didn't need anyone else and could do things on their own.

Even got used to saying it in all my songs
The singer would even write about their independence and self-reliance in their music.

Now I need you near me, I know that you can hear me
The artist realizes that they need other people in their life and believes that the person they hurt can hear their apology.

I hope that you've forgiven me and all my wrongs
The artist is hoping that the person they hurt has forgiven them for their mistakes.

I was just a boy, I didn’t understand
The singer is admitting that their negative behavior was due to their lack of understanding and maturity.

I still had to learn, until I was a man
The singer recognizes that they still have a lot of growing up and learning to do to be a responsible adult.

That every time you fall, you always have to stand
The artist realizes that everyone will make mistakes, but it's important to get back up and keep going.

And always take your time, and always make a plan
The artist advises that it's important to take time and make a plan, rather than rushing into things without thinking them through.

Stop living in the future and be present in the present cause the moment that passes becomes your past
The artist advises that it's important to live in the present, rather than constantly worrying about the future, as the present soon becomes the past.

And every moment is the moment when you notice that your growing so you need to make that moment last
The singer advises that it's important to cherish every moment as it's an opportunity for growth and improvement.

It’s lonely at the top
The artist acknowledges that being successful and achieving great things can be lonely.

It’s also lonely at the bottom
The singer recognizes that struggling and failing can also be a lonely experience.

Cause misery loves company and everyone who’d comfort me was there to see my sorrow
The singer recognizes that they attracted negative people into their life when they were miserable, rather than finding those who would support and uplift them.

So I decided I should stop, and I’m coming home tomorrow
The singer has made the decision to stop their negative behavior and is returning home to try and make amends.

And I plan to pay you back for ever day and every hour ever minute that I borrowed
The artist plans to make up for lost time and make things right with the person they hurt by repaying them for the time they took from them.