On this path, there were a few obstacles that presented itself. One of the biggest hurdles Calvin has overcome was his struggle with his weight. Calvin unfortunately weighed over 450lbs. At six foot four he was displaying a 60-inch waist and a coat size of 64/66L. Although he weighed a lot physically, the emotional weight seemed to outweigh the pounds. Fear and insecurity were the driving forces behind his struggle. However, there was always an inner knowing that he wasn't going to be overweight if given the chance to record a CD. After losing over 215lbs and many layers of emotional weight, Calvin has started somewhere on the journey to share his experience with everyone. "I always felt that God told me that he would bless whatever I put my hands to, but I had the problem of not putting my hands anything.At the core of the title cut, "Start Somewhere", co-written and produced with veteran producer Mark Heimmerman, the theme of procrastination runs throughout the song. "It is a message that I believe every person can benefit from. I have a real desire to see people lose the weight that is holding them back, whether it is physical, spiritual, or emotional. We all have an appetite out of control that is ultimately weighing us down Hebrews 12:1 says it best, "Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us." "One thing that I tell people is that I lost the weight from the inside out and not the outside out in." With a heart and passion for pursuing the presence of God, a deeper relationship with Christ was the only way out of Nowell's struggle.
What seemed to be his misery has amazingly evolved into ministry. Calvin began leading worship throughout his journey and has developed a special knack for worship. With the musical influences from Fred Hammond, India.Arie, Michael W. Smith, CeCe Winans, Calvin has developed a unique cross-cultural sound. Since the door of "potential" has been opened, Calvin is a gifted singer/songwriter living in Franklin, TN. All of the songs from Start Somewhere were co-written and co-produced by Calvin. He has toured and recorded with some of today's top artists and worship leaders including, Michael W. Smith, Nicole C. Mullen, Israel Houghton, Katinas, Livingston Taylor, Helen Baylor, Vicky Yohe, Geron Davis, and Lynda Randle. Calvin has appeared on many television and video outlets including, ABC's Good Morning America, TBN's "Praise The Lord", TCT Alive, Pax TV, The Dove Awards, Michael W. Smith's Worship DVD.Outside of music, Calvin is a professional motivational speaker and workshop facilitator. Calvin has appeared on national television shows with Dr. Don Colbert (Celebrity health professional/author) as his special guest. Calvin has spoken at major corporate arena events highlighting his weigh loss testimony. Calvin has received endorsements from other celebrities, such NBA player, Allan Houston; National recording artist, Kirk Whalum; National recording artist, Nicole C. Mullen, Producers Mark Heimmerman (dc Talk, Michael W. Smith, Amy Grant) and Chris Harris (CeCe Winans, Jaci Velasquez, Anointed), and Evangelist/motivational speaker, James Ryle (Board Founder of Promise Keepers).
Start Somewhere, his debut EP mixes heartfelt worship with elements of Pop and RB. Nowell consistently proves to be one of the few worship leader/songwriter in modern times with the ability to cross multiple music genres and generations while retaining true authenticity at each one. "There are many styles of music that I write and sing. However, I choose to display the various different sounds but use the same theme of worship." This project features the mainstream inspirational song, "Truth and Start Somewhere", worship ballads, "Unrestrained and Open My Heart" as well as Calvin's personal testimony that has inspired millions. There's only one quote that can best sum up Calvin's journey and it is from St. Francis of Assisi, "Start with what's necessary, then what's possible, and suddenly you're doing the impossible." Start Somewhere and change the weigh you are!
Inside Out
Calvin Nowell Lyrics
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You waste my tears now
No more torment
But don't just say you've gone away
You tell a fuckin' tale
(Swallow me and spit me out)
How do I get trought of this?
Can, you, see, me...
Smiling when I sing this song
Right, now...
I just want to be alive
You know I was dying when you told me
(That I'm not yours anymore)
You know I was dying when you told me
(You're just playing and fooling around with me)
When the time she comes and wakes me
(She comes and wakes me)
And when she bit my lips and kissed me there
And when she holds my hand and lives my life tonight
(Live tonight)
When she said that she really loves me
Were the worst fucking days
I'm dying and bleeding of my past
I'm dying and bleeding of my past
Now slit my throat and let me bleed
Now slit my throat and let me bleed
Can, you, see, me...
Smiling when I sing this song
Right, now...
I just want to be alive
You know I was dying when you told me
(That I'm not yours anymore)
You know I was dying when you told me
(You're just playing and fooling around with me)
When the time she comes and wakes me
(She comes and wakes me)
And when she bit my lips and kissed me there
And when she holds my hand and lives my life tonight
(Live tonight)
When she said that she really loves me
But suddenly you came to me, and begged me to be yours again
Right now you're holding my hand but sorry baby, but all I can say is
No, hell no...!!!
Can you see the times grows older
She blew my dreams away
It's all done, the time is over
I don't know how to say to you
Can you see the times grows older she blew my dreams away
It's all done, the time is over
I don't know how to say
The time is over!!!
The time, NO!!!
The lyrics to Calvin Nowell's song "Inside Out" are a representation of a heartbroken individual who has been left by their lover. The opening lines of "For the last time, you waste my tears now, no more torment, but don't just say you've gone away" indicate that the singer is at the end of their rope with the relationship and is tired of the emotional turmoil that their partner has inflicted on them. The singer reflects on how they were dying when they were told that they were not theirs anymore and that their lover was just playing and fooling around with them. The singer goes on to detail a surreal encounter with another woman which contrasts sharply with the pain they feel. They describe being bitten on the lips, kissed there, held their hand, and live their life that night. Furthermore, the other woman tells the singer that she loves him which only reminds the singer of the lies and deceit that their former lover committed. They then detail how their former lover begged them to be together again and how they rejected them without remorse.
Overall, the lyrics of "Inside Out" are poetic, expressing the anguish and pain of heartbreak. The singer is shown to be in a vulnerable and emotional state, feeling that their heart has been slit open and that they are dying and bleeding of their past. The song ends with the singer stating that the time for their relationship is over and that they cannot continue to feel the way they do.
Line by Line Meaning
For the last time
This is the final time we will have any sort of interaction
You waste my tears now
You've caused me so much pain and sadness that I have no more tears left to cry for you
No more torment
I no longer want to be bothered or troubled by you
But don't just say you've gone away
I need to actually see you leave and not just hear you say it
You tell a fuckin' tale
You're lying to me
(Swallow me and spit me out)
You're doing nothing but using and discarding me
How do I get trought of this?
I'm struggling to find a way to move on from you
(I can't stand it anymore)
I've reached my breaking point and can no longer handle the pain you're causing me
Can, you, see, me...
Are you able to perceive me?
Smiling when I sing this song
I'm putting on a façade of happiness while I sing this song
Right, now...
At the present moment
I just want to be alive
I want to feel alive and happy again
You know I was dying when you told me
You caused me immense pain when you informed me
(That I'm not yours anymore)
That I no longer belong to you
(You're just playing and fooling around with me)
You're only using me for your own entertainment and not taking our relationship seriously
When the time she comes and wakes me
When she arrives to see me
(She comes and wakes me)
She rouses me from sleep or from a daze
And when she bit my lips and kissed me there
Referring to a passionate kiss on the lips
And when she holds my hand and lives my life tonight
She's living vicariously through me and holding my hand for comfort
(Live tonight)
Tonight is the only time she gets to experience life through me
When she said that she really loves me
When she professed her love for me
Were the worst fucking days
Those were the absolute worst times
I'm dying and bleeding of my past
I'm still suffering from the emotional pain of my past experiences
Now slit my throat and let me bleed
I'm in so much pain that I would rather die than continue to suffer
But suddenly you came to me, and begged me to be yours again
You begged for another chance to be with me
Right now you're holding my hand but sorry baby, but all I can say is
I may be physically close to you, but emotionally I cannot reciprocate your feelings
No, hell no...!!!
I refuse to give you another chance
Can you see the times grows older
Can you perceive how time is passing
She blew my dreams away
She destroyed my hopes and aspirations
It's all done, the time is over
Our time together is finished and there's no going back
I don't know how to say to you
I'm struggling to find the words to express myself to you
The time is over!!!
Our time together has come to an end
The time, NO!!!
I do not wish to go back to that time again
Contributed by Charlie M. Suggest a correction in the comments below.