anxiety!
CONVOLK Lyrics

Run me outta town got me outta bounds
I feel like I've been pushed away and isolated from everyone in my life

Don't forget me now never let me out
Please don't abandon me, don't leave me alone in this state of mind

When I come around you just let me down
Whenever I reach out for support, you disappoint me and it makes my anxiety worse

So I'll let you down and I'll let me drown
In response, I will distance myself and let my anxiety consume me

I been in a cage for two weeks
I've been feeling trapped and confined within myself for a long time

Can't get out of bed, I'm too weak
My anxiety has drained me of my energy, making it difficult to even get out of bed

Anxiety holds my shoestrings
Anxiety has a tight grip on me, controlling every aspect of my life

Can't get out of my head, I'm too keen
My thoughts are overwhelming, constantly racing and consuming my mind

This hospital room is too clean
Being in a sterile environment only magnifies my feelings of isolation and vulnerability

When I'm on my own I'm losing
When left alone with my thoughts, I feel like I'm losing control over my anxiety

Man, I'll end my life and you'll see
My anxiety becomes so overwhelming that I contemplate self-harm or suicide, hoping it will make others aware of my pain

When we wake up to a new dream
I long for a fresh start, a renewed outlook on life that is free from anxiety

Take another Ativan mix it with a bad friend
I resort to unhealthy coping mechanisms like taking medication and being influenced by negative influences

Sleeping like a sandman
I rely on substances to escape and numb my anxiety, hoping to find solace in sleep

Blood all on my hands again
Metaphorically, I feel responsible for the negative consequences of my anxiety, as if I've caused harm to myself or others

Okay, now my brother's dead a headache
Facing the death of a loved one intensifies my anxiety, causing immense emotional pain

I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I feel guilty for burdening others with my anxiety and for not being able to control it

I'm really gonna die next year
My anxiety convinces me that I won't be able to overcome it, leading me to believe that my life will end soon

From underground to under grave
My anxiety has taken me from a state of feeling trapped and suffocated to a point where I fear it will ultimately lead to my demise