Riz started writing his deeply personal songs at age 12, and later paid his way through college through touring. During his sophomore year, he had a major break when Mod Sun invited Riz to join him on a 35-date run also featuring blackbear. That tour hugely broadened Riz’s diehard following, many of whom have shown their love and gratitude via tattoos of Call Me Karizma’s logo and lyrics.
If I Had a Heart
Call Me Karizma Lyrics
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I'd probably stop taking you back
if I had a heart
I'd probably start painting it black
and I'm sorry
that I'm so weak
if I had a heart
I'd probably give you all of me
You crumble me. You kill me with your subtlety
Watch you wave goodbye like troubled seas
Is feeling hurt what "love you" means?
I just miss when you were still here
But you're with someone different this year
You found another way to stop tears
While I'm in my bedroom crying
If I had a heart I'd probably stop taking you back
If I had a heart I'd probably start painting it black
I'm sorry that I'm so weak
If I had a heart I'd probably give you all of me
You care for me. You were there when no one cared to be
But you took my heart to tear the seams
You were first in line to bury me
I just miss when we would hold hands
And we'd dig our toes into the cold sand
I told myself I'd never get this sad
But I'm in my bathroom crying
Why do you fuck with my heart?
I don't know
We fogged up my fathers car long ago
All these scars you've left on me
Are paper cuts to memories
I'll forget you eventually. I don't know.
The song "If I Had a Heart" by Call Me Karizma paints a picture of a person who is struggling to let go of a toxic relationship, and who is constantly wrestling with the idea of moving on. The lyrics are raw and evocative, speaking to the deep emotions that people can experience when they are caught in a cycle of hurt and betrayal.
The opening lines speak to the singer's desire to break away from their partner, but their weakness and deep emotions keep them tethered to this person. They talk about how they would stop taking their partner back if they had a heart, and how they would start painting their heart black. This imagery is powerful and suggests that the singer feels as though their heart has been stained or dirtied by this relationship. They apologize for their weakness and express a willingness to give themselves fully to their partner, even though they know deep down that this is not what they truly want.
The next verse delves deeper into the pain and heartache that the singer is experiencing. They speak about how their partner crumbles them and kills them with their subtlety, causing them to feel hurt and confused about what "love you" really means. They express a longing for the past, when things were simpler and they were happy together. But now their partner is with someone else, leaving them to handle their emotions alone. The chorus repeats, hammering home the point that the singer wants to break free from the cycle of pain, but their emotions are a powerful force that keeps bringing them back.
Line by Line Meaning
if I had a heart
If I was capable of truly feeling emotions
I'd probably stop taking you back
I would stop letting you hurt me over and over
if I had a heart
If I cared about myself more
I'd probably start painting it black
I would have a darker outlook on love and relationships
and I'm sorry
I feel bad for my own weakness
that I'm so weak
That I let you continue to hurt me
if I had a heart
If I was stronger and more self-assured
I'd probably give you all of me
I would not only give you my heart, but my entire being
You crumble me. You kill me with your subtlety
You break me down and hurt me with your passive-aggressiveness
Watch you wave goodbye like troubled seas
Seeing you leave is painful and tumultuous
Is feeling hurt what "love you" means?
Does your love always have to come with pain?
I just miss when you were still here
I long for the person you used to be, before you hurt me
But you're with someone different this year
You have moved on to someone else and left me behind
You found another way to stop tears
You have found a way to not feel emotional pain, whereas I am still hurting
While I'm in my bedroom crying
I am alone and in pain, while you have moved on
You care for me. You were there when no one cared to be
You have shown me love and kindness when no one else did
But you took my heart to tear the seams
But you have hurt me deeply and broken my heart
You were first in line to bury me
You were the first person to hurt me and break my heart
I just miss when we would hold hands
I long for the intimacy and affection we used to share
And we'd dig our toes into the cold sand
I miss the simple moments we shared together
I told myself I'd never get this sad
I thought I would never be in this much pain over you
But I'm in my bathroom crying
But here I am, alone and crying over you
Why do you fuck with my heart?
Why do you continue to hurt me and toy with my emotions?
I don't know
I am confused and lost in my emotions
We fogged up my fathers car long ago
We used to have moments of happiness and intimacy, but those are gone now
All these scars you've left on me
You have left me with emotional scars that will take time to heal
Are paper cuts to memories
Each time I remember the pain you have caused me, it feels like reopening an old wound
I'll forget you eventually. I don't know.
I may be hopeful that time will heal my wounds, but I am not sure if I will ever completely forget you
Contributed by Gabriella Y. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Vibes Media
Lyrics :
You crumble me. You kill me with your subtlety
Watch you wave goodbye like troubled seas
Is feeling hurt what "love you" means?
I just miss when you were still here
But you're with someone different this year
You found another way to stop tears
While I'm in my bedroom crying
If I had a heart I'd probably stop taking you back
If I had a heart I'd probably start painting it black
I'm sorry that I'm so weak
If I had a heart I'd probably give you all of me
You care for me. You were there when no one cared to be
But you took my heart to tear the seams
You were first in line to bury me
I just miss when we would hold hands
And we'd dig our toes into the cold sand
I told myself I'd never get this sad
But I'm in my bathroom crying
Why do you fuck with my heart?
I don't know
We fogged up my fathers car long ago
All these scars you've left on me
Are paper cuts to memories
I'll forget you eventually. I don't know..
Vibes Media
Lyrics :
You crumble me. You kill me with your subtlety
Watch you wave goodbye like troubled seas
Is feeling hurt what "love you" means?
I just miss when you were still here
But you're with someone different this year
You found another way to stop tears
While I'm in my bedroom crying
If I had a heart I'd probably stop taking you back
If I had a heart I'd probably start painting it black
I'm sorry that I'm so weak
If I had a heart I'd probably give you all of me
You care for me. You were there when no one cared to be
But you took my heart to tear the seams
You were first in line to bury me
I just miss when we would hold hands
And we'd dig our toes into the cold sand
I told myself I'd never get this sad
But I'm in my bathroom crying
Why do you fuck with my heart?
I don't know
We fogged up my fathers car long ago
All these scars you've left on me
Are paper cuts to memories
I'll forget you eventually. I don't know..
Vibes Media
Thank you to the few people who gave this comment a thumbs up, I hope you enjoyed the lyrics ^^
Shinobione
In my bathroom dying*
carly xo
i think it’s “in my bathroom dying” not cryinf
abby weidel
100th like😂😂
Andrew Overdose
I found this song from Travis Thompson’s “need you” (listen to it if you vibe off this ) this is definitely my song. Seriously though
silvester
I love karizmas style! his voice is sooo unique! but is it wrong that im afraid to play his music Infront of my friends. im scared to be judged.
L K
# 3,721 to like this. i get beautifully numb chills as I listen to this. the lyrics are phenom.
lyrics are my life. i just left a 7 year toxic relationship and i'm learning to love Me again. this is perfect for me right now., reminds me I left cuz I wanna be HAppy. This music makes me fucking happy. content. & at peace. as well as confirming my decisions. <3
Casteny
Amazing song! This beat is so Dope :3
Y’allSome Hoes
I love this 🙌🙌 I can relate to it a lot 🔥