Elysian Fields
Capstan Lyrics

You always swore to me you'd only admire the sky from afar
You promised to look at the sky from a distance instead of leaving this world

With the clouds beyond the moon and stars
You were intrigued by the mystery of the universe and distant astronomical objects

Up there is such an empty place
The vastness of space makes it seem desolate and lonely

So open and vague and the fact that it gave you hope
Despite the vast emptiness, you found hope in the unknown possibilities of the universe

It showed on your face
Your face revealed your excitement and wonder with the vastness of the universe

Were you so lost in emptiness that hope became a foreign phrase
Did you feel so empty that you forgot what hope even meant?

Diluted and forgotten in the endless daze
Hopelessness became your constant state of mind, causing you to forget what it was like to have hope

I never knew how much hate a heart could hold
I was surprised by the amount of anger and negativity that filled your heart

A constant obsession with death and depression marked you astray
You were consumed by an unhealthy preoccupation with death and feelings of sadness

Took you away but I still feel your loneliness like everyday in the worst way
Your death hasn't lessened the feeling of loneliness I have, and in fact, it's even worse now

I'm drowning in the thoughts and the memories
I am completely consumed by thoughts of you and memories that we shared

I'm sinking in your absence, in your passing
The fact that you're gone is causing me to spiral downwards with no hope of returning to normalcy

Quite the sight for sore eyes isn't it
Seeing the effects of your death on myself and others is anything but comforting

Watching my stability fall apart
Your absence has caused me to lose a sense of stability and security in my life

Highlighting my imperfections as a work of art
Your death has made me aware of my own flaws and vulnerabilities, treating them as something to be admired

This comatose state won't be ignored
I can't ignore the numbness and melancholy that has taken over my life

I'm sorry you were so lost and empty that hope became a foreign phrase
I regret that you felt so lost and hopeless that you couldn't remember the meaning of hope

But I won't forget you for the rest of my days
You will remain in my memories and thoughts for the remainder of my life

On your death bed
As you lay dying

You left your final words and they read
Your last words were written down and read aloud

My world's become an empty place
After your passing, the world has lost its vibrancy and meaning

Void of comfort I felt death's embrace
I no longer find comfort or solace in anything, feeling only the embrace of death

With open arms I fell back
I had no resistance to death and easily surrendered to it

I want to see the black see less
I want to escape the darkness and endless void of death