The Gun Song
Car Seat Headrest Lyrics

I'm not hung up on you anymore, but here's why I hung up
I have moved on from being emotionally attached to you, but I ended the call because of these reasons

behind every great love story lies a great suicide
The intensity of love often coincides with the pain and anguish that comes with it

you can't give yourself completely and keep the man inside
You cannot fully give yourself to someone while still preserving your own identity

all the sentences I climbed halfway
I started to express myself in words, but could never fully articulate my thoughts

saw the heights of what I wanted to say
I glimpsed the potential power and impact of my words

and crawled from word to word
I struggled to piece together my thoughts and communicate effectively

trying to get back down
Attempting to return to a state of simplicity and clarity

the unending realization that it's never gonna end
The constant understanding that the pain and struggle will always persist

I spend half the day exhaling and the other half holding my breath
My emotional state fluctuates between relief and anxiety

Cause living underwater was never my strength
Existing in a suffocating and submerged state was never something I excelled at

In the depths you reside, the sun never sinks
In your presence, darkness and negativity always persist

So let's float to the bottom for one final drink
Let's embrace our despair and indulge in one last moment of solace

There's time for one more tonight
We have one final opportunity to find temporary relief

it's time to forget while the forgetting's good
It's time to let go and move on before the pain becomes too overwhelming

I'll burn all the promises I carved out of your woulds
I will destroy all the commitments I made to you, which were built upon pain and suffering

you said won't you come into arm's reach
You requested that I become physically and emotionally close to you

abandon your clothes and modes of speech
Strip away the barriers and pretenses that separate us

an infant reborn you shall be
We will start anew, with a sense of vulnerability and dependency

helpless and afraid
Feeling defenseless and full of fear

I'm waving goodbye every time you go to the store
I bid you farewell each time you leave my presence

I hope you break your hand the next time you slam the door
I wish for you to experience pain and regret for causing me anguish

Because I burned my fingers every night
I suffered the consequences of my actions and choices every evening

When your own shaking hands wouldn't give you a light
Even when you were struggling, you couldn't offer me solace

And I said "Jesus Christ, my parents were right
I realized that my parents were correct in their warnings and advice

I never should've smoked you out"
I should never have allowed you to enter my life and influence me

I'd hate to amputate this artificial limb
I am reluctant to sever ties with this artificial connection

But staring at you, my glass eyes are growing dim
Observing you causes my emotional state to deteriorate

I can't even blame you for looking so smug
I cannot hold you responsible for your confident and self-satisfied demeanor

I have to admit you're a hell of a drug
I must acknowledge that you have a strong and addictive influence over me

So pack up the boxes, roll me up with the rug
Prepare to leave and take me along, as if I were a forgotten possession

I'm not moving out, I'm just moving
I am not simply changing physical locations, but experiencing personal growth and transformation

_Kissed_ I kissed you, yes, but never on the mouth
I engaged in physical affection with you, but not in a romantic or intimate manner

_masochist_ you held the north while I conquered the south
While I explored new experiences and territories, you remained stagnant and unchanged

but I don't want a territorial breach
I do not desire to invade or disrupt your personal boundaries

so at the edge of the bed we'll meet
We will find a middle ground and come together despite our differences

and I want you to fuck me in your sleep
I crave a deep and intimate connection with you, even if it is unconscious

it's the only way I'll know that you love me
I can only feel reassured of your love when we are physically connected

(cause there's always gotta be a new angle)
Because relationships always require a fresh perspective or approach

Guns are loaded with silver bullets tonight
There is potential for profound impact or harm in the current situation

But it's useless, you kept me waiting until it was light
Your actions or lack thereof left me waiting in anticipation until morning

But you can't go out the way you came in
You cannot exit this relationship without consequences or changes

In the arms of someone unaware of your sins
You will seek comfort in someone who is ignorant of your wrongdoings

Because I've been recording this whole fucking thing
I have been documenting and remembering every moment of this tumultuous experience

Now you can never use the same chord changes again
You can no longer manipulate the same tactics or patterns to deceive me

The first time was too fast
Our initial encounter was rushed and lacked depth

The second time was just sad
Our second attempt was filled with sorrow and disappointment

If you're wondering why I'm still willing to take the fall
If you're curious about why I am still willing to endure the pain and blame

If I'm not getting fucked over, I'm not getting fucked at all
If I am not experiencing betrayal or mistreatment, then I am not truly engaged in a relationship

But I never asked for immunity
I never requested exemption from the consequences of our actions

That's the difference between you and me
This is what sets us apart from each other

All I wanted was someone who was just like me
All I desired was a partner who shared my qualities and values

And I hate myself for that
And I despise myself for having such expectations

It's getting hard to talk about the past
Discussing our shared history is becoming increasingly difficult

When you've copyrighted the present, no questions asked
You have claimed exclusive ownership over our current circumstances without considering my perspective

You can do whatever you want with my name
You have control and authority over my reputation

But my body's never been public domain
My physical being should never be subject to public scrutiny or ownership

So if you're looking for somebody to blame
If you are seeking someone to hold accountable

Blame Walt Disney Studios
Direct your accusations towards a larger and more powerful entity

I remember, I was walking around outside, talking to you on the phone
I recall a specific moment when we conversed over the phone while I roamed outside

We were both avoiding the parties we attended alone
We both chose to avoid social gatherings where we felt isolated

And I looked up at the drunken moon
I gazed at the moon, which seemed distorted and disoriented

It was round and it was grey and it looked like the moon
It possessed the familiar qualities of a moon, despite its altered appearance

And I said "at least we've both got the moon"
I found solace in the fact that we shared a common experience of observing the moon

And you said "I'm inside"
You replied with a cryptic statement, implying that you were physically present somewhere

so I'll try loving again
I will make another attempt at experiencing love and emotional connection

and you'll try living alone
Meanwhile, you will aim to live independently without relying on others

and we'll meet at the end of this lifetime
Eventually, we will reunite and reflect on our experiences once our time on Earth is over

and compare notes
We will share our insights and observations

(if bitterness is all that I have left
If bitterness is the only emotion remaining within me

I'll be better at being bitter than anybody else)
I will excel at embodying bitterness more than anyone else can

I hate your receptionist
I strongly dislike the person who greets me when I visit you

She looks at me like I'm retarded
Her gaze towards me conveys disdain and disrespect

When I'm filling out your forms
During the process of completing your paperwork

I see your form behind the frosted glass
I catch a glimpse of your figure through the opaque surface

But she says that you're not there
However, she informs me that you are unavailable

I'll have to be content to wait
I must accept the situation and patiently wait for your return

If you felt some kind of stirring
If you experienced a flicker of emotion

Against interpretation
Without attempting to analyze or interpret it

Why write these songs at all?
Why bother composing these songs if you choose not to delve deeper into their meaning

Why not become didactic
Why not adopt a direct and instructional approach

Tell everyone on the planet
Inform every individual on Earth

In plain English what you are
Express your true identity in a straightforward manner

But I am the gentle cannibal
Instead, I embody a contradictory nature of being both compassionate and consuming

I promise to eat you softly
I assure you that my consumption of your being will be delicate and tender

You won't notice a thing
You will be completely unaware of my actions

(Mariamme)
An invocation or declaration of the name 'Mariamme'

you're taking advice from Lady Macbeth
You are heeding guidance from a character known for manipulation and deceit

(William, one shot two shots)
An interjection invoking the names 'William' and referring to firing shots

when it's out of your hands, you try to forget
When a situation is beyond your control, you attempt to erase it from your memory

Mariamme, hold me tight
Mariamme, embrace me firmly

I still wish you hadn't listened to me
I still have regrets about the influence I had over you

I ain't been right since the execution
I have not been emotionally or mentally stable since the event's occurrence

(if I could transfer your desires into belongings and then snoop through your belongings, you know I'd do it in a second)
If I had the ability to transform your desires into tangible items and then explore them covertly, I would do so without hesitation

William, one shot two shots
William, both of those shots were fired

Whoever you are, just hold me tight
Regardless of your identity, simply embrace me firmly

I lost my love, my life, that -
I have suffered the loss of my love and my entire existence

All I know is, one of us was supposed to kill the other
It was expected that one of us would cause harm or destruction to the other

Isn't that what they mean when they say ‘lovers'?
Isn't that the implication of the term ‘lovers'?

But murder is dirty, and peace comes cheap
Murder is a gruesome act, while finding peace is a far simpler task

So here's my new number, tell me when you're free
Here is my new contact information, inform me when you have the opportunity to meet

Down by the river
In a location near the river

I shot my baby
I inflicted harm or caused the demise of my loved one

Down by the river
In a location near the river