Fadeaway
Cam Meekins Lyrics

I feel like in my mind it's a livin' hell
I am struggling with mental health and feel like I am trapped in a personal hell.

But I been on my grind if you couldn't tell
Despite my struggles, I am working hard to achieve my goals and improve my situation.

Just tryna move forward just day to day
I am focusing on taking things one day at a time and making small steps forward.

So I light it up just to fade away
To escape from my troubles, I turn to drugs or other vices to temporarily numb my pain.

(Yo Kyle this shit's crazy)
This line is likely added by someone named Kyle and serves as an acknowledgement of the song's intensity or relatability.

'Cause I can't take the pain no more so I say
I can't handle the emotional or mental pain I am experiencing, so I pretend that everything is alright to avoid confronting my issues.

That I'm doin' fine and I feel okay
I put on a facade that I am doing well when in reality, I am struggling.

Just to fade away, yeah, eh
The act of numbing myself is temporary and serves as a way to escape from reality.

[?] doobies, just a J
I am smoking marijuana to cope with my problems.

I'm wonderin' if they don't remember me
I am unsure if my peers or fans will remember me or my music.

I'm sittin' on this flight, it's back to LA
I am traveling back to Los Angeles, likely for work or to pursue my dreams.

But I don't give a fuck about the industry
Despite being in the music industry, I do not care about the fame or recognition, and focus on making music for myself and my fans.

I'm livin' outta sight, I been havin' long nights
I am living a secluded and possibly lonely lifestyle, often staying up late into the night.

I just charge it to the game, shit my credit lookin' light
I accept the difficulties and challenges that come with my career and financial situation, even though I am struggling financially.

Feel like I might die tonight, bury me in off white
I am struggling with a fear of death and envision myself being buried in designer clothing, as a symbol of both wealth and a premature death.

Have a party at my funeral 'cause we gon' do it right
Despite the fear of death, I envision my funeral as a celebration of my life, where my loved ones and fans will gather to remember me and my music.

And I never [?], all I ever do is write
Writing music and expressing myself through art is one of the few ways I cope with my struggles and negative emotions.

Now they wonder how I made it, all these problems in my mind
Despite my talent and success, people may wonder how I achieved my goals while struggling with mental health issues.

Never ever gave a fuck, I just gotta keep it movin'
I prioritize my own well-being above the opinions of others and continue to work hard towards my goals, regardless of the challenges I face.

I'm just hopin' I keep winnin', I cannot go back to losin'
Although I have found success, I am determined to continue to improve and will not let myself regress or fall back into a negative state.