BALENCIES
CHIKA Lyrics

Barack Obama, ha
A playful entry to the song, indicating a lighthearted mood

Is that some kind of sauce?
A sarcastic question, implying confusion or disbelief

Goddamn, I got Balencies in the bathroom
Expressing excitement about owning a pair of expensive Balenciaga shoes and keeping them close at hand

I used to be feenin' for 'em, dreamin' in the classroom
Describing a strong desire for the shoes, even to the point of daydreaming about them during school

Turned in my exam, right then I knew it'd be the last room for school
Realizing after completing a test that this could be the end of her formal education

I walk into for my potential gettin' past due
Feeling as though her opportunities are running out and she needs to make a move

Four years later, and my racks blew
After four years, she has become wealthy

And my whole scene it seemed green like Yoshi ass, too
Her surroundings now feel like they're full of money and luxury, like the green character Yoshi's butt from the game Super Mario Bros.

Now people takin' in your face, I ain't ask you
Being overwhelmed by people wanting things from her and feeling like they're taking advantage of her success

But you been seein' how they live, so they ain't have to
People wanting things from her because they've seen how she's living and believe that she can afford to give them things

And the whole world is conversatin' 'bout your waist line
Being judged and criticized for her body by the public and media

And mental health days make you guilty, 'cause you waste time
Feeling guilty for taking time off for mental health, because society values productivity over self-care

I'm fightin' everybody demons, but can't face mine
Struggling to deal with her own personal demons and inner battles

Baseline, use all that pain and anger and just make rhymes
Using the pain and anger she feels to fuel her music and creative expression

How I'm upliftin' your whole life but still I hate mine?
Questions her own happiness and mental state while trying to help uplift others

How I get rich but still get pissed about the money?
Feeling conflicted about her wealth and how money can bring its own set of problems

Now everybody wantin' me to wear a fake smile
People expecting her to put on a happy face despite her struggles or negative feelings

How I'm supposed to fake a laugh when ain't shit funny?
Expressing the difficulty of keeping up appearances when things are tough and there's nothing to laugh about

I'm runnin' but
Feeling like she's constantly on the go or trying to catch up to something

Droppin' all this change, just gon' end up in the vacuum
Money doesn't hold much value for her anymore and feels like it's being wasted or lost

It was days I thought I needed
Reflecting on past desires or wants that may have seemed important at the time but lost their significance

But now acceptin' all the change got me defeated (ah)
Accepting change and growing up can be difficult and sometimes brings feelings of defeat or sadness

I'm on my second pair
Still enjoying her Balenciaga shoes and holding onto them

One pair is out, one in the closet 'cause I left 'em there
Having multiple pairs of the same shoes and forgetting where they are

Remind me, every single night been writin' raps ups in my closet
Remembering her humble beginnings and the long nights of crafting her music

I ain't sleep much, but it paid off 'cause it got me here
Sacrificing sleep or other comforts for her art has been worth it, since it led to her success

I went to Europe, met a fan who lived in Paris
Traveling to Europe and meeting with people who support her and her music

I know it hit me, 'cause I started walkin' different
The experience of meeting a fan in Europe had a profound impact on her and how she carries herself

For once in life, I spoke my mind, I'm not embarrassed
Feeling empowered to speak her truth and be herself

So many stories, but my friends don't even listen
Having a lot to share but feeling like her friends don't fully understand her experiences

The only girl who got my heart live in Miami
Romantically interested in someone who lives far away

I saw her smilin' in my head, I started plannin'
Visualizing a potential future with someone she cares about

And listen, shit may change, but one day, yeah, I want a family
Despite all the uncertainty in life, she knows she wants a family one day

Already got a puppy, now my child the first of many
Starting a family with a pet as the first step

Got hella dreams, and as of late I steady see 'em
Having a lot of aspirations and feeling like they're becoming clearer

I had some idols as a kid, whoever knew I'd be one?
Reflecting on her childhood and how she's now someone that others may look up to

'09 stood in Atlanta, freezin' cold at 4am with my whole fam
A specific memory of a tough time, standing outside in the cold with her family in the early hours of the morning

Just to audition for a role I knew I'd be in
Going above and beyond to pursue her dreams, even if it means taking risks or facing rejection

I didn't make it, but damn I made it
Not getting the specific role she wanted, but still recognizing and celebrating her achievements and progress

2-0-1-9 the year I waited
Feeling like a lot has led up to this year, making it significant

My mind been racin', gettin' closer, I can taste it
Feeling like she's on the cusp of something big and exciting

Got a story but I don't know how to pace it
Having a lot to share with her audience but not knowing how to structure it or tell it effectively

It's lightnin' in a bottle, I been orderin' in cases
Feeling like her creative ideas are coming to her quickly and abundantly

I'm fuckin' wasted, but
Possibly referring to being drunk or high, but still feeling energized and driven

Starvin' for affection, someone meet me in the backroom
Craving love and companionship

I'm not insane, it's been a minute
Feeling like it's been a while since someone has shown her love or affection

But if we talkin' 'bout a game, I know I'm 'bout to win it, yeah
Confident in her skills and ability to succeed, even if she's feeling emotional or vulnerable in other areas of life