i fucked up
CONVOLK Lyrics

I'm sorry that I fucked up
I regret my actions that led to a negative outcome.

Now we go through it again
I am experiencing similar negative consequences for my actions.

Where I gain another pain
I am causing myself more emotional pain and suffering.

And I lose another friend
My behavior has caused me to lose the trust and friendship of someone close to me.

I fucked up
I made a mistake and I am taking responsibility for it.

It's getting hard to stand
I am struggling to cope with the consequences of my actions.

And I missed another plane
My behavior caused me to miss an opportunity or experience negative consequences.

'Cuz I took another xan
I used a drug as a coping mechanism for my problems.

I'm fucked up
I am experiencing distress or discomfort due to my actions or circumstances.

'Cuz of all the things I say
My words have caused harm or consequences that I am now regretting.

I don't mean it
My words or actions were not intentional or meant to cause harm.

But I think that I'ma say it anyway
I am struggling to control my impulses or emotions, leading me to act in ways that I know are harmful.

I don't think I can be saved
I am struggling to see a way out of my current situation or problems.

If I ever get redemption, it'll be inside the grave
I feel that the only way to make up for my mistakes is through death, reflecting a nihilistic or fatalistic outlook.

Yeah, I fucked up
I acknowledge that I made a mistake and I am taking responsibility for it.

Rick James
Reference to the musician Rick James.

22 chains (Migos)
Reference to the hip hop trio Migos and their song 'T-Shirt' which references having '22 plain chains'.

Tried to change
I attempted to improve or change my behavior, but was unsuccessful.

Take away the pain (Take away the pain)
I used drugs or other substances to numb myself from emotional pain or discomfort.

Made it out the motherfucking block on my own two
I overcame difficult circumstances or challenges through my own efforts.

Tried to hit me up when I'm up, I don't know you
I do not accept false friendships or relationships that are solely based on success or achievement.

The memories I have
I have vivid memories of past experiences or people that continue to affect me emotionally.

The things I've buried in the past (buried in the past)
I have repressed or ignored past experiences or emotions that continue to affect me in the present.

Moments I cannot get back, still can't forget you (I can't forget you)
I regret past actions or events that I cannot change, and I continue to be emotionally affected by someone from my past.

And when the tears fell down your face
I recall a specific moment or experience when someone was emotionally affected by my words or actions.

And all the words I can't erase
I cannot take back or undo the harm caused by my words or actions.

All the highs
Reference to positive experiences or feelings.

I tried to change, still can't forget you (I can't forget you)
I attempted to move on from past experiences, but still struggle emotionally and mentally.